Agust D - The Last
Added 2022-11-18 23:21:21 +0000 UTCThis song, and the meaning of it all, is something that hits really close to home with me
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roguechevelle
2024-01-03 04:30:28 +0000 UTCYes, he has spoken about this. They said he and Jin were sick and had to go to the hospital, but he later spoke briefly about it... cannot find the clip anymore.
Tric Nel
2022-11-25 05:43:50 +0000 UTCOh wow There’s always new layers to his genius. I love it🫶🏻💜
SugaIsMyPetRock
2022-11-21 22:16:09 +0000 UTCaaaand the beeping sounds awfully similar to an EKG flatline. They are both Bs, or between B and B flat. I think B5 or B6. (I couldn't tell if it is B6 because I can't go up that high. lolol)
FlyUshkiFly
2022-11-21 21:47:41 +0000 UTCtrigger warning I believe the line "tried to sleep on a bathroom floor" is a euphemism for s****de.
FlyUshkiFly
2022-11-21 21:24:47 +0000 UTCHey buddy, I'm so glad you finally reacted to The Last. This is why the man is my bias; he can get so real and raw while still making a banger of a tune, it's so impressive. The bit that was bleeped was " the doctor asked me if I'd ever had suicidal thoughts/tried to k!ll myself" to which SUGA replies "of course" and idols are meant to present a perfect view of themselves to the public so it was deemed too raw to be left spoken. In a few interviews he's said he is doing better but the depression comes back every 12-18 months or so and he knows better how to deal with it now. As a nutritionist and naturopath I focus on mental health myself, I've seen what a huge difference a plant based, anti inflammatory diet has on mood and consistent contentment and I'm fascinated to see in In The Soops and Bon Voyages & Vlives whenever SUGA talks about giving up dairy, wheat, sugar, coffee and alcohol; I'm sure they all have helped enormously. I haven't had a panic attack since doing the same, and taking enough magnesium and b vitamins has made me actually sleep properly for the first time in my life (oh guess what, I'm not a night owl I was just deficient since childhood!) so I'm glad my fav artist has found a balance for himself and hope anyone else struggling does too, and echoing you John I'm happy to be contacted if anyone is struggling and really wants change, that's what I do <3
Ayla
2022-11-19 20:07:32 +0000 UTCI appreciate that you care but know the same applies too you also don’t feel you have too push yourself if you are aware of anything that suggested that triggers your own sensitivities. Even if it means those songs interviews are done just you and fam or friends without the camera.. it’s okay not too feel okay the journey of BTS finds you when you need them is a personal journey in the struggles and situations your facing allowing too have us along is our blessing but don’t feel obligated too push yourself before your ready… what you do and what you stand for is beautiful the open hearted comments and non judgement is wonderful too see and as a not quite year baby ARMY finding kindness in such a massive following is such a amazing feeling. Take care Borahe 💜
Beck
2022-11-19 13:31:19 +0000 UTCSUGA=Genius! Nuff said.
Shannon Harden
2022-11-19 07:14:51 +0000 UTCI can't remember where I got this from...I think yoongi said he hated The Last for a long time but now he's ok with it. even if he still has his down moments (we don't know but fairly speaking everyone does) he has healed a lot judging by his recent interviews Suga was asked what he feels about creating music that is so honest and raw about his pains and sufferings. Suga's answer: "it wasn't that difficult. Because we work on music a lot, we have many songs out there. So when we work on our individual projects, we always think about what to talk about. Now that we look back at those experiences, we feel thankful, because they enable us to tell various stories. And the things that used to be painful to recall. are not anymore, because releasing music also helps alleviate that emotion. For me it has been helpful. Many people are living with their traumatic memories, but i'm sure the moment will come when they overcome that. And i also think you need to go through the process where you organize these emotions. And for me, one of that process is releasing music" there's also this piece from another interview: “I think I’m happier now,” he confides. “I’ve realized that happiness doesn’t require much, and it can be quite simple. I used to think material things would give me happiness, and I worked hard to achieve them. But when I succeeded, I wasn’t so sure anymore. I don’t have many earthly desires anyway,” he says with a laugh. “Perhaps it’s because I now know that material things no longer give me great satisfaction. So now, I try to find happiness in simple things, such as getting up early in the morning and having decaf coffee. I’m glad I’ve finally got to experience this kind of joy. What I lost would be being ordinary. Your ordinary is my extraordinary, right? But I think time will solve this issue.” The Last is from his first mixtape. You can see that he has changed a lot since then by this quote of him: “My first mixtape was all about anger, but then everything was sorted out, right?” SUGA explains with a laugh. “I realized that I didn’t know who to be angry with anymore. Finally, I was able to look at myself. I’d been making a weapon out of anger and a sense of inferiority, but around 2018, my self-destructive rage slowly started to subside. I realized that I couldn’t channel creative energy through only those sorts of emotions any longer.” and now a recommendation for future yoongi's music reaction is his song People from second mixtape “‘People’ is my favorite song as well,” SUGA says. “Because it’s a record of four years of my life. I set aside most songs after they’re done, but I find myself relistening to ‘People’ all the time, and I experience different emotions each time I hear it. It’s a song I put on mostly when I’m feeling lonely and sentimental.”
Becca L
2022-11-19 03:29:02 +0000 UTCAs most ARMY know Suga has suffered for many years with depression, anxiety and OCD. After his panic attack had canceled the concert in Kobe, Suga went back to the venue when it was empty to relfect, he then had a short break and wrote a long letter for ARMY, and also referred to it in his song "The Last" ..... The translation of his letter is attached for you: Hello, this is Suga. Many people were curious as to what I was doing on my break, and to simply put it, I walked a lot, slept a lot and thought a lot. I wanted to go on a trip to organize my thoughts before working on my mixtape. I also had a place I must go to. I wanted to do things I was able to do not as a 24-year old BTS’ Suga, but as a 24-year old Min Yoongi. It was a time where I looked back at myself. The things I will say now are things I wanted to share not as a singer to a fan or as BTS to ARMY, but to talk to you as human to human. I've always wanted to be a cool person to a lot of people. Having rationale thoughts and making rationale decisions in any situations. I wanted to live like my father. My father said to take a look around you when there's something to be happy about. Be calm and make rationale decisions when happy. The first day when "I need u" got 1st place, I took a look at my surroundings. Every minute I'm happy, I acted as if I'm not. When I'm sad I acted as if I'm not. Even if I like it, I acted as if I don't like it. I pretended to be cold-hearted and pretended to be strong. If a joy is shared, it will be doubled but if a sadness is shared, it won't get smaller. That's what I thought. I know I'm a person who's bad at expressing my emotions but I've been living that way and I thought it's right. One day, I can't exactly remember when, I was in a car with my father and he said "Yoongi, don't live like me". The first day of vacation. The first day ever since I was born, I drank with my family. It has been 6 years since I left home. We were all just chatting, listening to stories that we haven't heard of. The strong and cool father that I know, knows how to feel hurt and sad, how to feel happy and love.. 1.5-pyeong in the practice room, my studio is my wide meadows and narrow prison. I can do anything and at the same time, I can't really do anything. I can work on music thoughtlessly for 20 hours, but I can also sit there and not do anything but just thinking for 20 hours. I was 13 years old when I first started writing my own lyrics. When I listen to good music, I will feel really excited and I feel really happy more than anything. To me, music is my hope and my happiness, I also want to be someone's hope and happiness. Actually I'm someone who would just walk away rather to crash and feel pain. Anyone hates being hurt and I don't want to get hurt. In "Nevermind", "If you feel like you a going to crash then accelerate more". Perharps, that's actually what I wanted to say to myself. The most upsetting time for me when I face a large number of people, is when I face myself who isn’t able to be fair to everyone. I didn’t want to hurt anyone, but there are times I couldn’t do that. I think I’m still a person that lacks in many things. The second day of the concert in Kobe... I don’t think I’ve ever slept deeply after that day. Could it be because of the fact that I gave a wound to many people? Whenever I fell asleep, I would wake up with cold sweat. Because I already once have not been able to go on stage before and have hurt many people, I said that I’ll go up (to perform) no matter what situation arises. Everyone tried to stop me. I really cried a ton at the situation of not being able to go up on stage. And I know crying is losing. It’s really easy for me to cope with my own sorrow, but witnessing those who love me in sadness is very hard. I made them sad, once again. If I could go back to that day, I would go on stage no matter what. So there was just one place to go. I went to Kobe during my break. Many people tried to stop me from going, but I didn’t want to be ashamed of myself any longer. So I just went to Kobe without planning. It was my second time visiting the concert venue after a concert. The first was Ax Hall at late night after finishing the first Red Bullet concert. The second time was the Kobe World Memorial Hall, at where I failed to perform. I hate becoming a numb person. I didn’t want to take the love and these glorious days for granted. I didn’t want to be a numb person. That’s why I visited the venues again on my own. (T/N: He’s saying he doesn’t want to take all the love he’s receiving as granted, he really wants to appreciate every single love he gets. He’s meaning numb in the way by how he wouldn’t be able to feel what the fans feel about him. He’s basically saying he wants to appreciate every love he gets from his fans) I liked being on stage, and I still do. When I was 17 and performed in front of 2 people I stood proudly and made eye contact with them during my performance. However after my debut I feel that I have not been righteous towards myself. I think it may be because I knew better than anyone that I wasn’t perfect. And then on the day of the first performance of HYYH on stage I made proud eye contact with the audience that I didn’t do in quite a while. But after the second day of the Kobe concert when I was unable to stand on stage, I didn’t have the courage to confidently confront the large number of people. So that’s why I visited Kobe, the concert hall again. I kept wandering around the area by the concert hall from the time I arrived there until the time our performance was due to begin that day. From the ticketing booth to the entrance and the concert hall - I wanted to feel the same emotions as you all from every nook and corner. I felt many emotions. Happiness, the excited nervousness felt while waiting for the performance, sadness, resentment, anger, regret, etc. I wanted to understand you all, and I do understand. So I’m sorry and apologetic, for I am not a perfect human being. I’m a person who is weak but acts strong. Once again I realized that I was a person who’s lacking. Although I’m not religious, I prayed at that place. After all, at the end, it was a fated day. Even if it’s ended, let’s not let this heart become numb. To me, who wanted to spend every moment alone, you all were taking up quite a large part (of my mind). Age and gender, nationality and religion, what language you use - all of that isn’t important to me. "Whether you're young or old, whether you have a hidden child, I don't care", haven't I said this already. That day, we unexpectedly had a Music Bank broadcast and I boarded a plane and returned a day before planned. I returned after organizing my many thoughts. Once again, while feeling that I’m a blessed person, I felt that I need to be a person who lives every moment feeling thankful. This is the moment I realizied the fact that 24-year old Min Yoongi, who hates being an adult, is standing in front of the threshold to being an adult. Thank you for making me a blessed person, ARMY. Although I’m never able to say this because I’m bad at expressing myself. Here I am conveying my feelings and thoughts once more through a piece of less-than-satisfactory writing. I will live while being thankful of every moment as I am such a lacking human being. I love you, ARMY.
Becca L
2022-11-19 03:26:30 +0000 UTC🥹🥹 thank you Justine! Honestly it was a hard one for me to watch but I’m so glad I did! It was beautiful! I love this song!
John Reaves
2022-11-19 03:08:49 +0000 UTCI love this song so much :( <3 I love that you did this reaction. Can't imagine anyone else doing it justice like you! (I don't know. words are hard. lol Hope you get what I'm saying!) Thanks for always keeping it real!
Justine MacDonald
2022-11-19 00:41:10 +0000 UTCNow that you listened to this go back and watch Deachwita again. His new self Dark Haired AgustD kills off his old self Blonde AgustD who wanted Big Cars Big Rings Money Fame all the things in No More Dreams when he was younger. And then he spoke about it again in Shadow. No one told him what life is like when you become famous. You get all those things but you lose yourself. You lose your freedom. It’s very lonely because you don’t know who you can trust. People use you. It’s still going on with their government. But he has learned to deal with it. Today might be a bad day but there is always tomorrow. As long as you keep pushing through it, it does get better. There were so many times when I was younger I didn’t want to exist anymore. I tried but God wasn’t ready for me to go yet. He had plans for me that I had no idea about. I now have a job I love helping people that are underserved. I have helped so many families that if I erased myself back then might not have been helped. We don’t realize how many lives we make a difference in and help. One of our nurse sent me a letter and told me about about the many families I have helped but never knew it. She hears the stories from the families and wanted to share them with me. I was in tears. I had no idea. I don’t do what I do for recognition or acknowledgment I do it because I came from a place of nothing and someone helped me once and when I asked how can I pay them back, all they said was pay it forward. I was 23 at the time. Lost my parents and I felt…. So from that day forward all I wanted to do is help others and pay it forward. Anyone that feels like erasing themselves, don’t do it. You being in this world is more important than you realize. And it does get better. If you feel overwhelmed reach out to someone to help you get past that hump. * virtual hugs * Thank you Min Yoongi, Suga, AgustD for this amazing song. And thank you John for letting us join you on your BTS journey and reacting to this song! 💜🫰
Raynstor.m
2022-11-19 00:41:08 +0000 UTCOMG!! This is my absolutely favorite song of his!! He is so honest always
Olena
2022-11-18 23:32:00 +0000 UTCHe’s talking about attempting suicide but mental health is not talked about in Korean society so I feel by bleeping that out makes a very powerful statement towards that. 🫶🏻💜
SugaIsMyPetRock
2022-11-18 23:30:57 +0000 UTC
