The Future of My Patreon

Hey there!

Finally getting to sit down and properly work on things this week and I felt it was time to write this up.

As you well know the past few months have been pretty rough. I’ve not been able to make content as much as I have desperately wanted to due to my entire moving situation and another few issues. The main other issue, I have decided to address in this post. I’ve tried to be honest with everything else going on, but this I’ve tried to stay away from talking about. This has been weighing heavily on me and I need to finally address it.

I’ve lightly talked about it before but when I started this, it was a way for me to finally get practice and do something I’ve been wanting to do since I was 17: Model. I have a passion for lingerie modeling but I also wanted to get into general commercial modeling. As you well know I’ve just tried to focus on my passion here, the lingerie and at first it was incredibly fun. Fuck I’ve had fun. Until the harassment began. 

I normally have a thick skin when it comes to this stuff, but getting weekly/daily emails and messages berating me and sending me highly inappropriate messages on a constant basis made me quite literally want to die inside. Some of the things I have seen have both disgusted me, made me insecure, or straight up scared me. It’s made me dread releasing anything because of how horrible it has been behind the scenes. I never thought it could be this bad but here we are.

This is supposed to be photography and modeling practice for me. Something I take quite seriously and try to be professional about. In the midst of my moving chaos, this harassment continued and it’s made me genuinely not have fun doing what I love anymore. And now because of that I’m not getting the practice I wanted to pursue what I love. I feel like I’ve let you down, and I know I definitely have. I felt it was time to be honest with what has been happening. 

Where do we go from here?

I still want to make sets. They won’t be as big, it won’t always be lingerie as I feel it’s important to get practice in everything I can before I can apply to an agency. I have other ideas like a photo diary that I can keep up with and feel more comfortable with ( think along the lines of me living and doing stuff / everything and anything / action shots).  I'm open to suggestions from you guys.

For November especially, I will have help making two sets to make up for the last few shitty months. One will be lingerie or something along those lines. The other will be my dealer’s choice. I’ll also be doing an exclusive mini house tour for you guys so you can see exactly what I’ve been up to.

From here on out I’m going to post the kind of content I’m happy making - Vlogs, photo diary, a set each month of my choosing (lingerie, a themed outfit, or a few mini sets of multiple things). And I’m going to try and be better about dealing with the awful shitshow of people behind the scenes.

I understand that this may not be what you signed up for, I apologize for that. If this is the case, I will completely understand if you stop being a patron. You all have helped me in ways you can’t really imagine over the time I’ve had this patreon and I am forever grateful. I hope one day I can talk about it more but I’m not ready to just yet. 

If you have any questions, I’m always happy to answer them. I want this to be a positive experience from here on out for me and for you. 

Thank you. xoxo