hello! general update!

hey there! i'm very very sorry about the silence for the past couple weeks, i suddenly had a really bad mental relapse that was brought on by nothing really, which left me unable to work for a little while.. i absolutely don't want to make a habit of not making sunday updates, i just felt too ashamed to say much, because i was doing so poorly after things were going so well during the weeks prior. it's very frustrating and discouraging to keep ending up in this place where i'm not sure what to do next, but i'm going to do my best to remain calm and not switch lanes so frantically!

what's on my mind right now: paper animation! i wanted to give it another honest shot after nearly 3 years of not doing it. now that i have the knowledge and experience from the last time i tried it, i can make the process significantly easier on myself with a better setup!

i'm thinking about paper animation again because i feel i'm in a similar spot to where i was the last time i started doing paper animation back in 2022: the feeling of drawing on my art tablet just really hasn't felt good in a long time, largely due to the slight disconnect that comes with drawing digitally (even with a monitor drawing tablet like mine!). there's less hand control, and the texture just isn't there at all..

i think part of my big problem with "sticking to something" is that i keep very suddenly changing projects, where the failure in the end is foreshadowed by how impulsively i started that new project. unfortunately, that Rain World animation may be one of those projects, because it was started on a complete whim and focused on a hyperfixation i don't really have anymore at this point in time.. i have some plans at the moment, but i'll keep them to myself until something concrete comes out of it! as always i'm extremely thankful for the patience!!