myriamtillson

myriamtillson

Inktober 2018 Day 3/31

Added 2018-10-03 17:49:05 +0000 UTC

Today was tough, not gonna lie.

I am struggling a lot with comparing myself to last year and trying to step away from that and focus on doing pieces I love, but the self doubt and fear are really nagging at me and making me quite mentally exhausted.

I am really enjoying working in red and black, but brush pens are tough lil things to get used to, and my biggest issue is textures. I LOVE intricate textures, and there are much more difficult to achieve with brush pens than with fine liners. But I'll get there. I'm already learning tons, and I'm taking note so I can share what I learned with you all once Inktober is over.

I really love Inktober, but my personal doubts and demons have come in force this year. A good opportunity to learn to tame them I suppose.
This piece is a little bit how I feel right now, a bit lost and floating apart, but still vibrant and hanging on, if that makes sense.

Hope you're all well,
Love ya,
M

Inktober 2018 Day 3/31

Comments

It's now nearing the end of Inktober and as I look l back at all of your pieces so far I think this one is my favorite. I love the pose, I love the contrast, I love overall composition and I love love LOVE the mood it invokes. I think it is so relevant to this time of year, being both lonesome and forlorn but also lending itself to a higher level of creativity. It's just something that feels fundamentally familiar to me and I really appreciate that.

2018-10-25 13:49:02 +0000 UTC

Hi Dyan, thank you SO MUCH for such a lovely, supportive comment. I really appreciate you taking the time to reassure me in this way, I am so lucky to have you all. You are obviously absolutely right, and part of my decision to use a new medium this year instead of sticking to stuff I know and stay comfortable, was because I want to use this challenge to improve, and not just as a tool to create the same work that was previously successful. I don't want to ever trap myself in the repetition of what work simply because I am scared of the reaction of people and stop myself from exploring new routes. I want to keep pushing myself, and learn to distantiate myself from my self doubt and the reassuring environment of my comfort zone. I am so glad you are all so on board with me, and that I have your wonderful support to spur me on. :)

2018-10-09 08:21:02 +0000 UTC

Thank you so much Virginia, that means a lot! I find gouache frustrating too, especially coming from a watercolour background. How is your inktober going? Thank you for being such a wonderful patron ^^

2018-10-09 08:15:46 +0000 UTC

Inktober is one of those challenges that is both fun and very tough, an extreme version of art in general in fact. And when you add on top that we are trying to make a living off of our art, the pressure is on, haha. Thank you every so much for your very lovely words, I am truly blessed to have you all alongside me! I hope your inktober is going well lovely!

2018-10-09 08:14:30 +0000 UTC

When I try out a new medium, I always have to remind myself that I will need to learn it first and to go easy on myself (which is always more easily said than done eh?!). I’m very grateful to you that you share your feelings about the journey with us- reminds me I am not alone. Granted this is my first inktober but I still feel the stress of it. It’s supposed to be a FUN challenge, yet oddly enough EVERY artist I follow has said something along the same lines as you. 😉 Just think, this time next month you’ll be looking back at all the art you created during the challenge and thinking- man, I kicked ass! You are amazing Myriam and we love ya lady! Keep pressing forward and we’ll be here to cheer you on with support and encouragement! 💪🏻🙌🏻🖤 (Oh and- this piece is amazing! I’m so diggin’ the red and black. Makes me wanna go buy a red brush pen haha!)

2018-10-04 11:46:52 +0000 UTC

Hi Myriam, hope you’re feeling better. Your drawings are wonderful. I’ve been exploring art for about 6 months only mainly w/ watercolor and I found your channel when I was trying out gouache which I find difficult and frustrating but trying it still, also doing inktober, another first, but just for my personal growth in art. I am truly inspired by your art as well as your little pieces of wisdom & advice in art and life as well. Your creations are beautiful and mind blowing. Hope you don’t put too much pressure on yourself. This piece is wonderful. Take care.

2018-10-03 21:21:06 +0000 UTC

Your fears are perfectly valid. I’ve never done Inktober in its entirety, and the small bit I did was very stressful! I saw other artists making beautiful ink drawings and I felt very inferior. I still struggle with those feelings, but it’s also important to not let those feelings dictate how you draw. Your Inktober drawings were stunning last year, yes, but your drawings this year are also gorgeous. It’s important to not compare your work with your past work, just like I shouldn’t compare my own work to other artists’ work. And even if you feel like your drawings aren’t measuring up to your past works, it’s the journey that matters. All of your loyal fans will love what you do no matter what. You’re learning how to use brush pens more articulately, which is a feat in and of itself. By the time this month is over, you’re going to walk away with an incredible amount of knowledge on how to use them. So even if you don’t like your drawings, you’ve still learned something new, which is something all artists should strive to do. Nothing can ever be perfect. I know it doesn’t help to have people say “oh you’re upset? We’ll stop being upset and you’ll feel better,” which is frustrating. Sorry for the book haha. I didn’t mean to ramble for so long. Just know that your loyal fanbase all love you no matter what you do and you will always be supported by us. You’ve got this, Myriam!! Much love from the U.S.!!!

2018-10-03 19:42:16 +0000 UTC

Hey Myriam...don't put yourself under pressure, you don't need to at all! You are an extraordinary artist, therefore are so many people here and on YT and Instagram and so on. There's no one you will going to disappoint, I'm sure. It's said easy, but let this thought take control: What use have your doubts and fears (this one)? Let your desk or easel become an official demon-free zone, feel free to hold an inauguration! ;) Your pictures are wonderful, Myriam, it's wonderful what you've created today. Just do your thing, don't look back or forward, do your art like a child does: Enjoy every single stroke, let yourself go into your world, your painting. You can't do something wrong. Clear your mind, take your brush pens and do the thing you love. :) (And maybe you're kicking not only brush pens- but also demons-butts!!! :D) :D

2018-10-03 18:42:37 +0000 UTC

More Creators

Arif Pribadi

Arif Pribadi

gumroad

Pazos64

Pazos64

patreon

SongofSwelling

SongofSwelling

patreon

Arufuredo

Arufuredo

patreon

あおたそら

あおたそら

fanbox

hamsterzz

hamsterzz

fanbox

rainbowscriber

rainbowscriber

patreon

IDentification-Zer0

IDentification-Zer0

gumroad

Bealce

Bealce

patreon

PhoeniXcel

PhoeniXcel

patreon

gregoryhanesproductions

gregoryhanesproductions

patreon

S4BlackCinema

S4BlackCinema

patreon

RongChuhan榮初涵♥ (LLG)

RongChuhan榮初涵♥ (LLG)

fanbox

いぬたねこみ@VRC

いぬたねこみ@VRC

fanbox

reportgg

reportgg

patreon

5068987040121

5068987040121

gumroad

Zolvatory

Zolvatory

patreon

Loopy_Loops

Loopy_Loops

patreon

ngtt

ngtt

fanbox

gmanreacts

gmanreacts

patreon

WatchemGrow

WatchemGrow

patreon

belhomedesign

belhomedesign

patreon

ふかの鰭マン

ふかの鰭マン

fanbox

雷門AIショップ

雷門AIショップ

patreon

にゃすけ＠AI生成

にゃすけ＠AI生成

fanbox

Abi Corinne

Abi Corinne

patreon

LuvBun

LuvBun

patreon

Lolipop

Lolipop

fanbox

stronggirlstory

stronggirlstory

patreon

Ulrike Kleinert

Ulrike Kleinert

gumroad

casualsims

casualsims

patreon

Double_A4

Double_A4

patreon

鳴瀬

fanbox

vivans

vivans

patreon

Ruben

Ruben

patreon

Azzure ♡

Azzure ♡

gumroad

Seraphim

Seraphim

gumroad

Koi_S3

Koi_S3

patreon

Ceeji

Ceeji

patreon

Angel Fernandes

Angel Fernandes

gumroad