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Behind the Self Portrait: Dancing with Strobe, Scarf, and Smoke

Watch the video above to get the behind the scenes of these self portraits.

Please ask questions in my comments section if I didn’t get to what you’re curious about in the video! I can make a follow up video or post answering them.

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Recent Photography for Musicians Album Art

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I was recently hired to photograph the prolific artists Brian and Jane of the band, FINKEL, once again.

They are releasing their new EP, Priorities, and this shoot was based around their new single, Digging.

I've been doing a little digging

trying to move around ground

We shot at an insane new studio I just found and connected with called Scales Atelier in Lincoln Heights, right at the intersection of five roads.

2024-03-08 19:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post

Behind the Self Portrait: When I Got Naked and Photographed in the Empty Apartment

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Blueprint

There is Your kingdom,

and My kingdom,

and Our kingdom

and I'm not trying to make you jealous of my moat

and my guards, my up-kept construction, the bidet, the family dinners

the bottomless goblets of wine and beautiful women

the quiet hours, the expanding accumulation of land...


There is no need to try to conquer me--

though the impulse I understand

You've met me after I already lost blood

This is the version who is build...

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Behind the Self Portrait: When I Felt Disgusted with Myself and Lost and Abandoned

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In the Name of Love

Wrote this piece for a writing group 5/4/23


R.I.P. to the chill girl era

I want to keep my eyes closed and my comfies on but my gut is on fire and there's so much to see


I see I am a good influence

Hundreds of people move more confidently

and I've still never been invited to someone's wedding as a bridesmaid

It's not that deep

I've just never had a best friend or grandparents

and my dad's been dead for ten years

and I...

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Behind the Self Portrait: When I Thought I was Falling in Love and also Abandoned Another Relationship

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A Look at the Light Experiment

I'm just following hunches here, y'all!!

I noticed the light and thought about hey, some folks don't look at light the same way I do, maybe they'd be interested.

I like looking at stuff for long periods of time.

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More to come <3

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Behind the Self Portrait: The Photos when I was Subletting in New York where I Had to Drink a Special Tea to Not Be Allergic to the Cat that was also there

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INSIDE ALL OF US IS…

This is a tale of a burglary in NYC, based on a true story. I decided to incorporate my personal Wildfang collection to represent the emotions I experienced through the whole debacle.

Shot with and featuring the very cameras they almost got away with, this is a self-photography series featuring my co-robbed friend Austin (acting as burglar #2, and the cop).



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Behind the Self Portrait: The Photos After I was Burglarized and I Locked Myself in my Room for a Week

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Introducing: Behind the Self Portrait (Series)


Beginning February 8th, continuing for 9 weeks!

Join me at the $5 tier to dive into my self portraits and what it takes to make these images happen!


I'll be going through:

Camera

Lighting

Shadow work

Posing

My emotional circumstance

My photographic intentions


Leave any questions/comments in each episode's post.


2024-02-01 22:37:59 +0000 UTC View Post

Modeling // Desert

I went to the desert with other feral women to heal my heart.

We spent our days half naked creating, as it was what felt most natural. We'd open up about the tough things we had been holding onto and laugh about them. We'd massage each other's shoulders, make food together. I forgot what it was like to be tended to like this-- women with other women.

In the past, and still, it has been difficult for me to feel safe with women. A lot of the ones I have let close in have broken my t...

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the process 3; The Creative Act: My Review

I have trouble with this book every time I open it.

I am most affected and pleased by how wonderfully it was designed, presented, and marketed.

It is a lesson to me in regards to business, selling, and knowing the target market.

It is a lesson to me in knowing what works for me and what does not.

I sensed that perhaps there was a ghostwriter writing this as he spoke on his und...

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december xoxo

I’ve been feeling a kind of psychic block around sharing certain parts of myself and what I think, and I think what that has done was create a very intense smallness of expression that has leaked into everything else.

I could be being dramatic?, overthinking?. I just smoked a little weed, and usually when I smoke after not having done it for awhile, a lot of little revelations about my behavi...

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Self Portraits - In Studio

I was invited to an unused studio space the other day and got to play around with LED lights and huge empty spaces!

That day I had received a message that was difficult, so I used this fortunate opportunity to play with my body and try to represent the blurriness of the realities I was facing.

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the process 2


Hey Legends. The past four weeks have rocked me hard. I have about as much energy to simply process on camera. I hope this will suffice for now-- but know that there is SO MUCH being made and I will share it as I feel more balanced and able.

Last month I began my album making efforts with my lovely producer and he and I make such a good team that I have no fear around making this music. The music and my art got so clear and felt so strong! I am so so proud of how I have built...

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the process

Hey y'all

I had the inspiration to film this video of my process right now. I started with the idea to write a song, and then the conversation took me to a few places. I have a wide range of emotions, as is the truth of all of this.

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this week has been somethin else

started recording my album, had about 7 days...really, 6 1/2...making some really wonderful things. I'm so excited for it. Unfortunately this came not without major personal conflicts ?

there seems t...

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Camcorder Self Portrait BTS

Hellooo legends!


I've switched my account to 18+ and am now sharing my (nsfw) BTS footage from my photo shoots.


I used my Pentax 645 and Ilford DELTA 3200 film. I love Ilford because of the contrast it gives, and how black the blacks are.

I used my air-shutter release cable to take these photos. Sometimes I took a series straight (the film automatically advances), and sometimes I set the self timer so I could spend more time perfecting the poses.

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Motel

Legends!

Do you remember when I was booked for a gig in upstate New York, and my role was to play a woman suffering with schizophrenia ? Well, the film, MOTEL, is out.

The location.

Eric Ogden, writer and director.


I loved this project, and learned a lot a...

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Polaroid Transfer

Legends!


If you have been following along on my instagram, you'll notice that I started making Polaroid transfers!


I had seen this process online and had been quite enticed about it. I wondered how difficult it would be. I've been leaning more heavily into printed/hand-made creations, and I had a kind of a-ha moment where I realized I had all the equipment needed to create!

2023-04-17 16:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post

Live Performance - "What Do I Know?"

My loves. I appreciate your patience while my world expands and contracts.
I had my friend Jackson Hayes come through the other day and capture a handful of my songs because I wanted to share them with you.


This is my song "What Do I Know." I'll paste the lyrics below.


Meanwhile, things that are on my horizon...
I joined a new app that helps me compartmentalize my channels. It's a very promising venture, and I have been hesitant to invite people over...

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Unusual - A Murder Short


Hey Legends!


I've been head down, busy as a bee!


Last month I was hired by advertising agency Unusual to film their company off-site group-bonding project. Their goal was to create a two-page script on day one, and on day two I would come and film.


What ended up happening is that they played the board came Chameleon all day, got too tired to write a script, ...

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Official Video launch!

WELL HOO DAWG, HERE WE GO!


My official video for my single, "Hi, Me," a day early for my patrons :)


Song officially launches tomorrow :)


Thank you for being here!

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Welcome 2023 and Updates

Legends.


First, happy new year. I hope the holiday season treated you all well. This season is typically difficult with all the outside pressures on what we should be doing and how things should be. But, we know, as legends, that we create our own reality and experiences. So I hope you gave yourselves a bit of love and appreciation for showing up the best you could, and I hope you are recovering easy.


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I wanted to send a note to my Self Port...

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Self Portrait Club Prompt #5

THIS MONTH'S PROMPT IS: FAIL


I have a friend who's in the Blue Man Group, and he told me their whole point during creation and play is to figure out "how do we fail? how can we mess up?"

He had to join a corporate job during 2020 and the environment there was "how do we never make a mistake, ever?"

I have a private a series called Failures That Aren't Failures where I list out weekly failures of mine that aren't actually failures....

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Self Portrait Club #3 Submissions

The time has come, Legends! Prompt #3, BLOOM.

A huge congratulations to all the participants who submitted for the theme.


I have LOVED watching this group grow. If you go back to the previous submissions, even in just two months, you can see the thoughts, techniques, and intentions grow. Really beautiful work, legends.


And now, I present to you the submissions for Bloom!


2022-10-08 19:21:18 +0000 UTC View Post

Self Portrait Club Prompt #4


THIS MONTH'S PROMPT IS: PERIPHERY


I've been cast in a play called BLINDNESS + PERIPHERY OF SIGHT and this concept of the outer elements of consciousness has been circling my mind. I find myself entirely curious to see and hear your experience with this theme.


pe·riph·er·y

/pəˈrif(ə)rē/

noun

  1. the outer limits or edge of an area or object.
  2. a marginal or secondary positi...

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PODCAST - He Married His Mom - 003

Okay, wooooowwww, the drama.


We're back again for our 3rd episode of this weirdo podcast and this one gets pretty... dramatic !

Special guest appearance by David-edith Attenborough-alaide.


Notes from this episode:


BLINDNESS + PERIPHERY OF SIGHT

Power and greed has led Oedipus to a twilight of unescapable shame. Broken, sh...

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Podcast - I Tried to Have a Hoe Phase - 002

I swear I really tried!!!

In this next awkward installment, I talk through goings on and mention a few projects on the periphery.



Notes from this episode:


MUSIC

That was my song Half at the beginning and end of the episode. Yet unreleased, and produced by Anton Söder.


SMUTLAND :)

People have been sending me photos and words about my smut and I wanted to share:

2022-09-20 21:25:21 +0000 UTC View Post