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Customs are open again

Hello and I hope you're all having an excellent Friday,

I have been closed for customs for the past 6 months, and am now open again. Please get in touch with me if you are interested in a custom file.

Take care,
Aurelia

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Assignment - Repeat After Me

Repeat after me.
It feels good to go down. *snap*. Repeat.
It feels good to focus. *snap*. Repeat.
It feels good to listen. *snap*. Repeat.
It feels good to follow. *snap* Repeat.
It feels good to sink. *snap* Repeat.
It feels good to be good. *snap* Repeat.
It feels good to come back up. *snap*. Repeat.

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Pleasure Fractionation Induction

Pleasure Fractionation Induction
Student - 15:02 min


A counting and fractionation piece that ties listening to pleasure and simply following along with my words. Simple, quiet, peaceful thoughts become simple, quiet, peaceful paths into trance. Slipping away, until no thoughts can get in the way of pleasure, feels so *very* good. Can be used as a stand-alone piece, although it includes no awakener, or played as an induction at the start of a playlist.
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Student Materials Folder - October 2022

Downloads of all Student and free files can be accessed on the Student Google Drive.

If you are at the Extra Credit level, you may email the name of the extra credit file you desire to AureliaAlder@Gmail.com.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- A...

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Free MP3 Folder - October 2022

Downloads of all free files can be accessed on the Free MP3 Google Drive for patrons at the $1 level and above.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- Aurelia

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On the Waves

I had a lot of fun writing this while I was recovering and unable to record. I hope you enjoy!

On the Waves
34:01 minutes - Free

A trippy fantasy. You are on a mysterious raft. On a mysterious ocean. Water stretches out as far as you can see. You are all alone. This audio is an exploration of space, time, mind, and memory. Contains: amnesia, assimilation, layers and light sound effects.

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Rainfall - with Rain

Rainfall 

8:31 min (plain audio) - 11:03 min (with Rain) - Student 

This audio is a soothing exploration of the experience of being indoors listening to a rainstorm. Allow the sounds of the storm to draw you into a state of deep relaxation and focus. This file comes in two versions - one with just my voice, which you can listen to during a rainstorm, and a version with rain sounds in it.

Sound effects obtained from 2022-09-20 21:00:25 +0000 UTC View Post

Rainfall - Student Audio

Sorry for the delay! It was finally my turn to catch Covid-19 this month. I am back on recording and hope to have more for you soon. Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the start of fall.

Rainfall
8:31 min (plain audio) - 11:03 min (with Rain) - Student
This audio is a soothing exploration of the experience of being indoors listening to a rainstorm. Allow the sounds of the storm to draw you into a state of deep relaxation and focus. This file comes ...

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Assignment - Pleasant Scene

Pick a pleasant scene. It could be a beach, a forest, a lounge room, some place that feels safe and enjoyable to you. It can be a specific place you are familiar with, or one you are making up.

Explore and expand the scene in your imagination. Focus, and be present there, with as much clarity as you can.

It’s alright if you can’t visualize the scene, or if your visualization is unclear. Use whatever senses, impressions, emotions, concepts are available to you. Conjure the expe...

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Assignment - Coloring

Get a coloring book, or print a page from the internet. Use whatever you have, markers, crayons, pencils. Spend some time thinking about whatever you would like to think about. Just enjoy coloring. See what that is like. Is it relaxing? Boring? Meditative? Frustrating? Playful?

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Student Materials Folder - September 2022

Downloads of all Student and free files can be accessed on the Student Google Drive.

If you are at the Extra Credit level, you may email the name of the extra credit file you desire to AureliaAlder@Gmail.com.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- A...

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Free MP3 Folder - September 2022

Downloads of all free files can be accessed on the Free MP3 Google Drive for patrons at the $1 level and above.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- Aurelia

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Assignment - Moving Attention

Focus all of your attention, into your left hand. Just being present in your left hand
Feeling the weight, the warmth, the contours, the fullness, whatever is there to be felt
Being entirely in your left hand
Now move
Focus entirely on the back of your neck
Noticing the sensations
Any slight tension, pressure, whatever sensations you can experience there
Being entirely there, entirely focused, entirely present, with the back of your neck
Now move
Focus entirely on y...

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Assignment - Get in Touch

Think of an old friend or acquaintance, someone you haven’t been in contact with for a while. Reach out to them. Let them know you remember, appreciate, and are thinking of them.

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Finger Tip Consciousness

Free - 18:32 minutes

We so often focus all of our attention, all of our being, on very limited, rigid aspects of our body. We feel like we have a “self” and like that self has a location. We have awareness, and we have an awareness of being aware, and often, we identify that awareness with a location. In fact, awareness has no location. Awareness can seem to exist anywhere, or everywhere. In this audio, experiment with freeing your mind of its rigid habits and experience a ...

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Assignment - Smile to Yourself

Visualize yourself
If it’s available, you can look at yourself in a mirror
Allowing a warm glow of happiness to fill you
Whatever you feel, it’s alright
Simply doing your best
To connect with a gentle, warm feeling
And sending it toward yourself
You can envision me smiling – I am smiling right now. You can envision a friend or loved one smiling. You can envision a strange, smiling.
And feeling an opening in your heart, feeling your own face, relaxing into a smile...

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Self Discipline

Student - 23:05 minutes

Sometimes, we can struggle to stick to tasks. It can be so easy to chase immediate satisfaction, rather than being grounded, committed, to our greater aims and aspirations. Retreating from moments of challenge, from boredom.

Finishing the things we start, persevering through challenges, and seeing a task or project or goal through to the end is all a matter of self discipline.

Sadly, so many popular ideas about what self discipline is can be ...

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Assignment - Outside

Go outside and sit or walk for ten minutes, as it is safe for you to do so. If it isn’t safe, you may enjoy doing something next to a window. You can do anything at all while you are there. Maybe you would like to listen to music or a podcast. Maybe you would like to watch the shapes the clouds make. Maybe you would like to do some gardening. Do whatever you would enjoy, outside.

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This Will Pass

Free - 12:40 min

One of the most basic aspects of the world, the most simple, fundamental truths about our experience, is that everything changes. Up and down, pleasure and pain, this is the inevitable flow of life. Nothing stays the same. Whatever you are going through, it will not last. All you need to do is be present with it, for just one breath at a time, remembering, this experience is temporary. You are okay.

Available here and in the Free MP3 folder. Binaura...

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Student Materials Folder - August 2022

Downloads of all Student and free files can be accessed on the Student Google Drive.

If you are at the Extra Credit level, you may email the name of the extra credit file you desire to AureliaAlder@Gmail.com.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- A...

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Free MP3 Folder - August 2022

Downloads of all free files can be accessed on the Free MP3 Google Drive for patrons at the $1 level and above.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- Aurelia

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Assignment - Being With Fear

Think of something you’re afraid of. Something you are anxious about. Some fear or anxiety that stews in the back of your mind, either right now, or that is often there in your day to day life.

Sit down, and let yourself experience that anxiety or fear. What are you afraid of, specifically. You can write about it if that works for you, or draw, or just reflect.

What are you afraid of happening? Why are you afraid of it? What does it feel like to be afraid?

Are you afraid o...

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Visual Focus

Free - 15:00 min

Our eyes have a special, direct connection to our minds. Where the eyes go, the mind follows. That’s why it can be such an enjoyable exercise, to lose yourself, to let go of your thoughts, to simply relax, into an object of your eyes’ focus.

Pick a visual focus - a landscape, a candle, a small stone, a flower, rest your eyes on it, and allow your mind to settle. Simply focusing, enjoying not doing or being anything at all.

Available here a...

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Assignment - Give Away

Look around your home. Pick one thing you don’t really want, don’t really need, don’t really use, and can give away. Or, if the item wouldn’t be of interest to anyone, throw away or recycle.

Do this each day for the next week.

If you are on Facebook and have a local Buy Nothing group, that is one place to give things away. Or you can find a local thrift shop, or an interested friend.

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Assignment - Tension

We’re going to do a little exercise.

First, take a moment to relax, to breathe.

Now. I want you to tighten all of your muscles, as much as you safely, comfortably can.

tighten, squeezing, tighten.

Wrapping your arms around your body, or squeezing them up to your chest.

Squeezing your fists, squeezing your thighs, squeezing your toes, squeezing your face.

Squeezing, holding.

So tight, tight, tight, squeezing with all of that energy…

And *snap...

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Asking for Help

Asking for Help
Student - 22:53 min

Something so many of us can struggle with, is asking for help, when we need help.

We might need emotional support from a friend. We may be stumped on a task in our jobs, or at school. We might lack some knowledge or skill that would be useful or important.

We might fear seeming “incapable” if we ask for help. So many of us have been shamed, especially as children, for not knowing t...

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Assignment - Trash

It can be so satisfying to do something very easy that can help the world around us in very simple ways. The next time you see a piece of trash on the street or in a park, as you are able, pick it up and place it in the nearest bin. Please only do this if the item of trash seems safe to pick up, and isn’t a biohazard or has sharp edges.

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Free MP3 Folder - July 2022

Downloads of all free files can be accessed on the Free MP3 Google Drive for patrons at the $1 level and above.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- Aurelia

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Student Materials Folder - July 2022

Downloads of all Student and free files can be accessed on the Student Google Drive.

If you are at the Extra Credit level, you may email the name of the extra credit file you desire to AureliaAlder@Gmail.com.

Thank you for your wonderful support!

- A...

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Open Connection

Open Connection
Free - 21:25 min

This file is about building a sense of inner wellbeing, safety, and connection.

Strong interpersonal connections, grounded in care and supporting individual and communal growth, are a deep part of our wellbeing. Building these types of connections starts within.

Everyone you meet, everyone you see. Most likely, their deepest, inner desire, is to be happy and healthy. To feel safe.

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