I Do Worry
Added 2022-11-26 14:18:41 +0000 UTCYesterday was a very hard day for me. For whatever reason, I was on the verge of a panic attack and felt like everything I worked hard for was going to fall apart. Contrary to the soul-searching badass you sometimes see—I can be very self-sabotaging. I go through bouts of thinking I’m not that good, I’ll lose everything, and I’ll never amount to anything.
It’s part of the ongoing battle with OCD. Which…again, OCD isn’t merely just rearranging or being a perfectionist—it’s an everyday battle with your own mind.
That aside, I’m worried I’ll disappoint people more than anything. I do want others’ happiness over my own. I enjoy making disgusting art because it makes people happy. Now that im relegated to this…it’s not a good feeling. And I know it was a hard day which is why I try not to beat myself up, but it makes me sad.
All I can keep saying is how grateful I am for everyone sticking by me in these times of hardship. Seriously, I can’t thank y’all enough. I keep going for y’all, because it’s in my nature to give. Just bear with me a bit longer.,💜 I promise I’ll get better as fast as I can.
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And I love you, Thomas. I love you very much ❤️
Cory Cowley
2022-11-26 17:18:21 +0000 UTCI just don’t ever want people to be upset. It’s something that bothers me greatly. Thank you for being here for me, Suzi. It certainly helps to have a place where I can be open and honest.
Cory Cowley
2022-11-26 17:17:58 +0000 UTCI know that words can‘t heal anything, I‘ve got depressions myself. But you should know that you are missed. This should not lead you to try to get well to soon. Most import for everyone is health, cause without one is not able to feel good. And without you won‘t be satisfied with yourself, your work, your successes. So first you get fit then you go on. Love you gall.
The Devils Blood aka Thomas Quante
2022-11-26 16:17:57 +0000 UTCSweetheart we all LOVE YOU! You are not a disappointment! I know you get in your own head sometimes. With all of this sitting around time im sure its worse now than EVER! Sending you so many blessings of strength and perseverance today! Take a breath and do something NICE for yourself! Take your time healing like you should. We will all be here for you waiting. <3
Suzi Deadlie
2022-11-26 14:25:17 +0000 UTC
