Woooooosh

Images by Deepak Bardhan

So you may have noticed; my energy for this platform (and all digital realms) has plummeted this month.

I’ve spent a lot of time in my head about it; feeling poorly for not modeling more, producing more, sharing more. I’ve felt poorly for feeling the way I’m feeling, and have spent a lot of energy churning through guilt instead of being honest about where I’m at (a lifelong lesson for me.)

The truth is, I have felt so called to live in my five-sensory life experience. I have to continuously remind myself that art, contrary to social media platforms, is a process that takes time, that has its own intelligent rhythms underpinning it. I feel guilty right now because I’m not producing high quantities of content. But I need to remind myself that rest and receptivity are important aspects of the creative cycle. Even when that period of time lasts months. Or years. Because the truth is, the people I see never taking a creative break just end up putting out the same exact concepts, variations on a theme, without growing and changing and evolving.

So maybe it takes some time.

Truly, a huge lesson for me in the past few years has been in staying true to my rhythms, not being ashamed of them, but standing strong in my self-awareness, and in doing so, hopefully giving other people permission to do the same!

So guess what!

We are in the middle of a global pandemic.

It’s stressful and everything is changing and I need to work in a public setting (for now at least) which gives me consistent underlying anxiety with regards to being exposed.

We are also in the middle of a huge awakening with regards to Race in America.

With that striving awareness, I am also trying my damndest to enjoy the midsummer and hold these golden days close, because I have a feeling that this year will continue to be difficult, and these 🌞 days keep me going through the long winters of these northern climes.

So have patience with me.

Be kind.

Be compassionate.

To yourself & everyone else right now.

The terrain of our world is shifting beneath our feet, and I just feel like there needs to be radical support and understanding and space for how we are all responding.

Huge love and appreciation to all of you. Thank you ✨