Overdue thank you

Hi everyone,

So I would say at this point, I am more or less settled in to my new home. I still need to sort out a new vets for the rattos, as Beatrice is getting a bit poorly in her old age and quite wheezey - but I did drag myself to the doctors to get medication sorted after about 5 days of thinking about it. Isn't it bizarre how when you are in a slump, even doing the simplest of things becomes very difficult?

I feel like I should address my silence, somewhat. Moving is always a bit of a mess - but I have been struggling a tad with the fact that I owe it all to you lot. The entirety of my income is from Patreon save about 300 quid total from YouTube, Twitch and the odd Paypal donation (and the £50 the benefits system gave me for the last two months) and while I was living in London, ALL of it was sucked up by the rent and living costs. I can't tell you how incredible it is to actually have a couple of hundred left after paying rent with Patreon donations to buy better equipment and food for me and my rattos - it brings me to tears. I owe you all so, so much and I need to be better for you.

I struggle a lot keeping on top of emails and messages after a few days being offline. If you are a watcher of Digitiser, you may be aware that I have received a couple of more-unpleasant-than-usual comments on my videos. I am used to negative comments and I hope that any of you who saw how I was at the start of this online journey will say I have improved massively in how I respond to them - in that, instead of flouncing, I just don't respond. However, there was one person in particular detailing time and location that really freaked me out. So I took some days offline to reassure myself, only to come back to hundreds of positive comments from you amazing people.

There is no way I could possibly express how grateful I am not just for the monetary support you give me, but the emotional support. I am well aware that there are YouTubers with much bigger subscriber numbers than me who have equal or less Patreons - and this entirely blows my mind. I am so lucky, I really am.

I am helped with the emails side of things by a rather lovely certain Retro Princess, who has been amazing in the last month or so organising my emails and putting stuff on my Trello board that I need to see. However, I get such a volume of notifications that I do miss messages very frequently - I do get a lot. I want you all to know that I really do value messages I get from every one of you but it is so difficult to keep on top of it. I'm hoping now I have moving and am relatively sorted, this will improve.  

The other thing is I have managed to secure myself volunteer work at a certain AMAZING museum with all the computers and I will totally be just sort of sitting and stroking them and pressing their buttons for most of the working week. I'm excited about the videos that will come from this too, as one of my big restrictions in making videos is not having access to the thing I'm talking about...well, now, I HAVE ACCESS. I mean, there is everything at this place. It's mental.

It already took far too long to write this update and I need to go to bed. But TLDR, I love you lot and I want you to keep being awesome.

Sarah x