The last October

Warning, I'm getting pretty sad, but I also try to be kind of constructive and not just bathe in my tears. Skip ahead if you don't feel like listening to a whiny artist.

So, October has ended and if I can make a sort of statistic with last year, it's not my month. Despite making more stuff I get noticed less.

I can imagine two reasons:

• I have an actual decrease in quality for quantity, given by the necessity to post something almost every day. I look at the piece of last October, and I admit it was very messy with the colors. And even the last series about the merging orcs has some mistakes with the shadows that I've noticed much later. I have no patience with rendering, and adding hurry to impatience doesn't benefit me in the least.
• The field becomes too crowded. Artists that focus on commissions, school, work, patron-only content, just let it out for the month of werewolves and monsters. Maybe with a series of pieces that they spent the entire summer preparing, because sometimes their peak of productivity is suspicious. Especially considering they manage a level of rendering that I'm not even close to.

The last panel of the orc merging series did embarrassingly bad. I mean, I made 30-minutes doodles that did better, for all the reasons I've just listed. 

I will delete the series on Twitter, except the first panel, and then repost the other four as a thread to the first, just to avoid the embarrassment.

And from on, fuck October, it will be a month of chill and commissions and patron-only posts.

I will always remember to recheck every artwork the day after and correct the mistakes I can see with rested eyes.

Also I'm thinking about focusing more on small animations, like the ones you see on the lofi playlist on Youtube. Breathing, sipping coffee, talking, massaging the pecs after the bench press. You know that stuff.

For sure twitter doesn't try to dumbly crop gifs.