About my Condition

Uploading my latest artworks via phone while waiting in-line for the check-up. Then I just finished my check-up, but I am quite unsatisfied. Want to talk more to the doctor about all that I want in regards to my condition, but the doctor is in a hurry for a surgery to listen much, and that Covid protocol means minimal talking with the patients. Nevertheless, I am given prescription for my Tinnitus and adviced to visit him after a week. 

I do wish to be cured after taking the prescription medicine in a week.

But, as I am unsatisfied I went to have my glasses check if it is 100% radiation protected. I met there an eye doctor who I chatted about my condition. Although he cannot say for sure about Tinnitus, he give me points that I feel helpful. You know, I got some sort of anxiety or paranoia due this feeling, which makes me more hightened and nervous upon anticipation of it. He says one thing which I think is relevant, "unnessary stuff is all in the head, so relax and don't panic over it". This words make me recall an article I read about my condition, saying "acknowledge your condition but don't succumb to it". By the most part of my sickness, I got it worse because I got panicked and paraniod. If I will not go to panic mode, this condition I have will go out of my life faster, thus curing me sooner.

As that eye doctor said, "That is a little thing, don't freak on it". I intend to follow that advise. I will take on the description, avoid much stress, and have a positive attitude. And most of all, don't panic, fight the illness, and don't be succumb by it.

With that said I am now releived. 

I might be changing the way I handle things now on. I am planning to limit my acceptance of commissions (even avoiding commissions) and focus in drawing characters that I like to avoid unwanted stress. Of course this is too early a decision but I do contemplate on it. It is less stressful to do things your own way than having to follow a commissioned work that demands completion and deadline. But again this is early for such decision.

Again, I am thankful for the check-up today. I am hoping to be finally cured soon.