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Hallo everynyan!! I'm back! It's already been a week huh..

Sorry to keep everyone waiting for new art and stuff.. everything should be back to normal now.. my arm and shoulder still hurts but taking a week off drawing really helped 😭😭 im not in as much pain as before even though i still get sore sometimes.. BUT ITS' MANAGEABLE NOW.. Thank you everyone for letting me take the break😭😭😭 i'll reply to everyone's messages soon, im really really grateful to have so many kind people rooting for me.. My biggest fear was logging back onto patreon after a week and see nobody here asjkdnkjn but hopefully thats not the case..

I've been thinking a lot about season 4 and how its the last one and how I've been handling the plot and i feel like there's a sweet spot between writing interesting plot without making it too bloated.. too bad i feel like whenever i write politics stuff for the webtoon ppl just dont gaf, esp the webtoon readers 😭 which i get bc if i read a yaoi i'd wanna see the couple too.. taking a week off from posting on webtoon also makes me feel like people'll just drop the story altogether cause people just dont have time nowadays 🥲 i just feel like the weekly episodes are such a bad format for my storytelling style bc the way i write works better if people binge the comic instead of waiting for episodes weekly thats why I dropped kangshiro side comic all at once.. it's just better when the entire thing is read in one sitting i feel.. that's why there's so many cliffhangers 😭 even though i try not to write so many cliffhangers it's really a curse.. I feel real bad..

I also think the fact that Cherie and Crush are in such a bad place is doing sth bad to my mental too like does anyone ever feel like if ur ocs going through sth ur also going thru it..? cause i feel like i'm trapped in a room with rats rn since everytime i write for cherie or crush I'd have to be in their head and its like damn get me out of here wtfffffjkndsfkjnas but when theyre happy i'm like yay everything's sunshine and rainbows i have nothing to worry about.. ^_^..! or maybe im just going crazy from writing yaois for so long.. idk.. don't write yaoi you guys you might develop cheriecrushbrain disorder and you will bald from the stress..

I still think my art sucks ass but i don't hate it as much anymore like there's more dire things that needs my attention and wallowing in self criticism isnt gonna help me draw any faster so i should just suck it up and keep drawing and eventually i'll get used to it.. everytime i get into a bad artblock where everything i draw looks like shit i just think of it like a grind.. just get the shit drawings out first the good ones will come later.. eventually, if theres 10 drawings 1 is bound to be good right.. idk.. im just yapping atp sorry😭

Anyways that's all for the yap this time, thank you everyone for letting me take a week break I'm really really really grateful to have such a wonderful community who are way too nice to me.. you guys never made me feel like im less of an artist whenever i'm in an art slump and hopefully this art slump won't last much longer.. cause i really need to lock in for the last season or im cooked skajdnsakjn I'll post a nsfw poll in a couple days so there will still be a hole post for this month but there won't be a nsfw comic for the time being until the webtoon finishes.. thank you all for still being here I hope you all like these paintings, stay warm and have a good week everynyan i loveyoumwhamhwam