SISSY BOY AT MILITARY SCHOOL CHAPTER 6

Yeah, I know that it was such a crazy idea to go shopping with Julia… not because of shopping but because she wanted to buy feminine clothes for me. I don´t even know why I was so excited about it. Most boys would not just agree to such a thing and they wouldn´t let a girl choose their outfits and not even feminine… that would be too humiliating for most boys. But somehow… I didn´t feel that way. I was just happy to spend time with Julia. You already know that I have a huge crush on her. And the phone call with her really helped me to realize so many things. She was really the person who cared about me deeply. After my mum was yelling at me because I was going to play a maid in the school play, Julia really calmed me down and she comforted me. I was again feeling loved… and I really missed this feeling while I was at home with my mother.

After we ended up the call I was again looking at the silky maid uniform and… I kind of couldn´t wait for the moment when I will be fully dressed up as the maid and especially with Julia dressing me up… there just couldn´t be a better imagination. But I was still sad about the fight with my mother. She really let me down a lot. Why she wants me to do only what she wants me to do and she doesn´t care that I want some things as well? This shouldn´t be the way to be a good parent, especially at my age. I was determined to not see her for the rest of the day. She called me to the dinner but I didn´t go there. I was upset. But in the evening I just couldn´t avoid her because she came right to my room even without knocking.

“Ben, I need to talk to you!” she said when she entered my room. This enraged me again… she even didn´t knock and she just entered my room despite knowing that I don´t want to talk with her.

“Mother! Privacy!!! When you will finally respect my privacy and my decisions?” I yelled when she entered my room. She made a disgusted face and she told me:

“I have had enough of your bad behaviour. You are acting more like a girl and not like a man and this must end now! You will have no privacy in my house? Do you understand? This is my house and while you are living here you will obey and respect whatever I say, do you understand?” she almost yelled at me as well.

“No! Mother! I don´t and I won´t understand! Never! You just can´t bear that I am not the son you want me to be and you want to force me into something which isn´t comfortable to me at all. And you are doing it all the time! How can you be a mother when you are acting like this?” I yelled as well. Another fight with my mother was already ongoing and I wanted to yell, scream and cry at the same time.

“Do you know why I am doing it, Ben? Do you know it? I am doing it because I love and I want you to be successful in your life. You must have a good career and take care of yourself and your future kids and family. You must have a good job! And believe me, as an actor you can have an amazing career, but you must let go of nonsense like playing a maid in a school play… This leads nowhere and you must let it go! So tomorrow, you are going to change your role and if you won´t I am going to school and changing the role for you myself!” said my mum and I saw that she was absolutely serious about it. I just couldn´t believe that I really had a mother who is acting like this… She was unebliavable…

“Mother… why don´t you listen to me? You would maybe understand if you would sometimes listen to me… But you just do what you want to do and you don´t care about me at all. But I am done obeying you! I am not going to change my role in the school play and do you know why? I actually like so much to be crossdressed by Julia and we enjoyed such a good day until you ruined it. I like feminine clothes quite a lot and I might actually wear them at home as well because I just like the way it feels on my skin! And tomorrow… I am going with Julia out and we are going to shop for new clothes for me and you can only guess which clothes we are going to buy! I guess you wouldn´t approve of it, but… you know what? I don´t actually care what you approve of and what do you not approve of. I don´t care at all! I DON´T CARE!” I yelled and then… I quite enjoyed the look of my mother. After I told her that actually quite like feminine clothes and that I loved to be crossdressed by Julia… she was just staring at me open-mouthed and she wasn´t able to say a single word for a moment. She was absolutely shocked… her body was stunned and there wasn´t any movement… And as I said… I kind of enjoyed it because it felt like a victory… It tasted like a victory… just for now. Mum was staring at me for a good minute and I could see growing anger inside her chest and a desire for revenge. But to my surprise, she just turned around and walked away. She didn´t say a single word which made me quite happy because I didn´t want to fight… I didn´t want to continue arguing and yelling. That is absolutely useless and until she starts listening to me and trying to understand me, nothing will really change and I made my peace with it.

It was already late evening and I was quite tired after the whole day, after the fight with my mother. The only positive thing about the whole day was my improving friendship with Julia. We really understand each other so much and take care of each other… I still can´t forget that she called me her partner and… maybe… maybe… I HOPE that she feels the same way as I feel about her. It would be my dream to have a girlfriend like Julia. She was a golden girl and I really fell in love with her.

It was time for bed… I changed into my pyjama and I realized that I was still wearing the panties which Julia bought me in the costume shop. I touched the silky material again and I couldn´t help myself… it was really such a comfortable piece of clothes. Why can´t boys wear things like this as well… I was quite sad about it but… I really looked forward to tomorrow because tomorrow right after school I was going to purchase my first own feminine clothes with Juli and I couldn´t wait for that event. And as I was thinking about it, I realized that I could actually text Julia before I go to bed.

“Looking forward to tomorrow!” I texted her and I was hesitating for a while before I sent the message, but… Why not… I was in love with her and I think that she already knows that so there is no reason for trying to keep it a secret.  And I was surprised and pleased because not even a minute after I sent the message came a reply from Julia.

“Me too! We are going to buy you some nice and pretty stuff!” she texted me.

“I cannot wait to try them on!” I replied.

“We must not forget about underwear as well. Panties and bras are coming for you!” she texted.

“I will be a bit nervous!”

“Don´t be! I will help you with everything. The pushup bras will be the option for you because you have no… you know what!”

“Hahaha… yeah… I will be happy if you help me because I don´t know a single thing about feminine clothes!”

“You will know a lot of things after tomorrow! I am so much looking forward to it! Just the imagination of dressing you up into some pretty dresses, skirts and tops is so amazing! It will be such fun!”

“Well… you will enjoy it for sure… I am still a bit nervous, but I am looking forward to it so much as well!”

“It will be the best thing ever! And I am going to rest for such an occasion! Have nice dreams! Good night!” she ended our conversation and it was so sweet of her to wish me nice dreams. I wished her the same and I put my phone into a charger. I closed my eyes and I was imagining the next day. But it was still a bit unimaginable because .. how could a boy imagine wearing and choosing feminine clothes… What a crazy day it is going to be! I cannot wait to see it. But choosing my first feminine clothes with Julia wasn´t the only drama the next day. I really underestimated my mother and our fight. She wasn´t that humble to just walk away from our fight… As I was chatting with Julia she was developing her play which would influence my whole life and my relationship with Julia as well. If I knew what was coming for me tomorrow, I would never fall asleep.