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Attention: this is a psychological post with scary drawings !!!

I deleted all the depressing posts so as not to scare people, but I like to draw girls creep. In this post I want to tell you why the pace of work is slow and why I draw scary sketches.

Schizophrenia: (similar example: Joker 2019)

- Abulia - lack of will to live, suicidal thoughts.

- Apathy is indifference to someone else's life, we can laugh for no reason if we learn about death on TV. When I found out about the death of my father, my brain blocked the information and I did not respond.

- Autism - we often get distracted and go into our thoughts and cruel fantasies, as in the game Manhant

- Ambivalence - 2 points of view on everything. I love and hate at the same time. One body - 2 people.

Pseudo Neurosis - fear of making mistakes. I’m afraid to make graphics for the game, just the thought causes excitement and pain, but when I sketch, I can make it bad and it causes less pain.

Borderline Personality Disorder:

(a similar example is Jack and handsome Jack from Borderlands)

2 phases:
- nice guy - jack pre-sequel
we feel bad when we think that nobody needs us, so Jack wanted to be a hero. We donate what we need ourselves, Jack donated the ark. We are often betrayed ...
- tyrant ... cruelty becomes a protective mechanism against betrayal, disappointment and self-destruction.

Characteristics: frequent mood swings: depression, suicidality, impulsiveness, aggressiveness.

Post traumatic stress disorder - memory problems.

All this interferes with the work. pain from stress, often distracted, forget things, i do not feel joy from work. If I work hard, I feel worse. But I'm looking for a way to work as much as possible, although my brain bothers me.

How can you help? Write your comments in the posts I create: your characters, your ideas. At the moment this helps. Thank you for reading)

PS
I dream of making games, even if it's hard. I will do this project as much time as you will support it. I can’t get tired of what my brain is tired of, but what I want to do) A wicked joke)