big serious update, please read!!!
Added 2021-03-22 14:03:01 +0000 UTCso, this morning has been pretty interesting! more specifically, i just ran away from an emotionally abusive home. i realize this is a good bit more personal, but it's something i need to share because it's something that's had a huge impact on my work. i'll talk publicly in the future about what that abuse even was, but for now i want to talk about really what that means when it comes to my animation!
over the years really my mental health has been on a steady decline, where i've realized i'm pretty sure i have a handful of undiagnosed mental health problems that i haven't been able to get any help with because the one person who could really do that (my mom) is a narcissistic, antagonizing person who would punish me whenever symptoms showed. i just got continually more demotivated and depressed while my workflow slowed and i got into the habit of cutting corners just to get anything done on a regular basis. it was hard to really be motivated when all of my foreseeable future involved being stuck with my life controlled by a bad person. but all that changes NOW!!!
me and my significant other spent a month coordinating a move far away from my parents, where i just left this morning. i am currently safe staying a hotel for a few days until i can take a flight to meet up with my SO. with her and her family's help, i'm going to be getting an apartment of my own where she'd eventually be able to move in too! with this, id be able to take so many measures to improve my mental health greatly! my productivity and overall health while working on animation would increase a lot.. something i feel is very important to say though is that i may not be able to animate for a handful of weeks. currently, my computer is disassembled and likely won't be for a bit while i'm traveling, and my laptop is not capable of reliably running the animation software i use.
even with the struggle i've had to face under my mom, i still very seriously love animation, im so happy and grateful that all of you have been kind enough to make this a sustainable living amidst a time where it seemed original animation on youtube was a real struggle. i am only 18 years old, i still have a lot to learn and a lot to experience both in animation and life. i really can't understate how thankful i am for your support, it's what makes this entire move possible, i want to pay that back by making some really cool stuff this year!!!! so thank you!!!!!!!!!
Comments
cant believe i just saw this, im so unbelievably proud of you and happy for you and your SO. I had to make a similar decision in my life and it was a drastic improvement. I wish you both nothing but the best and I hope this transition in life is as painless and smooth as possible.
Zakumei
2021-05-31 03:18:24 +0000 UTCYou're a hero for making it through that struggle, and your story gives hope to everyone else who is in a similar struggle.
2021-04-15 21:03:09 +0000 UTCTo be able to produce the amazing things that you do even through all of that shows your remarkable strength of character! You are amazing, never forget that. <3
2021-04-05 03:38:30 +0000 UTChaven't heard back in nearly a week, are you alright? i'm not worried about animations, more worried if you're good or not. seriously, did you make out to your SO's place?
512px
2021-03-28 05:14:58 +0000 UTCstay safe bro, and make sure to unstatic yourself when u reassemble your computer, static can kill it!
2021-03-28 04:11:09 +0000 UTCwow, that sucks. sorry about your mother. that's awful. I'll increase my pledge for the sake of balance, as I was never abused. I don't understand what that's like, I just hope you'll be okay, okay?
Tak
2021-03-27 18:17:52 +0000 UTCYour animation is always worth the wait. Seriously, everything you make is something I love to re-watch over and over again. It always makes the music pleasantly stuck in my head in an addicting kinda way and I love it. It all has a bouncy happiness to it and I'm glad you're moving away to a better environment to have that kinda attitude in your life.
Some guy
2021-03-27 01:14:16 +0000 UTCgood luck with everything!
2021-03-26 05:35:33 +0000 UTCYou're a boss
Fernando Puig
2021-03-25 17:56:19 +0000 UTCTake your Time, we are here for you friend
Lucky The Corgi
2021-03-25 15:12:24 +0000 UTCI’m so happy you are out in a safer space now and thank you for letting us know. I’m sure its been said, but please don’t feel rushed or obligated to post any content out, we want you safe and comfortable when you’re all set! I wish the best for you and your SO and I am excited to see what you have for us soon 😊
2021-03-24 16:53:12 +0000 UTCi hope everything work out for you aimkid!
Vinnie
2021-03-24 16:21:03 +0000 UTCstay safe
teriyaki drinker
2021-03-24 13:00:45 +0000 UTCwe’ll eagerly await any animations of yours, no matter the wait
Apollo Penman
2021-03-24 02:40:52 +0000 UTCdude I’m so happy you’re gonna be in a much better place <3
Apollo Penman
2021-03-24 02:40:22 +0000 UTCstay safe we need you
Boahs Live
2021-03-23 20:32:49 +0000 UTCI'm glad you are safe and out of there. Don't worry about having to stop animating, your health and wellbeing take obvious precedence and we love you.
Dr Nowak
2021-03-23 20:06:26 +0000 UTCCongrats on getting out! Focus on your health, absolutely don't feel obligated to animate until you're at a good stable place. Hope it goes well! We'll be here :)
Res the Jackal
2021-03-23 20:02:03 +0000 UTCA good friend of mine is going through a similar situation. It takes a lot of guts to take the step you did, and you're making the right call. Take all the time you need to sort things out!!
2021-03-23 18:10:27 +0000 UTCI hope you didn't leave anything important back there before you left. I'm glad to hear you're getting to a better place!
Loop
2021-03-23 03:31:20 +0000 UTCIt's really great that you managed to get out of that abusive situation. I personally know what its like to want to escape that kind of household and knowing someone I admire was able to do it is incredibly inspiring. I wish the best of luck to you and your future works! Take all the time you need to get settled.
2021-03-23 02:05:34 +0000 UTCI'm really happy to hear you've been able to take such a big step! I went through a similar situation at age 16 and was able to escape thanks to a close friend and her family. Even if there may still be tough times ahead, getting away from toxic people is always the right choice. Stay strong and good luck with everything! Can't wait to see your future art. ❤️
Hamster
2021-03-22 23:51:19 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need to get situated.
cucuycharles
2021-03-22 22:27:41 +0000 UTCCongrats on making such a big move! I’m happy I can support you during this time, good luck with everything!
icirrius
2021-03-22 22:27:38 +0000 UTCGlad to hear you've gotten out of there. Take care of yourself! c:
Melco Driggs
2021-03-22 22:26:42 +0000 UTCOh my god. Well, I'm glad you're out of an abusive home, and that you've got a support network, namely your SO and their family. I hope you're still receiving our donations, because it would certainly make this huge transition more manageable.
Dan Big Challenges Silva
2021-03-22 21:32:08 +0000 UTCThat's a lot, I'm wishing you the best with moving your life forward!! It can be intimidating but taking the right steps is all we can do and you're very brave for doing something!!
Cloud Wilk
2021-03-22 21:18:55 +0000 UTCThat's amazing! I'm so glad we were able to help you make this positive changr in your life. Good luck with it all!
2021-03-22 20:59:29 +0000 UTCLess gooo, super proud of you, good luck❤️
2021-03-22 20:19:39 +0000 UTCIt’s absolutely horrible to hear you have been putting up with this abuse for so long! But it’s so good that you’re finally out of there ! You seem like you’ve got a plan which is always good :) hope your move goes awesome :)
2021-03-22 20:10:54 +0000 UTCBIG MOOD! living with antagonistic family members is THE worst! I hope your move goes well dude just take your time ^w^
Mecha Kaiju X
2021-03-22 19:24:56 +0000 UTCWishing you the absolute best! Don't worry at all about the animation, obviously health and safety come first
2021-03-22 19:10:31 +0000 UTCI'm so happy for you! 💖💖💖
LostMercury
2021-03-22 18:15:10 +0000 UTCi hope you well take your time you just had to make a life altering decision we can wait you shouldn’t have to though
V
2021-03-22 18:10:22 +0000 UTCGood on you, I hope you're new apartment is affordable.
Mitchell Monroe Kleiner
2021-03-22 17:08:48 +0000 UTCWishing you all the best!
Epos
2021-03-22 16:44:41 +0000 UTCYOU'RE AN ABSOLUTE STAR! you've got this!!! :D
spiceman2000
2021-03-22 16:22:00 +0000 UTCYOOOOOOO! That's spectacular!
2021-03-22 16:20:50 +0000 UTCI am glad that you are out of that situation, and coming from experience of going through a similar thing No matter what she says if you talk to her again, DO NOT GO ANYWHERE WITH HER unless you go in your own transportation, she can use that to wear you down enough that you will agree to go back, and do not see her alone, go with somebody you know can pull you out if she starts berating you
Heavenly Derp Fowl
2021-03-22 16:10:53 +0000 UTCThat's wonderful news and I'm so happy! Take all the time you need to take care of yourself. Your awesome creations are absolutely worth the wait, especially if it means you being happy in the end!
CalmWeaver27
2021-03-22 15:50:58 +0000 UTCGood luck!!! Thank you for such amazing entertainment!
2021-03-22 15:43:11 +0000 UTCGood to see that you've made a important decision in your life. I've been there once and it has been a hard but also one of my best part of my life. Hope your journey be safe and enlighten you! Remember that we are rooting for you <3
2021-03-22 15:39:55 +0000 UTCI’m so sorry you had to go through all of that, I have a similar situation with my own mom so I know how awful it can be. I sincerely hope everything goes well!! I’m so happy an relieved to know that you’ve gotten to a point where getting to a safer environment is possible! You deserve to live comfortably without the presence of someone negatively impacting your life, take care man and good luck!!<3 sending you and your partner lots of well wishes for the move!!
2021-03-22 15:20:41 +0000 UTCGood luck and I'm so glad you were able to escape your previous situation! I wish you and your SO the best of luck with your new living situation, I'll be upping my pledge to help out!
Microwbird
2021-03-22 15:17:58 +0000 UTCGood luck out there fam. :)
2021-03-22 15:15:28 +0000 UTCI can honestly say that you are one of my favorite independent animators out there, your style and fluid animations have always appealed to me and I'm certain they'll continue to do so. While I can't say that I know what it's like to live in an abusive household, I CAN relate to having it difficult mentally. I just want to say that you are so strong for having pursued your passion despite the difficult circumstances and for taking this huge step towards a better life. I wish you the best of luck and will be looking forward to seeing more of your work once you're able to get back to it.
PassTheSalad
2021-03-22 15:13:26 +0000 UTCGood luck and hope your new beginnings bring you a lot of joy and inspiration :D
Wing Dancer
2021-03-22 15:10:31 +0000 UTCHappy to hear about this development and any delays are completely understandable. Focus on yourself for now, but if you do need a more mobile animation rig I have a couple of relatively powerful unused laptops I'd be happy to loan out indefinitely.
Tony Wilkey
2021-03-22 15:02:04 +0000 UTCCongrats on making it out! Don't push yourself to rush something out, your well-being comes first <3
FestivalGrey
2021-03-22 15:01:54 +0000 UTCGlad your leaving a toxic family and pursuing what you love 💙
Rosco Chubz
2021-03-22 14:53:49 +0000 UTCKeep us updated on the progress towards your new life. A better one!
se05239
2021-03-22 14:47:21 +0000 UTCGood luck dude! Will be supporting ya every step of the way! :D
Scarletmenace
2021-03-22 14:46:44 +0000 UTCPlease understand that while we do pay you, you owe us jack shit. Please take the time to get yourself situated and find a job first before going to any animation ideas.
DancingOni
2021-03-22 14:44:07 +0000 UTCI hope everything goes well for you, take your time getting steady in your new situation
Raan
2021-03-22 14:35:35 +0000 UTCI never knew you had that kind of struggle I’m glad that I supported you’re great content and happy to know that we are helping you as well we are proud of you taking a big step of your life the road will be ruff for a while but it will get easier in time so please take care yourself and we are looking forward more of your work.
Done_Damage
2021-03-22 14:30:19 +0000 UTCWe are behind you 100% and hope things get easier with time! More thab happy to support you through good times and bad~
Nividust
2021-03-22 14:22:55 +0000 UTCWe’ll be here for you! I’m glad I can keep on supporting you! 💖
Milachu
2021-03-22 14:22:00 +0000 UTCjust glad you made it out safe! don't worry about not animating, your literal life is way more important than that. hope everything works out.
512px
2021-03-22 14:21:56 +0000 UTCHECC YEAH, this is good to hear!!! I hope you find happiness!! Take care of yourself, Aimkid!!! <3 <3 <3
TitaniumRaven
2021-03-22 14:21:55 +0000 UTCWhoa! Glad youre bailing out from there. Take good care of each other and best of wishes!
2021-03-22 14:21:32 +0000 UTCPlease stay safe. You are an inspiration to us all.
2021-03-22 14:21:19 +0000 UTCThat sounds like an awful situation to live in, and I'm so glad you were able to build a plan and get out of there!! You are more important than getting us all an animation quickly. Treat yourself good during this break! Best wishes :)
2021-03-22 14:19:36 +0000 UTCGood luck to you also
Tim 🦆
2021-03-22 14:19:24 +0000 UTCStay safe, I’m really happy that things are looking better for you!!!
gromitismydog
2021-03-22 14:19:22 +0000 UTCGood luck to you as well
Tim 🦆
2021-03-22 14:18:44 +0000 UTCIm sure all of your fans are happy you're doing great. Also, I don't think you should worry about venting or sharing anything with your fans also because I mean we kinda pay you money and watch your videos because we like the stuff you do and think you're a cool person. So it's great to know what you are doing and what we should expect from you since, well both sides should enjoy the animations that come out.
Engoneer
2021-03-22 14:16:30 +0000 UTCstay safe and i hope that your ok
2021-03-22 14:11:57 +0000 UTCholy shit hopefully you work things out you did something I've been wanting to do for months now I wish you luck in this plus your animations are the best I've seen in a while so never stop!!
2021-03-22 14:10:50 +0000 UTCSo glad youre able to move past that roadblock and onto bigger and better things with people who care about you. Ill be doubling my contribution for the forseeable future - hope that helps.
2021-03-22 14:10:48 +0000 UTCHoly wow! Great job! That’s incredibly impressive.
Colds
2021-03-22 14:10:39 +0000 UTCGo show life what your made off, and take the time you need to get yourself a good rest and help for your state. We'll all be here to support,I know I will!
2021-03-22 14:10:22 +0000 UTCI'm really glad to hear things are looking up! I hope everything goes smoothly!
2021-03-22 14:10:15 +0000 UTCAbsolutely fantastic to hear you’re getting yourself outta there! I send my hope and love to you, your S/O, and her family!
CreatureUnknown
2021-03-22 14:09:33 +0000 UTCThat you've made so much amazing stuff while in an abusive home gives me hope for when I eventually work up the means and courage to step away myself. Best of luck!!!!
Gahblaghle
2021-03-22 14:09:08 +0000 UTCHope the move goes smoothly! <3
Bad bad randy
2021-03-22 14:08:57 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry to hear about your home situation, and I'm glad to hear that you've gotten out. Best of luck to you and your SO <3
Tim 🦆
2021-03-22 14:08:56 +0000 UTCI know that you will thrive with therapy and psychiatric help. The future is brighter and you will be able to heal from the wounds. It is a long and grueling process, but you are away from the abuse and you can begin to heal and take care of yourself.
2021-03-22 14:07:46 +0000 UTCyou are the fuckin bomb bro stay vibin, so glad you were able to leave that situation!!
2021-03-22 14:07:16 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself! I'm so happy you're not under that roof anymore! I've had my own dealings with abusive parents and I have multiple close friends who have as well.
Cognitive-Glitch
2021-03-22 14:07:15 +0000 UTCwishing you the best. take as much time as you need to get yourself back on track!
Ruby
2021-03-22 14:07:15 +0000 UTCGood on ya! Stay safe and healthy
2021-03-22 14:07:11 +0000 UTCIt gets better. Glad to see you making the healthy choice -hugs-
2021-03-22 14:06:49 +0000 UTCHope everything goes well
Anthony Briggs
2021-03-22 14:06:24 +0000 UTCStay Safe and Best of luck to you!
Pelendones
2021-03-22 14:06:23 +0000 UTCYou’re a genuine inspiration, best of luck!! You can count on our support all the way!
Mr Meander
2021-03-22 14:06:02 +0000 UTCwe love you, stay safe!!
tim_flower
2021-03-22 14:05:13 +0000 UTCBest wishes.
ghrimeDyse
2021-03-22 14:04:58 +0000 UTCI seriously wish the best for you. You have a lot to give to the world and just know that you have a huge amount of support from everyone who has been inspired by your art. This is the first day of the rest of your life and you will be able to express who you truly are without the fears of tyranny of your family and those who put you down with bigotry. Please don’t ever underestimate or downplay the amount of courage and bravery it took to do this. I mean it when I say you are an inspiration for more than just your art.
2021-03-22 14:04:57 +0000 UTCBest of luck! 💖
2021-03-22 14:04:52 +0000 UTCGood luck to ya Aim! Hope stuff works out for you!
William Kennard
2021-03-22 14:04:45 +0000 UTCStay safe!
maedotmkv
2021-03-22 14:04:31 +0000 UTC