Suspending September Billing (+ an update)

So I've mentioned this on Discord but I wanted to give you guys a bigger explanation, and I know not all of my patrons are on Discord so I wanted you to also know what's up.
I'm suspending September's billing as I'm not sure how much writing I will be able to get done and I don't want to charge you guys if I can't deliver.
My husband asked me for a divorce. My world has basically been hit by a tornado and an earthquake at the same time.
I'm sort of... flailing. I'm scrambling to figure out my next moves such as how I'm going to afford to eat, and where I'm going to live. Plus I'm trying very hard not to lose my day job as I need that income more than ever, even though my brain can't seem to focus on bullshit corporate writing when my life is falling apart.
So I'm halting September billing. I didn't catch August in time as I was being flown out to Seattle for two weeks just to basically GTFO and get my head clear. I may halt October as well, it depends on how settled my situation becomes in the mean time.
I wanted to give you guys absolute clarity so that you know I'm not just like... screwing around and not writing. My life is pretty much at the lowest it has ever been and I'm not really sure how to move forward, and I don't want to charge you right now when I know I can't deliver quality writing. Obviously I'll keep you guys updated on what's going on as best I can.
I'm terrified, honestly, and hurting so bad I can't put it into words. It honestly feels like everything is just... ending. I don't know how I'm supposed to start my life over at this age. But here we are. Send good vibes my way, because I super extra need them right now. 
I WILL be okay... I just don't know how yet. But I have some truly amazing friends who are being there for me right now when I absolutely need it (<3 Cub Caretaker!!!), and I will be okay.