damianojeda

sadness - cold still hands

Added 2022-03-19 00:40:18 +0000 UTC

please read previous two posts for context. this song is no different. instrumental recorded that same day in november 2016, other band members didn't like it, then in march 2019 my friend ryn came over and recorded vocals. unlike the other songs I did have a concept for this. I had a beautiful dream where I was in the snowy mountains on a sunny day (I used to go skiing every winter since I was a baby) and in this dream I felt the touch of being loved. it was something I didn't know or recognize personally but it felt so beautiful. as someone who always felt so lonely and wanted to be loved this dream where I suddenly felt something so sweet and comforting was deeply impactful. I had entire lyrics written I remember but I lost them one day when my phone broke and I lost a lot of lyrics actually (including sadness - river which I ended up having to rewrite). I also don't have the lyrics that they ended up becoming when ryn added vocals because those are lost, and also I didn't even write them. but whatever I had written was definitely inspired by that dream. now that I think about it I think I also had lyrics for "memory" that I lost that day too. I think I actually might have recorded them in the session but took them out when ryn recorded vocals... whenI get back home I'll look for that. I'm currently parked outside of walmart stealing their public wifi