i still don't know what to call this song, so i'll come up with a name later
Saturday, March 30, 2024 at 3:02 PM
i finished most of this a while ago, but while i was in france i added those yelling vocals towareds that end. I recorded 33 layers of cleans, and lydian brambila (https://lybram.bandcamp.com/) recorded 9. (lydian also sang on stage with me for the sadness show in chicago). this song is about my perso...
Sunday, March 3, 2024 at 10:52 PM
also a song i recorded the vocals for at Midoran's house. i wrote the lyrics while i was in france on my notebook (as well as a few other songs which i did record vocals for while on the trip). the title means "∫anila's crown". i'll post an english translation in the comments in about half an hour
--
tahaclenhamë
abcucëppe ëfpaltegrac qin ΩënΩa£ masdía p◊ajat nav’ºe
glaj§ di dino cec §aºnamë ‡éjsdeb li§...
2024-07-09 11:57:03 +0000 UTC View Postimmedeately after the last track i posted, this ambient piece will play. the title is extracted from the lyrics of the previous song "...leaving trails of magical strings suspending in dreams"
the distant screams were also recorded at Midoran's cavern
according to the file it says this project was created Tuesday, September 5, 2023 at 2:34 AM, which is when i made one of the dozen (or so) sounds that happens during the intro. i remember creating the rest of the song earlier this year (around march) . in reality this year was very very unproductive for me up until somewhere in the middle of june when suddenly i started making 20 new Trhä songs within one week. this song (and the other songs I will share shortyl) were 95% completed many mon...
2024-07-09 11:45:55 +0000 UTC View Posti may repurpose this for a Nänmëë track *i've been wanting to make new nanmee for a while now). i made this when iwas very surprised and lucky to discover a GRAND PIANO at the air bnb i was staying for the last week in may. most of the sounds here were created with that
2024-06-10 14:50:31 +0000 UTC View Postfor the concert (and any future concerts) i'll have transitional sounds connecting every song to eachother. this is what i had programmed for this last concert between "in the distant travels" and "blue". not only is this for an interesting seamless dynamic between the songs, but it also gives us plenty of time to tune up and prepare for the next song. if you were wondering why i was so far back on the stage, it was specifically so i could control these backing tracks. but next time i'll make...
2024-06-10 14:45:22 +0000 UTC View Posthttps://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1rvASWbXQIJgJIDhHDE6X_BnoHBy1J5VM?usp=drive_link
im not getting a good guitar tone, i think i want to eventually make a better playthrough video for this (and any other song) with a better defined guitar tone and also better and more useful angles.the ending of the video has me just playing the song SOLO and with low gain...
the clean middle section was the hardest thing (for me) to perform during the entire set. i would practiec it really hard just to make sure i wouldn't mess it up, but in the end my cables got undone anyway! in the performance there's just silence because my guitar cut out and since nothing else is happening for this section it was just empty silence. in the end i didnt even end up playing this really difficult section cause thewhole timei was desperately trying to troubleshoot why no sound wa...
2024-06-06 22:01:21 +0000 UTC View Postthis song was a disaster when we performed it because my cables got disconnected somewhere in my pedal chain, it wasnt until the next song that i was able to fix it, so my guitar was just lost during this song, it was hugely annoying. anyway this is what you were SUPPOSED to hear (coming from me). for the set there were 3 guitars. guitars 2 and 3 are fully tabbed out for the other guitarists to learn , so in the folder you can find tabs (not well organized, but there nonethe less) for each in...
2024-06-05 22:14:19 +0000 UTC View Postyesterday was the first show for any solo projects. if anyone of you came out thank you so much it was amazing to see and talk to so many people . now that the setlist was exposed i can share all the tabs and things that i used to teach the other musicians how to play the songs and also playthroughs of how i played my parts. ill do that when i get home though.
this wont be the last!! i plan to do this as many times as possible. if anyone knows any helpful musicians, i woulf be happy to ...
2024-06-01 14:45:21 +0000 UTC View Postpatreon has been kinda slow lately. i blame that on the house i was living in as soon as i arrived in amsterdam and the room i had my equipment in, but that house is gone a nd a better place is here, but ive spent this whole month of may in chicago in preperation for my sadness show. while here i've been very nostalgic and i even made a whole new sadness song (and a ton of Trhä riffs). before i left to come here though, during april and march, i started many new songs ideas for Trhä Sadness...
2024-05-14 14:41:10 +0000 UTC View Post
we now begin to look into basic haΩaj grammar, this first word category being the pronouns (aΩde). haΩaj has 2 pluralities (singular + plural) and 3 perspectives [+plus a 4th separate perspective] and these 2 pluralities and these 3 perspectives multiply to create a table for the pronouns, at least in principle, because of some irregularities. in the first perspective (or first person) pronouns we have the equivalent of a singular "I" and plural "we". in haΩaj we further sub...
2024-04-23 22:24:04 +0000 UTC View PostWednesday, April 3, 2024 at 1:43 PM
i wrote all the lyrics and recorded the vocals today. the title means "the first day of the best summer ever".like i sadi before ninatahec lyrics are kinda personal and secretive, however i'll share them just in haΩaj, mayeb after more haΩaj lessons you can understand and translate them yourself (maybe one day i'll share all the ninatahec lyrics and translations but not today). this concludes my 3 song contribution to a split release. after last ...
it feels like it has been way too long since i have given you guys an update on here. for the last several months i have been simlutaneously unproductive + sometimes making new things (sadness and trhä) + overwhelmed with responsibilities (such as preparing the sadness show) and often too paralyzed to work on anything. you will be happy to know though that there IS a new sadness album in the works, a 3 track release (and the first non split release since "our time is here"). as well as some ...
2024-04-20 07:14:27 +0000 UTC View Postyou might have seen a flyer for a sadness show in chicago, this is a real thing. musicians in the other bands playing that night have offered their help in performing the songs as a live band with me and we will be dedicating the next few months to rehearsing the set and giving the best possible show. im extremely nervous . there's something missing though, and that would be vocals. my goal is to have the clean vocals as layered as possible and to also not have to do vocals myself because my ...
2024-03-06 09:30:24 +0000 UTC View Postthere's nothing on my face, ruin everything, and i hate you
(for context read my previous post about "i'm a failure) because all of the comforting songs are about the same thing, my extreme attachment to M, who was my favorite person at the time and my hyperfixation and my emotional obsession and every corner of my mind from late october 2018 until i dont even know when , it lasted a really long time, but most of that time was just missing her and obsessing over incomplete details beca...
surely there are many things i havent talked about yet, if there's something ive misse dplease comment below i will gladly do a big talk, this could be things i released before i even started patreon, or things that when i released them on patreon i didnt go too in depth for them. if i didnt do that it might have been just that in that moment i didnt have the verbality to talk so deeply about it, but for the most part (about 99%) of the time i am open to talk very in depth about anything, so ...
2024-02-12 18:42:26 +0000 UTC View Postsince i finished perfecting all the haΩaj characters i can write anything i want in a complete standard form, ive already written names and phrases that were requested of me. if you would like your name written or a phrase of your choice i can make a nice mock up of it using the character library, just let me know. i plan on making a nice video that explains how the writing system works and also share a bif folder with every character in it so you can see
2024-02-11 09:04:06 +0000 UTC View Post
you might notice that the written title looks much cleaner than in all the other album covers and lyrics, this is becayse this is the first time its not hand written. basially i went in and did the tedious process of creating a perfect and complete digital image for every single character in haΩaj (nearly 200 of them) and used those perfectly drawn iamges to build the word "nêbamΩejn". this looks so clean because of that and also i have notoriously terrible handwriting so hand writing anyt...
2024-02-10 19:30:15 +0000 UTC View PostFriday, June 16, 2023 at 5:30 AM
i promise i will come back here with my head straight and the words to talk sooo much about a million things. apart from the recent songs, ive also seen people asking that i post lyrics to missing comforting songs, and i can even talk in depth about them. if there is something you would like to hear me talk in depth about that i havent already covered here, please comment below. i am eternally grateful that anyone in any corner of the world would care e...
november 12 2023
i know i havent been writing detailed posts about my recents songs and i really would like to but something in my (br()aINNn) ( i dont like that word) isnt letting me. ive been feeling strange for the last month tbh. i ahvent even worked much on music at all but i also havent fully settled into my new living place. i will come bak another time to deep dive all the recents songs ive posted i promise, the contents are very interesting and im sure you'll love to here. and...
UPDATE: remastered in june 2025
Wednesday, November 29, 2023 at 4:25 PM
something in the distance
on top of a bridge hanging over incomplete space
a shade of light is missing in my heart
its on the surface of your glowing hands
somewhere in the distance
from the top of the highest point i could find and then somehow
i recognize this place , i dont know when
i can somewhat connect the words caught in my throat
someone
the surface...
this is comprised of many many differnt unused samples of mine which became noise clips that i was going to use for this powervilence band i was in where i played drums but we never ended up doing anything because i left mexico so i repurposed the noise clips (that were supposed to be background sounds and interludes/intros) and put them all (most of them) in this ambient piece. this and the prev¨ious nënmë post is going to go on a split with another ambient project
2023-12-29 13:25:12 +0000 UTC View PostFriday, October 27, 2023 at 8:26 PM
"Lasëman" is a village in EnΩëtonëg
"◊émë" means the sounds of outside (such as ambient nature sounds and just outside anything)
---
Ωicaµësalso
cáharba Mêjat◊ënsa ibajn
ëf hen, LasëmanΩicaµë∫án ë∫
elfjadel ◊émësa navamhe ën Ωigemhe dësnes
amo£ im
dem asa ma£ im ëmat ase filese ∂ibaj
Mêjafil ∂ibaj
Mêjabên
Mêja∫enacta
also ëmat
---
love in spring<...
Wednesday, November 29, 2023 at 9:42 AM
i MAY add piano to this song (if i have time). im living at my grandparents house rn because im moving tomorrow to europe and my grandma has two pianos here that are epi (i reording the 2017 kiss in otober here and the ending of ma heshiva) but my flight got moved to TODAY so now i have to unexpectedly work on everything i had planned on working on over 2 days into jhust a few hours. if i have time ill add piano but if not then oh well, it sounds...
Wednesday, November 29, 2023 at 11:10 AM
-----
sometimes i dream and i feel so pure again
i almost forget what it felt like to just be me
and then suddenly i fall asleep and i wake up in a familiar place
i wake up looking at myself in the mirror
and looking at an empty space beside me
trying to fill it with your name
your name is spelled so beautifully
it spells your face
i left you so many years ago and i forgot to take myself...
2023-12-23 01:59:39 +0000 UTC View PostWednesday, November 29, 2023 at 10:08 AM
for some reason the mp3 version of the file (which is what i use for patreon) has these digital artifacts that are annoying. fortunately the lossless version (bandcamp) will not be this way so dont worry about that, i will always share a drive link inthe comments to the full quality version
---------
what if i never said “what if”
not even once
what if not even once did i ever wonder what it felt like
to just feel ...
2023-12-23 00:46:07 +0000 UTC View Post
UPDATE: remastered in june 2025
Saturday, May 20, 2023 at 9:03 PM
ill make a more detailed post about this song tomrrow because i am tired right now and want to go to bed. i had the instrumental again for a long time until i the day before yesterday i finally figured out what i wanted to do with the vocals (well the melody i had in mind for a while but i brought it all together with lyrics and opted not to add vocals ot the whole song)
-----
i left a ...
UPDATE: remastered in june 2025
Sunday, June 4, 2023 at 4:36 PM
i had this instrumental for a while without knowing what i wanted to write the song about, besides obvious impulsive themes, such as the tonality (fminor) being prime lowsun and sunset colors and the overall feeling of something romantic and pure. then one day I revisted my childhood videos (my mom spent many many years video documenting everything so i have a lot of digitalized tape recordings to this day that ...