Just found out what i have. It is called vaginismus basically what it is is that the repeated trauma of my ex from being raped repeatedly has caused my vagina muscles to constrict and tighten up so penetration is really painful. So im going for pelvic physical therapist to help it.
2020-07-21 19:22:51 +0000 UTC View PostUntil i find out tuesday about the damage my ex has done to me and see if i can or how i can fix this damage to my vagina i will be unable to make a video because I'm very consumed over this damage and what i will find out. I have been having panic attacks almost every day and nightmares all night. I know it is no excuse but until i know i wont be able to do anything else...
2020-07-18 18:26:47 +0000 UTC View PostGetting a new tattoo. A beautiful japanese girl with a cherry blossom kimono with a sniper on her shoulder and bright blue hair and spider lily in her hair. It will be based off the character i have always related with sinon from sao but releastic.
2020-07-17 23:08:06 +0000 UTC View PostIm thinking of adding this as a tier or couple it with my pictures
2020-07-03 02:00:33 +0000 UTC View PostDear my loves,
I have to tell you guys. Open up to you guys. If your okay with it. If you don't know my story that is fine but i made a video about me being diagnosed with ptsd(post traumatic stress disorder) from being assaulted multiple times but also being repeatedly raped by someone i considered a trusted friend who was also my boyfriend at the time. I did not report him because of manipulation and no evidence...i thought he only damaged me mentally but i recently found out that he dam...
So i cant use hentai anymore and have been using blackpink are you guys liking this or should i make them pics of me instead? I would like to know what you guys want
2020-06-24 05:12:43 +0000 UTC View PostSo for the patreon only videos I will be doing new thumbnails as youtube is being mean to me. I know you might all enjoy the hentai thumbnails but I can't use them anymore. >.<
2020-06-24 00:45:41 +0000 UTC View PostI really would love to do a summer photoshoot for you guys. Pool, me in a swim suit, water guns and floaties but i dont know any where i can do it and i dont know a photographer ðŸ˜
2020-06-17 04:52:16 +0000 UTC View PostHey everyone i didnt say this because i was nervous and felt ashamed about it. I have been having trouble with pleasure for years when it came to sex. my ex repeatedly raped me...so he damaged my vagina to the point i only felt pain. Due to manipulation and not understanding sex fully i assumed it was normal to endure pain during sex. A couple months ago i found out the true damage he did on me physically not just mentally. However after months of no masturbation and many tears and fears and ...
2020-06-12 06:15:51 +0000 UTC View PostBecause I want my pictures and videos of me dancing to be better quality. I won't be doing any until I get my ring light. I will be doing audios. I promise when I get my ring light you will get many pictures of me and videos of me dancing because I love to dance for you guys~!
Hi everyone i want to say how thankful i am that you guys were so very patient with me this week. I feel so bad i was unable to make videos. But i was adjusting to my new life with a new pet and some medical issues stopped me also. As you know i was in the er but they didn't find anything serious or alarming. Im doing a lot better now after doing what the doctors have told me to do and getting the fluids i needed while in the er.
As im doing better videos will be out soon. Once again tha...
Hey everyone i just wanted to express how grateful i am for you guys for putting up with my medical situation. I promise videos are coming soon and i will be making an extra video as an apology/thank you for the support. I understand many people's financial situations change especially around this time and i understand. Those who are able to afford and stay with me thank you for staying even though i have been a few days behind on making content.
2020-05-02 10:01:04 +0000 UTC View PostHi everyone i was at the er last night because of certain medical problems with my body. They did do blood tests and cat scan on me. But they didnt find anything alarming or serious. Im okay now and at home.
2020-05-01 20:59:53 +0000 UTC View Post hey everyone I want to apologize for not making a video last night. My physical health has not been doing very good as I have been focusing on taking care of my dog which in turn has made me exhausted. I'm adjusting to everything and the time changes I will be making to ensure I continue making content and being the best dog owner I can be. Thank you again for all the love and support.
The lady at adoption agency said i will be getting my dog tomorrow at 4:30pm so live stream at 6 or 7pm est?
2020-04-26 23:41:39 +0000 UTC View Post
This is her. I named her Soyeon and I'm picking her up tomorrow as I already adopted her. I will be doing a live stream tomorrow night not sure when but I will keep you all posted when for you to meet her and talk to me! Love you guys! Thank you always for the support!!!
2020-04-26 22:31:32 +0000 UTC View Post😘
2020-04-25 01:47:07 +0000 UTC View PostTwo videos will be done tomorrow as my gratitude to you guys
1. Nurse
2. College Friend
2020-04-19 07:30:01 +0000 UTC View PostRecently many things have happened that have caused many problems and stress on my mental health and as a result needed a small break. It was all very overwhelming. However im doing better and will be working hard to give you guys the content you love! Also i have an important appointment next week thursday to check for any scarring from my ex. Im not sure how i will react or what will happen to me mentally if they do find something. I just wanted to warn you guys.
2020-04-17 21:45:45 +0000 UTC View PostHey patreons thank you so much for the love and support. It makes me so happy. My anxiety and depression got the best of me and i...well...i had a mental breakdown. Don't worry im doing okay now my family and cats have been there for me and cheered me up. However it has made me exhausted mentally and cant do videos tonight. I feel like im letting you guys down but im very sorry i will have a video soon. Also those who have personalized audios i havent done yet i will do them soon!
2020-04-16 03:03:18 +0000 UTC View Post
