MY MUM LET ME WEAR A DRESS - EARLY ACCESS

Yes! My mum let me wear a girl's dress, but it was even something more than this. She wanted me to wear a dress and she kind of made me do it. I wasn´t smart enough to figure it out and I just thought that I had to do it for my mum. But in the end… it wasn´t that bad at all. I even started to like wearing dresses and I thought that it is a normal thing. Is it? I think so. Why boys shouldn´t wear dresses? Everybody should wear clothes which are comfortable and make one feel good. So… why couldn´t I wear a girly dress? I could… I have… and I will!

It all started in the summer. My parents had a huge fight and it was such a hard fight that my dad immediately left the house and don´t even ask me why he did it. He had an affair with another woman at his job and she was even his secretary. My mum figured it out and she confronted him. But was immediately enraged and started yelling at my mum. He was accusing her of being a bad woman, a bad wife and a miserable partner. It wasn´t fair at all… He was… well he still is a horrible person and people like him should probably go to prison. You shouldn´t ever cheat on your wife and then accuse her of being a bad partner. He was the one who was a bad partner because he cheated in the first place.

And after his department… my mum was really in a bad mood. She couldn´t bear the fact that he was cheating on her and she had a feeling that every single man is just like him… including me. And here starts my crossdressing journey. I remember that one evening we were sitting on the sofa and eating our supper when my mum told me:

“My poor Joe… I wish you were a girl… not a boy. You should have been a girl… a daughter of  mine… not a son!”

I was quite surprised by that sentence and I stopped eating. I looked at my mother and I could see in her eyes that it wasn´t a bad joke. She was absolutely serious about this and it made me even a little bit scared.

“What did you just say?” I asked her. “Do you want me to be a girl? Why would you say that, mum? Did I do something?”

“Oh no, my sweetie… you didn´t do anything… I was just thinking aloud. But I really mean it. You should have been a girl… Boys are so unpredictable and I don´t mention their behaviour. Have you already forgotten your father and his behaviour? He was a man as well and look at him! He was cheating on me and then accused me of being a bad partner! What a bad person he is! And I don´t want you to be the same person as he is… That is why I would like you to be a girl! It is so much better being a girl! One is far more empathic and sensitive… You just don´t say things which hurt… Being a girl is far better than being a  boy!” my mum explained her point of view.

“But mum… it doesn´t mean that all men are as bad as my father…  I definitely don´t want to be my father and I won´t be like my father! Never!” I tried to assure my mum… but she just shook her head and told me:

“Men are all the same… you won´t change them… unless you make women out of them!” she said and she walked away to her bedroom. I finished my supper alone and I was thinking about what my mum told me. Maybe she was right and maybe all men are the same. But I still wanted to believe that I am not like my father. I would never cheat on my future girlfriend and I would never hurt anybody like my father hurt my mum. Never.

The next day I woke up and it was an extremely warm sunny day. Even in the morning, the weather was already so warm and I was sweating in my room. And just after I got up I heard my mum knocking on my door.

“Joe! Can I come in?” I heard her asking.

“Yeah…” I said. I was just in my summer pyjama and I was surprised that my mum was already awake as well. She always sleeps for a very long time. But she came to my room already fully dressed and she told me:

“I have a surprise for you today! It is more like an offer! I am going to buy you a new FIFA PC game if… if you go to see my old friend from school. We haven´t seen each other for such a long time and she has a really pretty daughter and you can spend a nice afternoon together while I will catch up with my bestie from school! Do you agree?”

“Of course, I agree!” I cried out and I hugged my mum. She would buy me a new FIFA game… I cannot wait for it. And it is such an easy task to visit her old bestie… I would be happy to do it for a new FIFA game. What a sudden change in her mood. And I was also glad that she was trying to get her old friends back. It will make her feel better after that affair with my father… I hoped.

“Okay! We will leave in one hour, Joe! I am so happy you have agreed to this! Dress up and come to the kitchen for a quick breakfast before we go!” my mum told me and she walked away from my room. I couldn´t believe that I will have a new FIFA game! That was just brilliant and I can´t wait for it!

Okay… I need to dress up I thought and I went to my wardrobe. It will be a very warm day so I should put on shorts and a t-shirt. I had plenty of t-shirts but… I couldn´t find any of my shorts. That was impossible. I had plenty of them as well but suddenly I couldn´t find a single piece. That is just not possible… I went to the kitchen and asked my mum:

“Mum, have you seen my shorts? I just can´t find any of them in my wardrobe and I cannot wear long pants today… It is such warm weather that I would cook myself!” I said. My mum made a surprised face and answered:

“No, my darling… You should have our shorts in your wardrobe!”

“But I looked for them there and it was futile…!” I said.

“Hmm… let me look!” my mum said and she went with me to my room. I opened my wardrobe again and let her look inside it. She was looking for them there but the result was just the same… nothing… All my shorts were suddenly lost and I had no idea what I was going to do…

“That is strange… well… there is nothing we could do… you must wear something different!” my mum told me.

“But… I only have long pants and I cannot wear them today… Look outside… The sun is burning everything!” I opposed.

“Yeah… you definitely cannot wear your long pants! Your body would be overheated and it would be dangerous for your health! But… Joe… I really want you to come with me and… I have an idea! Come with me!” said my mum and she led me to her bedroom. I was surprised but I hoped that she will have a really good idea. I wanted to go there with her in order to get to the new FIFA game. And I was willing to do anything for it.

My mum pulled out a very old and big case which was hidden under her bed and she told me:

“Joe… you will not probably like this but it will be the only option for you. And I want you to go with me today. And don´t forget about your reward! So… are you willing to do anything for me?” she asked me.

“Of course, mum… I would do anything for you!” I said.

But I should have said something a bit different because when I said it, my mum opened the big case and it was full… full of girl´s clothes. It was probably my mum´s old clothes and I could still smell a feminine perfume in them. I was a bit shocked when she opened it because I could already see so many feminine clothes and stuff… Dresses, tops, skirts and all of it. My cheeks immediately went red when I saw all of this. I was just speechless and the only thing I could do was observe my mum and how she is picking up the clothes for me.

“Hmm… I wonder what would fit you best…” said my mum and she pulled out a blue mini-dress… She handed me the dress and she told me:

“Try it on! I think that this one will be perfect for you!” But she also saw how embarrassed I was. She giggled and told me: “Don´t be shy! It will be fun! You will be my daughter for this day! And you will be rewarded! I believe that the new FIFA game is really good!” When my mum said the thing about the new FIFA game… I got the motivation again. I can do it for the new FIFA game… can I? I didn´t wait for anything and I put on the blue dress. My mum giggled and told me:

“What a pretty daughter! Now… let's improve your outlook with this cute blonde wig!” And before I could say anything she put the blonde wig on my head… I was so shocked and speechless that I even didn´t protest. But my mum wasn't finished at all. The wig and the dress were just the beginning because after that… she started to do my makeup… Yes… she did my makeup and I mean the whole makeup. She didn´t forget about mascara, lipstick, eyeshadows and all of the makeup stuff. In the end… I looked like a girl and nobody would ever recognize that I am a boy.

“What a lovely girl! I love my new daughter!” giggled my mum and this was just the beginning of my crossdressing journey.