sadness - on a green

it's finally done. this album that was made in 2018 but took more than 3 years to finish the vocals. I will release it to spotify and once it gets there it will drop on bandcamp. tracklist:

see you in the orange light

orange love

on a green

I can't say goodbye

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this song "on a green" has a lot of vocal layers that I would record every once in a blue moon slowly reaching towards finishing the song but it genuinely wouldn't be until last night that I actually fully tracked all the vocals. for one, I have so many works in progress al the time that it's easy to "forget" that I have x thing to work on. every now and then I would remember that I have this song to finish, but if I were to work on it would depend on if I was even able to record vocals in that moment, also if my voice even sounded good enough to track, because this song is really hard to sing even with all the pitch shifting (at least the ending). the ending is what really took forever to get around to because the notes are so high and at some point my ability to hit certain notes becomes hit or miss and some days are just better than others. I that on top of the fact that I have a triion songs to work on and it's easy to "forget" about pending projects is the reason this album didn't come out in 2018. I forgot to check the exact date I recorded this but my memory tells me it was in april of 2018. this album and "I want to be there" go pretty hand in hand since they were mostly recorded and "written" during the same time, and a lot of the same themes slip within eachother (as you might notice in some of the lyrics and melodies). I most likely made the instrumental in a few hours, and then 3 years to actually finish the stupid singing. but i'm glad, even though there's probably still some things I could correct, maybe even sing the parts better, this song is so old and I'm tired of it and I hate having to revisit old music so much. I don't care anymore. I just want it to be done, the idea has been done for 3 years. for a long time I always considered that this was one of my favorite sadness songs because of the emotions it transmits for me. there's something deeply potent that inspired this track in the first place and I feel like I put it into sound pretty well. the attached image is something that I found at around that same time that fits perfectly with the colors and emotions I feel in the song, and in some ways inspired the track even further, (i don't remember if I saw the photograph before or after writing the music, but some of the lyrics were definitely inspired by it). "on a green" refers to the lyrics, the song is (just like I want to be there would do a lot) a moment suspended in the timelessness of pure absolute memory, feeling and dreamlike floating, in the purest state of human experience I can imagine. this song is pure springtime magic. pure interconnected memories, of vibrant sounds that touch the deepest parts of your heart, and moments that feel like they flow in every vein of your body, saturating you with pure warm spring rain on the cusp of summer. this song feels like that magical feeling as you enter the late-stage of springtime, and subconciously knowing the magical days that lay ahead, and singing together in perfect warm spring rain. there are so many moments and colors and feelings and memories described in this song, but all captured in the magic of a perfect spring. I can't put into words this pure feeling. nothing I'm typing here even stcratches the surface. this is something so deeply personal to me and it feels like it only exists deep inside of me, but I wish I could live within. "on a green date", green as perfect spring numbers, days of the year that are green. I could go on literally forever talking about this but I think I've said enough, I have no mental organization to express myself anyway and I feel like I'm throwigin incoherent words around. I knew I had to make this song when one day in the spring of 2018 I listened to a certain song that made me feel this pure essence of spring rain wash over me and I started crying. this song eludes to it in some ways. I don't know what else to say.

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On a green date , thousand,
though one/two beautiful
memory
In the rain of her
June sky
Dejándote of
Green leaves and crimson flowers in your eyes
The sound is far in enclave

and like rain we cry