damianojeda

sadness - mid-august

Added 2021-04-26 21:36:14 +0000 UTC

anothher track for the 2015 compilation. I made the instrumental on july 6, 2015. of course when I decided to release the 2015 compilation I decided to came back to this song which had just been sitting there for 6 years now. I tried going back to things I wrote around july of that year to use as lyrics but couldn't find anything I wanted. to stay in the spirit of 2015 I took some things I wrote around mid-late august (hence the name) of 2015 and only a few days ago I tracked all the vocals. this is very reminiscent of the kind of music sadness was a long time ago. the words are directly about the things I was going through in august of 2015 (you'll find that a huge majority of the music I would make from about august 2015 through the beginning of 2016 was about thiese same events)

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It's not fair... It's never been fair... Not the first time.. Not the second.... Not the third.... Not ever.....

In realizing that I can never hurt anyone half as much as I´m hurting, half as much as all of this pain inside of me,

Have you ever been to a meadow? there aren´t any here, maybe that´s why we haven´t gone

but neither have you dreamt of me

Regardless, we held hands in the rain, I don´t know why you kept talking about all of those things that kill me, I´d like to think i´m a special catharsis medium, but knowing what you said before I can´t trust now not even my own positivity. I can´t trust anything.

It´s easy when you sleep in gardens every day and always have

The only blossom for me are hallucinations

You tell me that I´m missing out and you don´t even know how much I bled after I heard that