So I'm on Strattera!

I followed the labyrinthine path of mental health and wound up talking to a psychiatrist. I lucked out and the medicaid facility I fell into has a lot of genuine, helpful, interested doctors.  Was officially-ish diagnosed with C-PTSD, which I already knew I had. It's nice to be able to say: OK but the DSM backs me up so.

He agreed that I had a lot of symptoms of ADHD, though whether they're from the PTSD or the condition was opened by trauma or whether it's a comorbidity is up for debate. That's a question neurologists and psychiatrists still don't have an answer for quite yet, though new information is coming out daily. Science is so INTERESTING!!!!

Atomoxetine (the generic of strattera) is a selective norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor. I react badly to stimulants like caffeine so the psychiatrist went the non-stimulant route, which is just fine with me. I don't especially enjoy highs and lows. I want a nice, even homeostasis during which I can remember things and get them done without feeling like I'm torturing myself to do so. 

Supposedly it takes a while to build up in the system but I already feel differences. I'm extremely sensitive to homeostasis so even small things are very noticeable to me. So far I:

--Am less terrified. I don't feel a spike of fear/dread and then exhaustion when I need to perform a task.

--Have more energy to do things.

--feel less of an impulse to check messages

--don't need to stop what I'm doing to seek some kind of dopamine hit 

--have less brain fog and the need for my brain to be jumping from thought to thought to thought 

--The absolute BEST one so far is that time has slowed down. I feel like I have the breathing room to DO things rather than trying to rush to get something done and then jump to a new task. I don't feel like I'm chasing myself around with a whip to get anything and everything done.

I already know that this is going to help me IMMENSELY with my art, with keeping up with Patreon, and with life in general.