The Black Sheet 🖤

Before you read this please note that it may be triggering to someone suffering mental illness, because you'll know this too well.. 

One of my poems I wrote, called: 

The Black Sheet

It comes and covers me most of the time, I call it the black sheet,

It makes me tired all the time, and does not want me to eat.

It slows my body down, and takes away all my energy,

It numbs many of my feelings, and I can no longer feel happy.

It makes a sunny day appear dark, it covers up the light,

I know I won't get any sleep, as the black sheet lies with me tonight.

It makes me feel worthless, like my life has no purpose or value,

And all those terrible things I think, I'm forced to believe they're true.

It repeats that my life is pointless, to the point where I agree,

It takes every single bit of hope, from deep inside of me.

And when it's done sucking out my life, it leaves me dead inside,

Where the only option I feel I have left, Is my suicide. 

But sometimes it does lift off me, allowing me to to see and feel,

It gives me some of my happy back, though I never fully heal.

The black sheet will always come back, it's never permanently gone,

The fighting and battles against my own mind, always goes on.

I have now learnt to accept that the black sheet, will never truly leave,

And every time I build the hope back up, it crushes all that I believe.

You never learn to live with it, no matter how many times you are together,

But sometimes there is someone who lifts it off you for a while, so cherish them forever.

Even though you expect it, it's still sometimes a surprise when you meet,

You'll find you're stronger than you think, if you share your life with the black sheet... 

Stay strong, keep fighting, people do care about you, a sheet can always be lifted ❤️ When times are low, try to remember the good in your life, don't compare to social media! People assume since I have lots of followers and post cute pictures that my life is amazing, but it's not. Anyone can be suffering but keep fighting 💖

Mistyy

xxx