EPISODE 6 PT 1: THE HANGED MAN
Added 2022-12-06 06:09:00 +0000 UTCIn this special, intermission-style episode, we take a winding road toward a major topic in this series: the ineffable. Starting with a discussion about the role of perspective in our approach to depression, I share my personal experience with the ineffable and dissociative states (...and a bad acid trip). We also touch on Goya, trauma, desire, and derealization, and return a bit to the moth analogy.
I had to break up this episode into two parts due to the length, but if possible they are meant to be listened to together. Part 2 will be up ASAP, and will cover reference points and some of your questions about the empowered surrender.
Comments
The account of your acid trip was similar to an experience of mine. The usually fleeting, ineffable moments of deja vu became my totalizing reality, and my rational mind tried to make sense of everything even though (of course) it's impossible, the ineffable is not effable. Later, much like you described, the essence of everything was emptied out. Interestingly, telling myself that derealization is just my mind, it isn't 'real,' wrested me out of it. Looking back now, I basically fell back into the materialistic version of reality as a coping mechanism. Your podcast helped me recognize this and I'm excited to fully unearth the ineffable with respect.
Maya Z
2024-08-03 19:51:18 +0000 UTCI wish I could send this to my 13 year old self, thank you for pushing through.
Esther Thielking
2024-05-08 15:52:58 +0000 UTC
