sadness - falling in love with you

I technically finished this song a little while ago but for a while I thought I wanted to add clean singing at the end but I realized now that I don't actually want to do that. the clean guitar intro was actually recorded sometime in june 2014 (s little before I was making close) and i don't remember if I was intending it to be a part of close or some other album after close, but I never ended up making it past the clean guitar intro. at the time the working title was "girl". and then on april 9 2016 I started building upon the song and recorded basically the rest of the song except for the drums and vocals. you can kind of hear the "sadness in 2016" sound. I never finished the song because I probably stopped thinking it was that good, I don't remember. but in 2021 when I decided to not leave any unfinished project unfinished I revisited this and remember that it's actually a pretty good song, and especially considering the original sentiment that went into it in 2014, it's extremely meaningful. I added drums sometime in 2021, and the vocals towards the end of 2021. with the lyrics the song has taken on a whole new meaning. I wrote the lyrics july 25 and the subject matter is as obvious as it sounds, it's about falling in love. but in this context it's more painful. this song is part of a new album that I really hope i release sometime this month, I've been working really hard to finish a lot of outstanding music that I want to release before I move again by the end of this month. I could talk in great detail about this song but it's kind of delicate and personal. you can probably imagine what it's about, but the good news is that my gf and I have been happily together since then and forever

i wish i had all of our memories the ones that played in my head every day somehow from so far away  waking up beside you and watching your eyes lift the light in the room watching your smile say the words  the first words of every fire every day  falling in love with you

   i wish i weren’t left with nothing nothing at all and everything at the same time  everything that hurts the most and nothing feels warm  it’s coldest in july