Fighting
Sorry all, for being absent. I'm struggling mentally. Honestly I've been fighting with my suicidal impulses lately..
If you could, please sent some love my way.
2025-09-24 05:12:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Sorry all, for being absent. I'm struggling mentally. Honestly I've been fighting with my suicidal impulses lately..
If you could, please sent some love my way.
2025-09-24 05:12:21 +0000 UTC View PostHello, my beloved patrons.
I sincerely hope you're all doing good out there.
I just wanted to tell you all who've support me that I'm sorry I constantly have downtimes.
I haven't been doing well at all. My health has continued to tank, my finances are in the red, my family is broken. To be honest, I've been feeling rather suicidal lately.
I wanted to show my face, draw and post stuff for yall but the pressure makes me spiral even more and in the blink of an eye, I've been ...
You've beaten the dungeon only to find the cutest love ever as your reward!
Emily belongs to @Thorgonator~
Thank you for the commission, Thorg! I had fun drawing her <3
Starting a new drawing! Commission WIP for @Thorgonator's OC, Emily~
2025-08-15 09:50:36 +0000 UTC View Post
As with every complex scenes I have illustrated for @Hal_Alterego, I'm really loving how this is turning out to be~ Got in the zone and made some meaningful progress on the pic.
Probably moving to a diff commission for a bit because I really need to fill in a few more commissions for the month ꩜ ᨓ𖦹
Done with cleaning up the lines!
2025-08-05 14:38:30 +0000 UTC View Post
Spend some time working on this long-term comm project for Hal_Alterego~
2025-07-30 21:10:28 +0000 UTC View Post
Sweet, sensuous lovemaking with Shino Asada from SAO: Alicization. Flat-color commission for @Glazed Meat~
2025-07-29 14:19:50 +0000 UTC View Post
Flat -color sketch commission for @Glazed Meat! Still gotta add the flats for this, but I'm going to bed first! Niteeeee!
Also, the rough:
First off I'd like to (again) apologize for my constant absence.
I know I haven't been in the greatest mental (or physical) health lately...
I feel sorry to see some patron come and leave, but I completely understand that it's hard to continue supporting someone who isn't giving back much. Contemplated a lot about pausing my patreon, but then again my regulars insisted I leave it open so they can continue supporting me. So instead, I extend my deepest apology to those who find it an...
Some super sweaty and messy post party activity is lined for the much-too-trusting gals. And it involved lotsa cock-tails ;3
Commission for @BastardPleb (Twitter / bsky) for their purrty tiger duo, Maria (orange tiger) and Mary (white tiger)! <3
Thank you so much~
I was on a bit of a break, was supposed to come back last week but caught a bad flu... better now but still hasn't recovered yet. I should be back in a few days.
Sorry everyone T_T
Thanks, mom, for making me feel like I should fucking kill myself. As if I don't feel worthless enough already. The fucking irony is you completely rely on me, yet you can't even show me a modicum of respect or a sliver of gratefulness.
Why the fuck have I fought so hard to keep this broken family afloat? Even when my health worsens, not one of you would take care of me. All you do is drain my will to live.
Thanks for all the gaslighting, thanks for pushing me to the edge so I s...
Context: Reworking my commission tier structure and figuring out new rates + designing new commission info.
*still deliberating, not finalized yet
Thinking about the new commission rates is giving me anxiety. I just can't get used to the idea since I've never really been rich enough to be an art commissioner, even buying prints is already a little too luxurious for me and I can on...
Lmao idk if I can just call her 'Fami'?
Massive spoiler..... what do yall think? XD
Anyways! I was struggling to start drawing yet again, but once I got the gears running, somehow created something I'm very happy with!
Random flow noodles turned into another Power sketch. I promise I just wanted to draw hair n it just went in the direction it did, impromptu!
2025-06-07 00:01:52 +0000 UTC View Post
Feeling very stressed out about my health/financial situation.
Oh my phone broke down. Now I think my tablet stylus is dying...
Welp. Another AkiMeno drawing?
Hey yall!
Hope yall fine and dandy.
Anyways I've got a thing I'd like to get feedback from yall now...
I'm thinking I'm gonna keep the $1 for tip jar and raise the charge to early access + uncensored artworks to another tier? It seemed to me that there are people who've subscribed and shared my patreon posts on kemono, I think it's reasonable to make it a little harder for them I guess...
Would $3 for access seem reasonable to yall?
I don't really want to overchar...
2025-05-29 08:10:50 +0000 UTC View Post
Happy how the scene is building up! Comm WIP for @Hal_Alterego
2025-05-29 01:13:51 +0000 UTC View Post
Update! Nearly done with this one~
Commission for @BastardPleb!
A passionate night with a very messy ending for the lovely Mrs. T.
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Doneeeeeeee~
Cummission for Ashia who has been a wonderful client & supporter of my art
Thank you very much!
Feeling terrible today. Forced myself to do some work to occupy my mind.
Somehow got the 2nd variation of this commission done <3
I've wanted to draw them forever. So I did a little sketch.
Again I was very much struggling to get this far.
Sorry that I've been only doing a lot of sketches. Still finding my flow TAT
Not feeling well but I've been doodling whatever. Warming up myself I guess.
2025-05-10 09:52:13 +0000 UTC View PostI have a certain complex about making non-NSFW art. Or really just focusing on elements that are often overlooked. Afterall I've never really been noticed nor was I ever able to make a living out of art outside of NSFW.
Of course, I love my smut, but I also love a great many other things out there.
I'd love to be one who celebrates many facets of the world.
If I'm not struggling enough to survive on the daily, I probably would have been diversifying my effort more...
Drew something I'm very happy with! This has the ideal energy that I'd like to capture in my drawings. I think I might want to stick to this kinda drawings for a little bit and see how things develop.
If I'm comfortable with it, I might want to try open up commissions for this kinda art?
Would you guys be interested?
Some more warm up/studies involving that (not-at-all) generic smoking Kowloon couple and other shenanigans.
I dunno, I've been trying to find my groove these few days while learning some stuff.
I really want to get back to seriously studying again. Time and time again I feel the pangs of my own lacking, but I've been too stuck trying to keep afloat that I've left my studies unattended.
Lately, I've made some meaningful changes to my work setup, so I can work from my bed. I ho...
Done with the base pic~ 2 more variations to go!
A tease for now since this is a set so I'd like to post them all together~
Commission for Ashia~ which is so kind as to let me share the work, even though it was supposed to be private. You are such a god 🙏
Uh......doing some more practice sessions. Focusing more on nailing the gestures now.
Anyways I should ask if you peeps would be interested with me sharing these practice drawings here or it's just annoying?
Mmm just thought I'd do some figure practice ft. Power, Makima, Asa & Kobeni ❤️
Ps - I'm really out of form, these would've taken me much less effort & time a few years ago X_x