Happy Spring to you my friends, readers and perverts <3
I grew up in a Northern city where springtime has always been truly brutal: everything that was dead coming back to life with a violent relentless energy, the air smells of bonfires and dirt, and you're tired all the time because winter took it all, yet again. Seasons in the UK are much milder, but I'll remind myself of that just...
2023-04-14 07:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Writing this felt like an early Christmas gift – for all these times when I shared a meaningless Monday dialogue with a colleague omitting the fact that I spend Sunday night washing a latex straight jacket. I love being a weirdo. Thank you for staying subscribed during this year - was definitely part of my personal lifeline <3
Happy holidays! xxx
Standi...
2022-12-23 12:39:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Great memories of standing in the middle of Rose Easton trying to smell latex through the glass. The sexiest thing in this sculpture is a breathing tube sticking out to the side. Not many people noticed, but us? We did. Was a pleasure to talk to Jenkin van Zyl about latex inflatable and obscure online fetishes which are not meant to be lived out. Read the i-D feature below.
2022-12-22 16:50:28 +0000 UTC
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There is a special pleasure in unwrapping an item by Soft Skin Latex.
I remember taking a Large Ruff out of the box, everything about it perfectly satisfying: the immaculate folds, the deep plum colour, the latex scent and the movement. But apart from the pleasure of the object, Soft Skin Latex does stand out among other latex brands....
2022-12-03 11:26:55 +0000 UTC View Post
Earlier this year, London-based fashion designer Ella Boucht asked me to model for their latest collection titled 'FIST'. The collection is inspired in equal parts by the history of queer people in martial arts and boxing and the leatherdyke culture and S/M. I was honoured to embody the latter, inspire...
2022-11-27 14:29:45 +0000 UTC View PostAnd I am back. Hello, my beloved perverts, fetishists and friends. I’m bringing you a little text on change, piss and collective intimacy.
To me, the most integral part of being a kinkster is accepting that thing do change. Trying new things is a big part of how we operate as perverted beings - chasing highs, imagining new ways of getting off, trying to touch what we’re scared of. ...
2022-09-22 07:01:00 +0000 UTC View Post
Last month, I wrote the text for the beautiful collaborative project by Fleet Ilya and Anna Sampson exploring the potential of leather and erotic gaze beyond the binary. The project draws leather's queer heritage and explores the possibilities of gender expression through the material. We love to s...
2022-09-02 07:01:01 +0000 UTC View PostThe London Vagabond is truly a gift to us all. Every time time I write about their work, it makes me think of the multitudes of ways we see sex through a cultural lens these days – which sides of it we celebrate, and which we hide. Masturbation is an interesting one: there is a glamourised pornified portrayal of it, and there are ways we actually get off. Sometimes, these ways are something w...
2022-08-25 11:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post
I have already interviewed Steven Harwick, the brilliant photographer behind Bound Leather Zine once here. But I got to talk to him again, this time about his brilliant new book 'By The Skin of My Teeth', which comprises essays, interviews and photography – a beautifully crafted portrait of the queer leather community. You truly know when a book was made by a fetishist because it's a beautif...
2022-07-08 09:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post
When I stood there naked, I felt powerful. There is definitely a correlation which exists for me: I always say, I’d gladly walk around topless if it was socially acceptable. It’s both about my intimate connection to my flesh – and the way it intimidates people by simply existing.
Nudity is often perceived as vulnerability and softness, something to be regarded and consumed. The relations...
2022-07-03 16:27:12 +0000 UTC View PostWhat is beyond the look and the history of latex? Sliding into our shiny garments in the current moment in time, we get to ask the ever pressing questions: are we alone or together, are we restricted or free? The second part of journey to the core of the highly fetishised material.
Read Part 1 here.
Two decades into the 21st century, and the technologies and...
2022-05-27 16:01:03 +0000 UTC View PostI wasn't born a fetishist. Or so I tell myself. Is anyone ever really? Or do we all get introduced to fetish by the consumer society or the expansive sexy horizons of the internet? The moment I first put a latex catsuit on has changed my life forever. Once it's tightly clung to my body, this memory will be with me forever, in anything I wear after. Latex is a cornerstone of the aesthetic associated with kink and fetish – but its cultural history and sensory experience often get ov...
2022-05-19 10:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Golden showers as a subject of contemporary art. Piss as a way to narrate queer history. Watersports as the deepest expression of intimacy.
This project is over a year old now! I remember that in the beginning I was a little worried, thinking how would I manage to bring myself into something which is more explicit than writing about rope or leather. Rope or leather are of course still sexual – but they can very easily be perceived by the mainstream through a d...
2022-05-12 11:48:28 +0000 UTC View Post"Once you have that presence and that ability to move somebody to the ground without having to do anything, except to stand there and be you... Everything else you can learn. But that is pretty hard, I think."
Eva Oh, or Mistress Eva, is an International professional and lifestyle Dominatrix – and a person of incredible presence. This goes for her place in the global kink scene (she is the win...
2022-05-03 11:46:05 +0000 UTC View PostA couple of weeks ago I wrote a little love letter to kink spaces for i-D Magazine – in response to Tower Hamlets actively trying to shut down Klub Verboten. It is, in a way, a love letter to Klub Verboten because the event and the team are very close to ...
2022-03-30 16:31:00 +0000 UTC View PostFirst of all, I would like to thank you for still staying subscribed during the last month. It means a lot to me. This is a space where I write for pleasure – and having someone to talk to in this space feels good on many levels. Now I have to type that again, the strange beginning of the sentence: since the war started…
Since the war started, it’s been increasingly difficult, strange and alienating to think about desire – and what desire means when the world is bei...
2022-03-26 08:01:00 +0000 UTC View Post
Got into my latex catsuit for Anna Sampson a couple of weeks ago. "I love it," she said. "Something else gets into you when you put it on". Bring in latex is a completely different feeling compared to wearing anything else – being powerful and slightly otherworldly, high on your own slowly rising body heat. The sensations of time and space and presence are very slightly altered when the zip goes up.&...
2022-02-24 12:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post
In the past few months I've working with Fleet Ilya leather label and artist Ekaterina Bazhenova-Yamasaki on some communication around the very beautiful book Atom they produced together. It's a book about the pandemic – isolation, loneliness, introspection and what it means for our ideas of the body and private space. It's also a book about fetish (or a...
2022-02-17 15:07:34 +0000 UTC View Post
I shot with Anna Sampson a couple of weeks ago, which was pretty special, because I think she is the most iconic fetish photographer of our times. I just got to put on some leather and show up in my queer power, and I don't think anyone has ever got me that well. So I'll just leave these here.
Axxx
2022-02-09 21:53:01 +0000 UTC View PostThank you for sticking around this month as it took me longer that usual to gather my sexy thoughts (covid among the reasons)<3 Today's essay is on one of my favourite things – being sadistic. I tried to reflect what it's like beyond the guilt-inducing preconceptions. I also wrote about art, empathy, needles, my shadow self and consuming beautiful things. Enjoy xxx
I’ve ...
2022-01-29 10:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post“Have I always been like this - or have I just happened to meet the right person?” We all contemplate this question from time to time: which of our desires are authentically ours and which are invoked by other people? My latest essay looks at how much agency we have in the very beautiful yet seemingly unpredictable fluidity of kink sexuality – and the vulnerability, ecstasy and grief of BDSM intimacy.
2022-01-08 15:19:13 +0000 UTC
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No. Merry Christmas. xxx
2021-12-25 11:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post
Thank you all for subscribing, reading and following my work here in 2021 <3
I hope you're having a nice festive time in which you are probably intermittently bored, peaceful or thinking about something filthy and inappropriate at wholesome places like supermarket isles or family dinners or even churches – cheers to that.
I started planning "Other Kinds of Pleasures" &nb...
2021-12-24 15:16:38 +0000 UTC View Post
Bound Leather zine offers a fascinating portrayal of today’s leather community: artful, hot, empathetic and real just like the leathers. It’s a reminder of the many meanings of leather: a source of erotic energy, a fetish, an aesthetic with history and something which unites an incredibly diverse communi...
2021-12-22 16:42:01 +0000 UTC View Post
These images are from the Spring 1973 issue of Bound to Please, a bondage magazine published by company called House of Milan in Los Angeles (my version is most likely a UK
bootleg reprint). The content ranges from bondage-themed fiction, erotic illustrations, photo shoots, and personals. The most fascinating part, however, is photos sent in by members of the magazine's Bondage Club and then rated by the editorial on the scale of 1 to 10. The first strap bondage image is fr...
I ended up with a copy of “Box Hill” by Adam Mars-Jones by accident when Aesop ran their Queer Library project in June (the full excellent book list can be found here) – someone at their Borough store just randomly gave it to me.
"On the Sunday of his eighteenth birthday, in 1975, Colin takes a walk ...
2021-12-12 12:49:50 +0000 UTC View Post
Some more outtakes from a shoot I did with an incredible photographer Ekaterina Bazhenova-Yamasaki for Fleet Ilya (full story on my leather fetish and being seen 2021-12-12 09:56:35 +0000 UTC View Post
Does everything have to be about sex? Well, everything is sex. As queer people, kinsters, or self-proclaimed sexual deviants – do we see the world differently? And what does society have to say about this perspective? A lot of questions, some serious contemporary art and the joy of rubber and petrol smell from a local garage – all in one essay.
2021-11-29 22:20:12 +0000 UTC
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A few months ago Fleet Ilya, London-based leather brand working between fashion and fetish, asked me to collaborate with them on some writing. They also asked me to shoot with an incredible artist Ekaterina Bazhenova-Yamasaki wearing pieces from their new season (leather in lilac, who could have tho...
2021-11-27 18:30:17 +0000 UTC View Post
Last week was the first time in ages I dressed up in latex just for myself. It felt like coming back to my deepest most sincere essence of being a perv. But then, once a perv always a perv. It's a pleasure to have access to something so sensory and lush.
xxx
2021-11-18 11:00:01 +0000 UTC View Post