I am very, very, very slowly coming out of the bad mood I've been in for the last few days. I've been avoiding my commissions, even the ones that are late. I'm refunding two people since I've basically lost all interest in what they asked me to do. I'm grateful for the work, and the fact that I can't force myself to be excited for other peoples' ideas is a HUGE limitation for me. I can't help it though. I'm such a fucking snob that I can't even get into the head-space of certain fetishes, like the idea of non-cucking where the nerd wins (I will never draw this). I also struggle with OCs that are not mine, because . . . They're not mine, and I'm a selfish snob. I'm trying to get over it. I think my snobbishness is the root of my bad mood this last week.
I'm thinking of canceling my Prince and Fool slots in January for this reason, and moving towards and "open" commission process each month. That way I can hand-select commissions that are of immediate interest to me. That way I won't need to 'work' at being interested in a request I don't like. An open system also gives more patrons an opportunity to commission me . . . With the very snobby caveat that I'll only be choosing ideas that I'd enjoy drawing anyway.
In the meantime, I decided to go through a mountain of abandoned WIPs to see if anything interested me. I have a lot of Kee-Va WIPs that never went anywhere. A lot. I was really excited abut this character when I invented her. So many WIPs. This is one of them. It's basically a big concept sheet for her universe. Originally I was calling her planet 'Agartha' but I changed my mind and am now calling it 'Thuinn,' but this is part of why I hate lore. I hate things being fixed or having rules. I hate that people use the word 'canon' to describe fiction. I really feel like that word should never be used outside of a strictly Christian context, but whatever. Otherwise, I actually prefer that fiction gets constantly ret-conned, changed, ignored, and contradicted. I don't care about comprehensible stories. I care about having fun.
I'm going to try and finish this only because I was using a different coloring technique for it, and I want to experiment with it. The basic idea is that you start with the darkest shade possible, and lighten from there, as opposed to starting in the middle and working in either direction. I think it really worked for Kee-Va and Brule. It kinda worked for the Vril-Ya, and . . . Meh . . . I'm not sure about the planet itself.
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