LonelyFans / (Ellie Only) Now What?

Ellie thank you so much for this ❤️ I’ve listened to you and Xander on quinn for a few months now and the most recent overheard pushed me to join the Patreon and I’m so glad I did! I would never have discovered this sage advice, I truly admire the dynamic you two have and how you’ve fostered communication and connection in all aspects of the relationship you two share with us. I love the sweet kind moments you two have and share with us just as much as the steamy and intimate things you share, I’m taking notes of all of it and finding ways to apply it to my own relationship so thank you 🥰

RhyGrace

2024-12-15 03:03:14 +0000 UTC

I’m like 24 hours new to this community but your thoughtfulness, intent, impact and execution of your message was truly beautiful ✨

Kae

2024-12-13 05:19:53 +0000 UTC

This was such a kind thing for you to do, Ellie. Just wanted to say I look in the mirror and all the time now and think of what you you said about cozy tummies and it's been such a lovely thought and a help to me. I appreciate you for sharing all of this. Maybe we all struggle and assume it's only us ❤️

Kristin

2024-12-09 22:20:26 +0000 UTC

This was just so empowering! Thank you for sharing! I feel like so many of us girls feel this way at times, and we need to hold each other up and be there to show those around us that we are all worthy! Thank you for sharing your story and being a voice of empowerment!

1naughtykitten

2024-12-06 16:18:48 +0000 UTC

Ellie, I am never going to be able to thank you enough for this. I have had similar experiences and I really struggle to express and articulate my feelings and emotions at times, but the way you described your past experiences and how you overcame them made so much sense to me and made me feel less alone. You have also made me realise that healing is possible for me. I have a strong feeling that I will revisit this audio many times during my journey, I’m incredibly grateful Ellie, you’ve done so much for me already! Thank you ✨💛

Leah

2024-12-04 21:44:07 +0000 UTC

Wow, thank you so much for this audio, I never knew I needed to hear this. I felt ashame that I'm in my late 20s barely wanting to heal, but you're right, it's never too late. I decided at the beginning of this year that I want to finally heal from my past trauma. It is not easy since I was never not in a relationship, always feeling like I need someone to give me at least a bit of attention, even if they didn't see me as an equal. It is difficult to heal but I can say that I do feel happier finding out my true self and I cannot wait to find put more of who I am, to blossom. And hearing this audio really made me feel like I'm not alone, so thank you so much. ♡♡♡

Kayjarim

2024-12-04 00:14:20 +0000 UTC

Ellie, thank you so much for this. I’m only 27, and this is all exactly what I needed to hear. I was already looking up to you as mentor in the bedroom (seriously, Talent? Season the Witch? holy hell), as an aspiring romance writer, and as just couple goals with you and Xander. But this is just another level. I could listen to you talk all day.

Caitlin 🩷🌻

2024-12-02 18:17:07 +0000 UTC

I knew this would be what I needed after the disaster that is usually family time during holidays. I’m sending you a big virtual hug Ellie. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. “After I cleaned house of all my bullshit, it was just me” Oof, yupppp. This made me cry and really just solidified that I am not alone in this journey. And I can’t express how much that means to me.

Britt and Belle

2024-12-02 16:15:19 +0000 UTC

Thank you for this, Ellie. It's late and I'm tired and can't properly express my feelings about the audio but just wanted to say thank you because it all made so much sense and meant an awful lot. Your recent interview too was also excellent: I have been through some possibly similar experiences so it really resonated with me. Sincerely, another woman in her 30s just learning to accept that it's ok to want pleasure.

petrichor

2024-12-01 23:31:38 +0000 UTC

Love you too, Melly ❤️

La Nuna Luna

2024-12-01 21:13:05 +0000 UTC

Love you, A. xo

Melly

2024-12-01 21:12:09 +0000 UTC

"it's never too late" a truer truth has never truthed. It took me until I was 42 to realize I had been a spectator in my life, in my body, in my sexuality, and also to realize that wasn't enough. I'm 54 now, and lots of days are still a struggle, but it is WORTH. IT. I've learned to be unapologetic about what and whom I love, though in my new barrel-shaped perimenopause body I feel some days like I'm starting all over with loving my physical self! But I still put in the work, I still refuse to let myself look at my body negatively, because this is my body, and it has taken me through 54 years of life and all the joy and sorrow and pain and exhilaration that goes with that. So every day, I stand naked in front of that full length mirror, and I pet myself and look at myself with love. And I look at the tattoo on my forearm, the one I read in a smut book that I got before the long long list of other tattoos I want, the one that says "my flawless carcass," and I laugh and say Walter White style "you're goddamn right." Anyway, this Russian-novel-length comment is TL:DR I hear you, I see you, I feel you, and if I can do it you can do it. I believe in you.

Margaret Peffy Margie Maggie

2024-12-01 17:51:10 +0000 UTC

After being around toxic family members for thanksgiving…this is exactly what I needed to come home to…thanks Ellie❤️❤️

Amanda Kuhlman

2024-11-30 23:37:45 +0000 UTC

You are a godsend for these wise words. As a curvy gal whose internal voice closely resembles the hurtful voice of my mother, your warm advice is so timely. Can’t let folks who don’t deserve the dirt under our shoes to be the main characters of our own lives. Thank you, Ellie!

Coco

2024-11-30 23:11:46 +0000 UTC

Ellie... 🥹 i had to listen to bits of this in between all the family time and it sure hit home. We're so lucky to be a part of this community you and Xander have created. So damn thankful 🩶🩶

Lacey

2024-11-30 18:55:42 +0000 UTC

Wow!! I have so many thoughts…..but I’ll settle on THANK YOU, Ellie! You are a beautiful soul and you and Xander are doing so much more for your viewers than you realize!!! 🖤

Kate

2024-11-30 16:58:25 +0000 UTC

Thank you endlessly for this Ellie, this was so so beautiful. 💞 it's so crazy to think that the things I've always thought about my life and situations I've had to deal with throughout my whole life; they aren't completely unique.. We all have them in some way. And it's so so reassuring to know it is possible to heal and be better then how things were. Thank you again for sharing how amazing you are and how you're such an inspiration. 🫶 ~ lotus

Lotus and Chanel

2024-11-30 14:58:30 +0000 UTC

Ellie, this was wonderful and so needed right now; I cannot put into words how grateful I am to hear your words. Thank you.

Corinne

2024-11-30 12:39:08 +0000 UTC

Oh boy! As a 25 year old girl trying to navigate being alive and enjoying my body and autonomy, I needed this. Ellie, thank you so, so so much.

Esmé

2024-11-30 04:14:06 +0000 UTC

That’s my beautiful friend- I adore you

MerryMegadon 🎄✨

2024-11-30 04:09:30 +0000 UTC

Thank you for sharing with us and being so vulnerable ♥️

Sarah

2024-11-30 04:03:10 +0000 UTC

Oh, Ellie. You are such a gift and a true girl’s girl. Thank you for your generosity and your realness. You are thriving, and you share these words of wisdom because you want us to thrive too - that’s the definition of a powerful woman. When you said “I want more - for every woman” that really filled my cup 🥰

Gladiatrix14

2024-11-30 01:22:23 +0000 UTC

I needed this 🩶 thank you, lovely

KnuckleBuckle

2024-11-30 00:19:27 +0000 UTC

This is beautiful. Thank you for articulating everything we need to hear about ourselves. I feel all of this. I spent my late teens, 20s and early 30s incredibly self conscious and too worried about what other people thought. My weight yo-yo’d. I stopped writing. I put up with jobs that treated me like shit. My perfectionism got in the way of the good. Now, in my late 30s and two kids later, I am the happiest and most self confident I’ve ever been. I realized I’m bi. I don’t put up with shit. I’m writing again. I also weigh the most I ever have. And you know what? I look f’ing amazing. I feel strong (and I came to terms with the fact that I had big ol’ curves no matter my weight — so why not enjoy it instead of starve myself?!). And I’m having the best sex I ever have. I’m writing againPart of me thinks I just needed to grow up. But I also started therapy and have seen a lot of myself in my kids — and I didn’t want the cycle to repeat. So here we are! 💙

Vic

2024-11-29 22:18:28 +0000 UTC

I’m about half way through this and will be back to finish it but I just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I still hold a lot of trauma from my abusive ex despite the fact it has been 9 years since he existed in any real capacity. I am learning how to love myself everyday and the work you have put out into this world to share with us has helped me remember that all the things I’ve fought for? I deserve them. I was right to fight for them. Also absolutely lost it when you said “because they lived” talking about your past selves. As someone who spent a majority of their life being in so much pain that the opposite felt safer it was really healing to hear that reflected in that statement. They lived through all of that shit and now? Now I’m gonna make it everyone else’s problem in the best possible way

Jenna

2024-11-29 22:01:55 +0000 UTC

Ellie, I wish I could give you a hug. You’re such a force of nature, thank you so much for sharing this!

Shedyr

2024-11-29 20:24:59 +0000 UTC

Thank you for giving me something I didn't know I needed ❤️

Cap

2024-11-29 18:03:38 +0000 UTC

Im a Malaysian mummy of an autistic son and I have been in survival mode for the last 3 years. Its a lonely life especially when your peers have “normal kids” they cant relate to.but hearing from u both while I wait for his therapy sessions with a straight face is like the highlight of my week. It feels like im checking up with friends from time to time. I don’t want to be in survival mode anymore, I gotta build myself, make myself stronger especially since Im not sure whats the future is like for my son buy im positive he’ll be happier having a happy mom that loves herself too. Thank for the lovely reminders Ellie we do need it from time to time. Only you can save yourself ❤️

dreamingstill

2024-11-29 15:31:08 +0000 UTC

Ellie, you are incredible. Thank you for sharing your journey. I am sure so many of us can relate. It is easy to look at the relationship you and Xander share with us and think it seems so easy between the two of you. Now everyone can see the hard work it takes to get to a point to be able to share ourselves fully with someone else. Once we do the hard work within ourselves we can truly share with someone else. I am on a parallel journey with you and it is incredible to be able to hear it described so perfectly. Love you sweet girl. 🖤

Belle

2024-11-29 13:09:08 +0000 UTC

standing ovation 👏 Thank you! 💜 Also love that you are a fellow lifter, it makes me feel so strong in every way 💪🏽 and along the way I’ve learned to love the body that allows me to lift those big weights.

Hello Brian

2024-11-29 11:30:33 +0000 UTC

First of all, Ellie, this audio is truly one of the best thus far! You truly speak not only for me, but for every girl who is feeling the exact same thing. And it’s funny that you mention that because as a curvy 29 year-old pansexual who does not have any experience, I’m currently in the situation of loving myself. I thank you from the bottom of my heart that you did this audio. You are truly both beautiful inside and out and in this whole journey that you’ve been on made you a stronger and more capable caring person right now. Because of you, you really brought out that in me. Thank you so much Ellie and sending my love to you. - Chanel 🥰

Lotus and Chanel

2024-11-29 07:59:08 +0000 UTC

Being a woman comes with so many challenges. Alot of them we make for ourselves. I over think everything! It's my biggest flaw. I'm what people call a late bloomer(sex wise)I was focused when I was young on getting into a great school, once I got there I was focused on learning. I only had sex a few times before I got chronically ill and almost died. Many years have been spent trying to survive, or trying to get stronger afterwards. I didn't have a O till I was in my 30's. I had to teach myself how to have one, and then I could have one with men. I'm divorced, I left my ex in 2014(found out he cheated) I did it knowing I will be alone probably the rest of my life. People yell at me when I say this but men don't like/want someone with a chronic illness. I've been alone most of my life so I know. I've made peace with it. Finding Quinn was a revelation! I have learned sooo much! If I ever have sex with another person he better do alot of stretching and hydrating first. 🤣🤣🤣 oh man. Lol. Body image has been a life long issue for me, but I'm working on it. After I left my ex I re connected with one of my college boyfriends. This guy just happened to be the one who broke me. He would always say thin will win and no other man will ever want me because I wasn't perfect. He apologized and we both saw a counselor together for about 6 months. I know that sounds weird but I feel so much better about everything now. I wouldn't recommend that for everyone but it helped me. Thank you Ellie for opening up. It was much needed. 🫂🖤

Jennie Owen

2024-11-29 07:02:42 +0000 UTC

“the only time you’re a failure if you’re alone is if you failed to build a woman you’d be alone with” 👏 like cmon! ellie, this was just so so special and important. thanks for sharing!

jayjay

2024-11-29 05:59:33 +0000 UTC

Gosh this resonated with me so deeply. A couple things you said totally encapsulated some of my feelings/experiences. “I had sex to prove that I was valid” was me for most of my 20s. I’m now 35 and married and I still feel embarrassment and shame for some of the ways I behaved in order to get that validation. And “I felt like my body made touching me a chore” is a feeling I still grapple with now. Thank you for sharing this with us. I think it’s so important that we share these experiences with each other instead of hiding them in the dark recesses of our minds. Much love and gratitude to you, Ellie 💛

nautilusxX

2024-11-29 05:51:08 +0000 UTC

omg fellow powerlifting girlie! 🙋🏻‍♀️ i feel like being muscular/curvy simultaneously is very under-represented and like you said, i rarely see women with this body type. this meant so much to me!

Z

2024-11-29 05:30:36 +0000 UTC

Oh Ellie, I didn’t realize I needed this as much as I did. Thank you 🥹❤️

ellen 🧚‍♂️

2024-11-29 05:17:40 +0000 UTC

I feel like this calls for at least 110 pints of ice cream (based on likes on this audio currently). I love that "it's the icing on the cake, but there needs to be a cake.". Today I am thankful for this audio 🙏 thank you for sharing with us.

Heather

2024-11-29 05:00:38 +0000 UTC

Ellie. Thank you. I cannot adequately express how much this speaks to me.

haley

2024-11-29 04:27:19 +0000 UTC

Back after listening and I have… so many thoughts. It’s not any easier for girls who are tiny and shy. Until I found my people, I would literally be forgotten about even in my own home. It is SO hard to show up for myself every day, telling myself I matter, that I’m allowed to take up space, that my voice is worth hearing. But I’m doing it. And I’m lucky enough to have a partner who has supported me and watched me become more and more myself as I’m accepting my own identity. This was such a good reminder to be proud of myself for doing that hard work. 🥹🫶🏻

Gabby🌸

2024-11-29 04:08:01 +0000 UTC

Thank you Ellie! Happy Thanksgiving!

Machelle Butts

2024-11-29 03:34:59 +0000 UTC

Literally finished this and immediately started it over. I can’t even tell you how spot on the timing is for this right now.

Catsquiltstattoos

2024-11-29 03:30:07 +0000 UTC

Thank you for this Ellie!

MilaHarrogate00

2024-11-29 03:15:48 +0000 UTC

spending thanksgiving alone bc of family drama so thank you, needed this 🥺

Z

2024-11-29 02:56:45 +0000 UTC

From one loud, curvy 30-something girly to another bravo 👏🏻 You go queen Ellie! 👸🏻

AbbyLi

2024-11-29 02:26:26 +0000 UTC

I just started therapy a month ago after being afraid of it for years. It's scary to feel the instability of taking off your heavy armour. But I know it's what I need to do, because I deserve happiness. I think of little Lara, and do the difficult things for her, because she always deserved love. Ellie, you're shining, what you send in to the world only makes it better. You creative magical soul. We are all ENOUGH. Thank you 🫂

Lara

2024-11-29 02:07:53 +0000 UTC

A girl's girl 😭👏🏼🖤

Jazlyn

2024-11-29 01:18:09 +0000 UTC

So beautifully said, thank you so much for sharing so much with us. 🙏 The positive self talk element of unlearning these negative messages is so hard, and feels so alien sometimes. I try imagine all the girls I used to be, and how horrible some of it was, especially as a teen, and I just want to wrap them in my arms and tell them that they’re safe. And ultimately those girls are all still part of me, and I can’t fix the past for them but I CAN change how I treat us now, and we deserve that. Aaaand now I’m tearing up, time for hot chocolate ❤️

Foxanna

2024-11-29 01:17:26 +0000 UTC

This audio is like a warm hug. 🫂

moxierose

2024-11-29 00:22:53 +0000 UTC

I didn’t expect for this to hit so hard but it did and healed a part of me 🥹 I’ve been on a journey of self love and Quinn has helped tremendously but this was something else so thank you so much for this ❤️

Butterscotch

2024-11-28 23:43:22 +0000 UTC

This is just so incredibly gorgeous and raw and balm for the soul in such a needed way! Been reflecting and feeling so much of this and really felt the part about being comfortable with yourself when you’re alone with yourself, have felt that soo much since going sober and since turning 30! These are the conversations that are sooo freaking important omg. I’m so grateful that we have a community here that 👏🏽 isn’t 👏🏽afraid 👏🏽to👏🏽go👏🏽there with these sorts of conversations. We need them and we gotta all look out for each other and do the hard work for ourselves. Thank you so much for taking us to this place, Ellie! I needed this reminder and encouragement today, (and will probably need it tomorrow and the next day and the day after that). Here’s to befriending ourselves 🫶🏽

Rainydais

2024-11-28 23:35:54 +0000 UTC

Ellie, thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! As someone in their early 20s still trying to navigate life and find and love myself through all the challenges, hearing this audio definitely healed parts of me that needed healing. Because I’d definitely had to look around my room and say “cut the cameras!” lmao cause everything you said was so relatable in its own manner ! For someone who always been a people pleaser and always putting their feelings aside to satisfy others it’s definitely been hard trying to find love for myself when I always been putting others before me. Then with body image it been a nice little battle trying to love my boobs because everyone that I was friends with or whoever always made me feel self conscious about my chest because they’re bigger than most girls and people will make comments calling them “grandma boobs “ or “droopy” etc so I’ll always felt self conscious when it came with wearing anything revealing or anything with less support so I always just wore baggy top so their wasn’t any attention on them especially during intercourse because I was scared that the expectations of them looking “perfect” would’ve been let down but eventually I’ve been trying to love them because at the end of the day they’re apart of me and everyone else opinions of them can kindly go down the drain lmao. And last but not least “letting go” that’s been the hardest battle so far is letting go because yes it is scary to be alone and lately life has been feeling quite lonely when you start realizing and seeing who’s really not meant to be in your life and it’s very very hard letting go of those that you’ve thought you could’ve trust or thought you’ve actually knew but at the same time I rather be alone instead of being around or keeping people around that rather just leech off you, bring you and your worth down or never having anything nice to say or do because their just negativity sucking vampires lmao but overall it doesn’t feel lonely or scary knowing that there’s someone that always going to be there by your side no matter what ! Truly thanks again Ellie 🥹 and Happy Holidays! 🫂🫶🏼

mira

2024-11-28 23:35:09 +0000 UTC

I’m new here, and I’m very much looking forward to listening to this before bed 😌💖

Gabby🌸

2024-11-28 23:34:21 +0000 UTC

I have been putting in the hard work for about 5 years now as well. I still have so many bad brain moments about my size and feeling worthy as a sexual being because of my size, but I have come so far in my overall view of myself and my worthiness. Growth and healing truly is not even close to linear and thank you for being the disembodied voice that reminded me of that today. 💕

'Rah

2024-11-28 23:30:25 +0000 UTC

Santa is making early deliveries this year

Shari

2024-11-28 23:20:36 +0000 UTC

I'm so proud of you, my sweet pop-tart.

Rhiannon

2024-11-28 22:48:52 +0000 UTC

I'm an autistic woman in my mid twenties who's never had sex because the mere thought of someone finding my chubby self attractive in that way always seemed ridiculous at best and wishful thinking at worst. So I did the only logical thing and surpressed any desire I had for intimacy to never be rejected (I'm being sarcastic ofc). Now I'm at a point in my life where I don't want to keep living like this- quietly hating myself and scoffing at the idea of being worthy of love- and undoing all these years of selfhatred is fucking hard. This audio came out of nowhere for me and hit me like a freight train. To say I was in tears by the end is an understatement. I can't express how cathartic it was to hear such a compassionate and kind person tell me it really can get better. You gave me an anchor to cling to in the worst parts of healing and I can't thank you enough for being so open and vulnerable. So thank you Ellie, truly🤍

NoxRose

2024-11-28 22:24:27 +0000 UTC

As an almost 49yo, I fucking relate to this so much. I can listen to people tell me these things all the time, but I STILL have the hardest time telling myself these things and just being gracious to myself. Thank you for this Ellie.

Chris Cox

2024-11-28 22:01:38 +0000 UTC

I don’t know that I’m ready to process my emotions after this yet but I’m going to try. This was beautiful. Thank you, Ellie, for continuing to be vulnerable and come from a place of love and allowing us a space to be vulnerable with you. I grew up in a conservative Christian home. Sex wasn’t something that was talked about in our home, ever. Bodies weren’t beautiful or celebrated, they simply were a vessel for the soul - a vessel that was seldom valued and often mistreated. As an adult I find it interesting that there isn’t more value placed on the idea of the vessel, but that’s neither here nor there. So the idea of sex for pleasure - or anything for pleasure - was really foreign to me and something I felt guilt over as an adult. Enjoying favourites foods, feeling good after working out or running the dogs or even a hot bath just felt superfluous at best or hedonistic and wrong at worst and how toxic is that!? Recently I was talking with a friend about unpacking trauma and we got talking about things our mothers would say to us about our bodies. I had a little laugh when you mentioned cozy and cuddly because that’s how she’s described me several times, and she loves to curl up in my lap or on my tummy if she’s having a shitty day. It was only a few years ago when my goddaughter - who’s now an adult - gave me a hug after running into me one day shopping said to me while still holding me 20+ seconds later that hugs from me felt like curling up in the coziest sweater on a cold day that I had the first thought that my body could provide comfort. Not pleasure, but comfort. That was a tipping point for me and I will be forever grateful for it. I just woke up so I don’t know if that made much sense, but there were a lot of tears writing it. Time to feed and run dogs, and maybe journal in the bath tonight. Also, could we get the veggie soup recipe from IG yesterday? The ingredients looked delicious, and who doesn’t love a little kitchen witchery :) 🧙‍♀️

Shari

2024-11-28 21:57:35 +0000 UTC

Ellie, you truly are an incredibly beautiful person. This self-love journey is far from easy, and mine only really began this year. For most of my 35 years, I’ve listened to and believed all the negativity and hate that’s been directed at me since I was very young. It’s been incredibly hard to shake the belief that my value as a person is tied to my body and how it looks. And more often than not, I still struggle to believe that I’m deserving of good things. But I also know I’ve started taking steps in the right direction. I once heard someone say, “If you’re trying to love yourself, you already do,” and that sentiment has stayed with me. Because I am trying. I’m giving myself a chance I haven’t given in a very long time, and I’m slowly beginning to fall in love with being alive again. I’m so grateful for communities like this one, where I’ve found friends who hold my hand as I stitch myself back together. Thank you so much for being open and vulnerable with us. And thank you, and X, for being such an important part of my journey. Sending lots of love.

La Nuna Luna

2024-11-28 21:42:29 +0000 UTC

It’s wild, recently stumbling into a side of the internet I’ve never known but have thoroughly enjoyed. Discovering more about myself and finding new levels of intimacy with my husband. But THEN the realization that even though these platforms are intended to be “entertainment”, they are just as much of a form of therapy we didn’t entirely know we needed. Ellie, I’m so glad your light exists in this world and thank you Xander for sharjng that light too. Happy Thanksgiving ❤️

Andrea

2024-11-28 21:31:44 +0000 UTC

Excited and scared to play this. I know i'm probably going to feel very loved, but I predict a LOT of tears. Will update when I'm finished.

Diamond

2024-11-28 21:27:50 +0000 UTC

In a comment on a previous audio, I had asked for an Ellie TED Talk for Christmas… I feel like I got one 🥹 🎄

Sarah LP

2024-11-28 21:01:03 +0000 UTC

I did not expect this to hit this hard. Thank you for sharing your journey, Ellie. It was a really powerful listen. And halfway through, I was crying. And at the end, the ugly cry was there. It's quite different, but I've had some health issues the past few years causing me to reach menopause when I was 35. Doing a healing mental health journey on top of that, and now more health issues where I need to lose weight to get surgery to fix a complication after the ovariectomy, it's a lot at once. And I only have myself. So hearing this, makes me think I actually can do it. I can heal physically and mentally, I am capable of putting in the work and get where I deserve to be. I will probably listen to this many many times along the way. This was just... very powerful. Thank you 💚

Martine Lorentzen

2024-11-28 20:51:09 +0000 UTC

I needed this. I needed this so badly. Having some on see you, really see you is so rare. You broke my heart in the best way. You have such a beautiful soul Ellie. Thank you for sharing it❤️🌻

Ink.Covered.Pages

2024-11-28 20:49:01 +0000 UTC

Thank you so much Ellie 🩷 you’re such a bright light! Your support and the support of this special community is just wonderful!

Krystal

2024-11-28 20:45:20 +0000 UTC

This was beautiful 💕 it made me rethink so much about myself.

Xx_Domino_xX

2024-11-28 20:35:18 +0000 UTC

You are wonderful. Thank you for this today- I listened while on a last minute store run. I’m so very grateful for the light you’ve put into the world. If you’re in the states, happy Thanksgiving and I wish you all the best lonelygirls! You are loved.

Angela

2024-11-28 20:33:24 +0000 UTC

Ellie’s taking us to church 👏🏽 Hell yes to healing in our thirties! About to go have Thanksgiving dinner with the person who, for my entire childhood and twenties, made me feel like I had no value. Thanks to thousands of dollars of therapy and growing into a confident person, I know I won’t come home feeling hollow. That was beautiful, Ellie. Thank you.

Sarah LP

2024-11-28 20:27:34 +0000 UTC

Ellie, this is so beautiful. You model self love exquisitely in your overheards. I swear something in me healed when you talked about your big jiggly thighs. It boosted my confidence sky high and I actually got the nerve to lay it all on the line for my crush last night. I feel fucking unstoppable and will never wait for a man to approach me again. I’m in beast mode thanks to you. 🖤EM

Ella Mineaux

2024-11-28 20:08:21 +0000 UTC

I was 6 minutes in and I had to stop cooking so I could sit on the couch & cry. I am in my late 30s and I started therapy earlier this year to help me work through a lot of the same issues. It's so hard to be kind to yourself when you're a people pleaser who's spent years thinking your worth revolves around what you can do/be for someone else. Thank you for being so open and willing to share this.

Marie🌺🦋

2024-11-28 20:02:35 +0000 UTC

I can't wait to listen to this when I'm not in the middle of a family tornado of activity.

moxierose

2024-11-28 20:01:27 +0000 UTC

Ellie - you are one of the most generous people I have encountered in this sexy ecosystem (that's what I've decided to call it today) Thank you so much for this. I hope everyone here who needs to hear this, takes it to heart. <3

Melly

2024-11-28 19:58:52 +0000 UTC

This looks powerful and I can’t wait to listen! Saving it for tonight when the world around me is a little quieter.

tartcakes

2024-11-28 19:54:11 +0000 UTC

Thank you so much for this . It’s always reassuring listening to other chubby girls experiences and realising that we really be putting ourselves through the most . Why can’t I compliment myself the way I would compliment a friend ? I never wear strappy T-shirts because of a comment someone once made about my shoulders / arms . This year I’ve made small changes towards being more comfortable and exploring all types of fashionable clothing . It’s been a long journey but I’m slowly getting there 💕

Nicole

2024-11-28 19:53:59 +0000 UTC

Thank you for sharing such a beautiful message ❤️ Being consistent and doing that hard healing work is so important. The first time I had ever heard of mirror work was a couple years ago in therapy and it was given to me as an assignment. My first attempt ended with me in tears saying "look how stupid you are, fucking up a simple 1 minute aassignment. You're not only ugly, you're worthless". It took months before I could tolerate looking at myself in the mirror for 1 minute and just being silent because I couldn't think of one nice thing to say, and then more months before I could make statements like "You're probably not hideous to look at and you don't suck at everything" Mirror work is still one of my least favorite things to do, but I did eventually reach a point of where I could look myself in the eyes and think of something nice to say. Putting in the work consistently is really the key. So for anyone who is struggling, keep going- Ellie is so right and you are not alone. ❤️❤️ Thank you Ellie

Cristine

2024-11-28 19:44:21 +0000 UTC

This is just beautiful, I appreciate all you do!

Steffie

2024-11-28 19:17:27 +0000 UTC

Oufff, only 6 mins in so far and this is resonating so hard! As a woman who is currently 4 years into a healing journey, I want to say thank you for articulating about how so many of us start their journey of healing feeling like.

MissChriss

2024-11-28 19:15:21 +0000 UTC

This is hitting home so hard 🫶 I turned 31 and just now I stopped fighting myself. The lifelong struggle of not advocating for myself, not liking my body or my life is slowly coming to a halt. Looooooove you being so open with us. Lots of love x

Marlies ✨

2024-11-28 19:13:36 +0000 UTC

the holidays are a particularly tough time for me, so i’m going to need some love. i’m going to save this for tonight, ellie. when the need for comfort and recalibration is at its highest. thank you for the love and light today. happy thanksgiving, and much love to you and x 💜💜💜

evie

2024-11-28 19:04:35 +0000 UTC

Ellie I really hope you read this. I’m 31. And the time wasted not being present. Being at war with myself. Being afraid of myself. Experiencing incredible things even but not tasting the fullness of life because the voice of my mother, my FIRST hater, was projected onto everyone, even those who loved me. I’ve learned a hell of lot from your openness. I’m a curvy girl. And being built like a stripper is hard on a girl whose mom shamed her daily claiming that even the thought of sex or desire was a hellworthy trespass. Healing has taken a long time for me. But it’s given me so much peace. But the same way negativity can be projected, so can positivity. Thank you so much for projecting your positivity onto us.

GeauxGabby

2024-11-28 19:04:16 +0000 UTC

Can’t wait to listen to this Thanksgiving present later 🥰 Thanks infinitely Ellie 🫶🏻

Amanda

2024-11-28 19:00:35 +0000 UTC

Thank you Ellie!!