Into July update

Hey everyone. 

So, I feel like I need to make a general life update since June overall is not a month I'm particularly proud of in terms of art activity. And I'm even less proud of what I think is the overall cause of my inactivity.

So let's just skip the foreplay and tell you why I'm not proud; does the name Cookie Clicker ring a bell? It's that stupid idle game where you click a cookie and then buy buildings and upgrades that do the clicking for you. I began playing it in May and, well...when I find something like that that's easily addictive, it tends to consume my life and attention for quite a while, until I wise up to the fact, or just burn out.

Now, I get that you're probably thinking in your head, "Jinn. Fucking really? Cookie Clicker? That's the reason why you weren't drawing?". I know, I get it. It's stupid, EXTREMELY stupid, but that's the honest-to-god answer to the problem. I know it's the answer since, when I removed it from my bookmarks bar, I've suddenly had a big spike in drawing and design interest. Who woulda thought removing such a time-consuming, addicting thing from my life would free up time and energy for other things? I feel just as stupid about it as it sounds reading it back.

I don't want this to be a giant sappy "I'm only human forgive me :(" kinda post, I'm sure you're aware that I'm just as much a human bean as you all are. I just want you all to know that I have flaws, I made a stupid decision, wasted my time, and I'm going to do everything to keep myself from making the same stupid decisions again.

I really do want to apologize to you all though, for having to see the new content stream turn into a trickle, my $3+ patrons for having smaller and smaller sketch packs (this one's going to be no different...but again, that will improve), and my $15 patrons especially for my lack of responsibility. It should always be on me to reach out to you all for your monthly commissions, instead of me assuming that you'll just do it instead. That kind of stupid and arrogant shit is yet another thing I look forward to avoiding as time goes on.

I guess the only real positive I could get out of June was my weight loss, losing around 13 pounds in the month, and 23 pounds overall since I started. Definitely still a ways to go (Currently 207 lbs, looking to hit 170), but I'm certainly proud of that. Light at the end of the tunnel, I guess.

My next thing will be an animation, it will feature Boss Lady (Remember her? She still doesn't have a name!). May-June sketch pack on the 1st. 

Thank you for reading and supporting.