#42 in my daily "dancing from my bedroom" series.
I had an explosive conversation today. More soon.
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2020-05-20 20:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
A super fun burlesque! I am getting so tired of my own clothes, so I borrowed my flatmate's suspenders...
...and yes, when women first began wearing pants, this is what was underneath. ;-)
Enjoy!
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2020-05-19 18:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
#40!!! in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series! Do I get a present? :-)
I think this one is really self-explanatory and, I hope, deeply relatable. Wherever you're at.
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Fo...
2020-05-18 18:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
#39 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
I'm having a rough week. Today, I needed to dance about some shit that has been happening--my rebuffed efforts to try to help sex workers facing criminalization for the first time as, here in Germany, the police aggressively and cruelly enforce the pandemic rules on some of the most marginalized among us, with no end in sight.
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2020-05-17 19:00:00 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello patrons!
For your special treat this week, watch me dance along to an online ballet class taught by former Dance Theater of Harlem principal ballerina Enadlyn Taylor.
This is probably the closest you'll ever get to being able to watch me as I take class. Part of my ongoing efforts to give you a fly-on-the-wall experience into life as a ballerina.
The Dance Theater of Harlem
For those of you ballet geeks out there, this is a very special thi...
2020-05-16 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello, friends!
A whole 4 days, without any new posts! I am grumpy about it, although to apologize after two months of daily posts seems an excessive mea culpa.
But it's happened--the Pandemic Blues have gotten to me badly enough that motivation is in scarce supply. It appears that an enormous part of my mental health is (a) having reasons to leave the house often and (b) having several of those reasons be to meet clients. There have been additional factors--the sex worke...
2020-05-15 18:00:04 +0000 UTC View Post
If you ever had any doubt or lack of understanding of exactly how much I love ballet...
I received some very good advice from a friend/ex-client that what is most fascinating about me/ballet is the smaller gestures, the facial expressions. This is my attempt to capture that.
Enjoy!
Fondly,
Ernestine
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2020-05-10 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
What is going on this week? What is happening? How am I doing? What is the state of the world?
All these burning questions and more, answered!
A bit of a different view this week, from the Yoga Zimmer, with fantastic evening light illuminating my magnificent, freshly-coiffured hair. HUZZAH!!!
Enjoy!
Fondly,
Ernestine
2020-05-09 21:02:05 +0000 UTC View Post
#36 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
I'm working through a thing. Can you tell?
This series is so raw. Love it. When I push this hard, my Middle Eastern dance comes out in a fascinating way.
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2020-05-08 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
#35 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
I'm working through a thing. Can you tell?
This series is so raw. Love it.
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Fondly,
Ernestine...
2020-05-07 18:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
#34 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
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Fondly,
Ernestine
2020-05-06 19:00:00 +0000 UTC View Post
#33 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
I'm working through a thing. Can you tell?
This series is so raw. Love it.
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Ernestine...
2020-05-05 19:00:00 +0000 UTC View Post
#32 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
A gorgeous adapted barre with an interesting soundtrack.
Again, this project is keeping me sane. Thank god for ballet.
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E...
2020-05-04 19:00:00 +0000 UTC View Post
This wicked awesome video is brought to by a wonderful human who recorded herself playing an accordion song so I could dance to it. (Hence apologies for the little technical sound wobbles.)
Oh! I could dance to it all day.
I think it's a polka. An Italian folk song, apparently.
May we all have such friends.
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2020-05-03 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
#30!!!! (Someone throw this woman a party with booze) in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series.
This one is completely self-explanatory. And I don't think I'm the only one who feels this way, and if you do too, I am so sorry.
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2020-05-02 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello, friends!
My weekly check-in.
It was my first attempt at a simultaneous Instagram livestream, so there were momentary confusions. Apologies. I will have my shit together better next week!
This week, a deep dive into where I am with this project. My body and soul are working through a lot of stuff! Especially with this extremely strange joblessness.
I had an excellent chat with my flatmates last night about the often toxic, hierarchical r...
2020-04-30 19:00:01 +0000 UTC View Post
#27 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
"The bad news: You're falling.
The good news: There is no ground."
My parents are very upset that I had just gotten to Berlin when "the rug was pulled out from under me" because of the pandemic.
I patiently explained to them that there had been no rug. I just got here.
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2020-04-29 18:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
This is a very special burlesque.
A sort of potential post-madness-career-launching burlesque.
You see, I met this friend. (She's a sex worker too, of course.)
Well, long story short, this fabulous Australian New Orleans jazz musician and I might have a very bright future together...
...stay tuned.
Enjoy!
Fondly,
Ernestine
2020-04-28 11:22:10 +0000 UTC View Post
#26 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
Some extremely primal shit coming out here. I'm loving how pointe is getting integrated into my improvisation. Usually, it's such a specific idiom that it's hard to be completely free, but I'm getting there. The shoes elongate me, they do not hold me back.
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2020-04-27 21:00:00 +0000 UTC View Post
#27!!! in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series! Week 5, and still going strong.
The most elegant way possible to exorcise frustration.
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Fondly,
Ernestine
2020-04-26 21:30:00 +0000 UTC View Post
#24!!! in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series! Week 5, and still going strong.
I think one of the beautiful things about this time is that things are slower, and simpler.
But you have to let them be simple.
There is this beautiful quiet moment, when one does.
Thank you for watching.
Fondly,
Ernestine
2020-04-25 18:00:08 +0000 UTC View Post23 April 2020
My bed in Neukölln
I am so, so angry.
The system has failed me, on almost every level.
I am definitely not the only one; but perhaps I am one of the few with a platform from which to speak, so speak (or type) I shall.
I was filling in a form today--trying to get a bit of silver lining from this, actually, in applying for public health insurance to get off my predatory private Cigna plan (that's ri...
2020-04-24 19:26:58 +0000 UTC View Post
#23 in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series!
This piece is an homage to the stunning beauty of spring in Berlin, with music by one of my favorite San Franciscans, Katy Stephan, who I once performed with.
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2020-04-24 18:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
#22!!! in my daily "dancing in my bedroom" series! Week 5, and still going strong.
I met someone. It was fun. :-)
If you enjoy
this video, please consider becoming a patron if you're able. I'm making these videos free to all, but Patreon is my sole source of income right now. Thanks!
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Fondly,
Ernestine
2020-04-23 19:00:00 +0000 UTC View PostI have been alerted to the fact–rather gracelessly–that my last post makes me sound like a selfish asshole.
I am not writing this so she forgives me for my selfishness, but rather because I agree that there are things I wrote that may misrepresent the gravity of transmission and de-emphasize how hard each of us individually must try to avoid it. And y’all apparently care what I have to say. So I’d like to be as accurate as possible–about both my feelings and life experiences <...
2020-04-23 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post
Ernestine prepares a new pare of pointe shoes!
As I sew, I discuss:
-what I'm doing
-what I love about pointe
-how one trains to dance en pointe
-Does it hurt?
-how you can love yourself and genuinely enjoy ballet too, even though it sometimes it hurts
-the amazing feeling of dancing up there in the sky
-how people are constantly asking me if I'm a ballet dancer. "What gave it away?"
-how it changes your body when y...
2020-04-22 20:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post1 April 2020
Evening
Home (of course)
I have implemented the scheme.
It took half an hour.
These times provoke a lot of thoughtful (and of course now my phone is blowing up and I’m distracted from my thoughtfulness) gazing out the window. My bedroom window looks out over the courtyard (I’m in the “vorderhaus”), and, as this new normal of everyone in their home most of the time goes on, it becomes increasingly interesting to look into the windows across th...
2020-04-22 18:00:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Yes, ok, finally, A WISHLIST!
For those of you wanting to help a little bit more or in a one-time way...
I need certain things to take care of my body as I burn through these weeks of daily dancing, and I can't afford them myself. Want to contribute to all the stunning dancing in a very tangible way? Thank you!!!
Buy me my next pair of pointe shoes. Doesn't that sound fun? I'm going through them very quickly.
Do so and receive my eternal gratitude.
Hello, friends!
Hope you're hanging in there.
My weekly Hello video!
In it, I discuss:
-How shit is going. "Jesus fuck. Why'd you have to ask?"
-How Berlin is doing! Flowers! Regulations! Etc. -Shitty cops -This is going to carry on for awhile. Ernestine's exciting announcement of an OnlyFans page!!!
-Lena Nealon is the devil incarnate ("End t...
2020-04-21 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post10 March 2020
Bed
I am a squirrel falling through the air.
I found this card today and bought it. It’s one of those lovely old-fashioned nature prints that you see everywhere in bookshops here. The image is of a flying squirrel twisted on his journey to fully extending his wing flaps so he can glide.
Context #1: I really owe someone a thank-you card, and this person lives with my two cats, one of whom is an accomplished murderess who has brought flying squirrels into...
2020-04-19 18:00:02 +0000 UTC View Post