as always, y'all are hearing it hear first. much love to my Patreon Crew for the continued and new support. i love y'all dearly.
—MRS. XTHINA
2025-09-05 00:41:09 +0000 UTC View Post
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this reaction is the only one that's popping out of hiatus to go on YouTube. it's important for me to share my grief as much as i can because Chris lives in my grief. hence this long ass reaction and going through the short film a second time to explain what resonates with me forever now. thank you for watching and listening, my Patreon Crew. i'll be back with an update video and onward ...
hey Patreon Crew. please tell me that y’all are doing well.🙏🏼
one good news i have is that my grandpa has been discharged to recover at home now. the doctor informed us that he is experiencing a minor case of appendicitis, and for us to closely monitor him in case he needs to be brought back.
and now the bad news: yeah, i have the same fkn illness that is responsible for Chris’s passing. oddly, it’s not how i physically feel that bothers me, it’s how i mentally and e...
2025-07-23 16:40:31 +0000 UTC View PostI really hope y’all are doing MUCH better than my family and I have been.
The past week has been very rough, like as if this year hasn’t already been marked as the worst with Chris’s passing. First, Chris’s aunt has been in and out of the hospital because of high blood pressure. And when I say high, I mean hypertensive crisis high. Y’all who know anything about blood pressure readings would know that a systolic number of 230 is extremely concerning- my systolic number was 220 ...
2025-07-21 19:49:14 +0000 UTC View Post
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i'm in the stage of my forever grief where i learn to embrace the pockets of good moments in my life, and Twice gave me NINE pockets with this one. i love them so much. i'm THRILLED for the album.
—MRS. XTHINA
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i hope my take of what i felt was necessary isn't considered "controversial", because i totally think it was needed for the magic of THIS COMEBACK.
—MRS. XTHINA
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ps. took me one listen after reacting to realize that my favorite vocal part of Hot was Yunjin's voice... another case of widow brain.🥲
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ps. btw, my memory got mixed up and the performance from the concert that had me jaw-dropped was their left right remix, not in the rain. my bad, widow brain.🥲
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these layers of Jennie is LIKE JENNIE for me. i can't wait to see what the rest of her album sounds like. handlebars has me in a specific chokehold that i can't describe.
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vibes for days with these. i would've loved to have seen fire choreography for 'when i'm with you'. considering the fact that i'm on daily blood thinners, i shouldn't be surprised if i have bruises on my hips from this point on with that viral hip-hitting move. these lyrics REALLY makes me miss Chris.
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Rose does it again, 'it' being getting me all in my feels along with the M/V location being exactly in the same place where Chris and i last traveled to and also, where he proposed. so much feels.
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yes, the title for this video is NOT what it seems. y'all will see. i checked out "Debut", "Touch", and "Gnarly" for my first-time experience for this vibrant group.
btw, i figured out why i mistakened them to be with JYP- it’s because i mixed them up with VCHA. my bad.🤦🏻♀️
—MRS. XTHINA
2025-06-18 21:46:37 +0000 UTC View Post
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thanks for bearing with my up and down emotions beforehand. y'all were right— this was definitely a movie-like trailer, i'm so glad i tuned in.
—MRS. XTHINA
I’m very emotional today, but I’ve been since February 24th when he got sick so what’s new.
I’m praying for his peace.
I’m praying that he’s still with me.
I’m praying that we’ll be together again.
I’m praying that he’s waiting for me.
🕊️
2025-06-12 16:37:03 +0000 UTC View Post
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hey Patreon Crew. i hope y'all are well, as always. i do chat a bit in the beginning before i get to the reaction and i don't plan to do any edits. y'all are getting the real OG, who is a forever grieving person who's not only trying to figure out who she is as a K-pop reactor, but who she is now after already figuring out who she was when she met and married her soulmate, Chris Lue.
thanks for being here, and thanks for watching. i hope y'all are...
a genuine check-in with my crew. much love to y'all who are still here while i'm still struggling, crying, and quetioning my existence everyday.
—thina
My husband, best friend, soulmate, and my everything Chris Lue has flown free to a better place yesterday, March 5, 2025 at 10:20pm after putting up a hell of a fight for 10 days. He developed severe pneumonia in both of his lungs and sepsis in his blood after getting Influenza A.
I don't know how to make this kind of post. I can't believe I'm making this kind of a post. I never imagined it would be this way. If anything, with my health conditions, I always thought it would be me first....
2025-03-06 21:52:46 +0000 UTC View Post
He got pneumonia in both of his lungs post-flu and is showing signs of sepsis as well.
We’re waiting on bloodwork results to see how much infection has gotten into his bloodstream. He is currently on a ventilator to breathe for him to give his lungs s break and being closely monitored.
I would appreciate with all of my heart if y’all could say a prayer him that he’ll pull through, his name is Christopher Lue. I clearly won’t be doing any content for now, my number one prio...
2025-03-03 19:02:35 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey Patreon Crew, my “brb” is delayed just a bit more. Chris was seemingly getting better so I had a full day of filming and right in the middle of editing, his temperature spiked up to 103° even while being on antibiotics and fever-reducing meds on the clock. Once he started feeling delirious and was tremendously slowing down in movement to where he couldn’t drink water, I went into super wifey mode, packed things up, and rushed him to ER.
They’re currently collecting bloodwor...
2025-02-28 21:13:04 +0000 UTC View Post
SUP MY PATREON CREW.🏴☠️ I really hope that y’all have been doing well, especially way better than I’ve been this month. It’s been a lot. I’ll be fine, I always aim to be, but it doesn’t change the fact that February has been kicking my ass.
First I get a lupus flare-up from the temperature drop in Texas, then once I start to recover, I get a flat tire on the way to my weekend job. Then once I buy a new tire, my health insurance increases like crazy. Then once I work ...
2025-02-26 00:27:04 +0000 UTC View Post
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2025-02-16 05:28:12 +0000 UTC View Post
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2025-02-16 04:36:43 +0000 UTC View Postfor Captains, Captain Jack Sparrows
MY ENDING FEELINGS:
(spoiler alert!!!)
I'll likely do a highlights video of the show for my YouTube and I'll film an ending thoughts of how I feel about S4, but it'll basically be what I'm writing below so y'all get to see my POV first!
—Dongho & Arin: love them, since the beginning. No drama, just vibing with the experiment and experience. I know edits play a lot into everything, but ...
for Captains, Captain Jack Sparrows
*at this point of the show, I already see our main couples completed solid in their stances of confirmation for each other. I do feel for our barista boy, but honestly, even if he had expressed himself earlier, I think it's been set in the stars that his #1 is meant for someone else...
SUP MY PATREON CREW?!🏴☠️ How's everyone's February been so far? Our idols have been in full effect! At least that's what it feels like to me, mainly because G-DRAGON is having his official comeback at the end of the month. I'm not seated for it, I'm FLOORED, because I've already melted from the news.🥴
Here's upcoming thangs for both my YouTube and Patreon. Just an FYI, "Nothing Prepared" with Twice and TXT is still coming! I didn't realize that there's 2 parts, and it's t...
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2025-02-13 01:34:56 +0000 UTC View Postfor Sailors, Mateys, Captains, Captain Jack Sparrows
LIST:
—ITZY Holiday special "Be My Baby" Wonder Girls cover
—Chaeryeong "21" OST (Who Is She)
—Yeji "Think About You" OST (Think About You)
—Lia "Why Not" OST (The Fiery Priest 2)
for Captains, Captain Jack Sparrows
*alriiiiight so, at this point, I'm more convinced of my theory of why we're getting even more into one-main-character story here hahah- but being an avid watcher of shows like Love Is Blind, I'm aware that the edits gravitate towards the drama or the stories with more to tell and speculate about. There is one person that I feel a slight tinge of annoyance for, but I won't say who (yet). I wonder if any of y'all can guess hahah and I felt so sad for ...
for Captains, Captain Jack Sparrows
*sooo it IS the edit! Jeongsu totally won points for me with this one, he was so kind and considerate at Paradise with my favorite girl of the season. I do wish that the edit was distributed evenly, I feel like there's too much of one main character now. I have my theories with why which I'll share at the end...
