sadness - all of the beautiful moments

this is going on a split with stellafera (unless they're going by a different name). we released a split in 2015 actually, been friends for a long time. this song is somewhat dedicated to him because of the recent loss he's been suffering. the song is based on the first guitar part that I came up with a long time ago (2015 if not 2014) I didn't upload it to me unused music compilation because I had played it really sloppy, but I always knew I wanted to remake the song. at first it was called "1000 beautiful moments" back then because it made me think of reflecting on the many memories that were made along the way of a beautiful journey. that is still somewhat what it's about, although in any way that memories can be applied to your personal experience, the colletions of moments and the bittersweet feeling of carrying these beautiful things in your heart. when I release this song I might change some things in the mix (the vocals, vocals are really hard to mix and is often too tedious to care too much about) these vocals might be mixed poorly, perhaps upon more listens I'll figure out what to do differently, but I'm way too excited now about finishing and sharing the song that I do not feel like laboring more over tedious details. Thursday, December 8, 2022 at 5:01 PM I started recording this and that day I did a lot of guitars but didn't continue the song until recently and now its finallly done.


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do you remember when it rained so much

I gave you my blue sweater

a memory of finding eachother

it was early april and the sun had set over the horizon (the burning horizon)

all along it was the two of us

we were showering eachother with juvenile crying

just like that rain, I cry at all the sounds that make me think of you

all it takes is one of those letters I’m

held inside your hand

and now suddenly I carry your name everywhere on my wrist

even when pinks turn to blues and third spring crying, memory (memory)

there is something in my heart I don’t know what it is (and it’s the most beautiful thing I)

and it’s the most beautiful thing that I have ever felt

do you remember when it rained so much

I gave you my blue sweater

a memory of finding eachother

just like that rain, I cry at all the sounds that make me think of you

I got a wish, it’s on the tip of my tongue

gonna burst into tears any moment now

it’s not too late, it’s what I tell myself

to find the place I miss the most

where we hid thirteen of our loveflowers

and our youthful lips told all of our secrets

but I never told you, those were all of mine

even when pinks turn to blues and third spring crying, memory

it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever felt

I got a wish, it’s on the tip of my tongue

gonna burst into tears any moment now

it’s not too late, it’s what I tell myself

to find the place I miss the most

where we hid thirteen of our loveflowers

and our youthful lips told all of our secrets

but I never told you, those were all of mine

hanging on the walls of your orange room