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big serious update, please read!!!

so, this morning has been pretty interesting! more specifically, i just ran away from an emotionally abusive home. i realize this is a good bit more personal, but it's something i need to share because it's something that's had a huge impact on my work. i'll talk publicly in the future about what that abuse even was, but for now i want to talk about really what that means when it comes to my animation!

over the years really my mental health has been on a steady decline, where i've realized i'm pretty sure i have a handful of undiagnosed mental health problems that i haven't been able to get any help with because the one person who could really do that (my mom) is a narcissistic, antagonizing person who would punish me whenever symptoms showed. i just got continually more demotivated and depressed while my workflow slowed and i got into the habit of cutting corners just to get anything done on a regular basis. it was hard to really be motivated when all of my foreseeable future involved being stuck with my life controlled by a bad person. but all that changes NOW!!!

me and my significant other spent a month coordinating a move far away from my parents, where i just left this morning. i am currently safe staying a hotel for a few days until i can take a flight to meet up with my SO. with her and her family's help, i'm going to be getting an apartment of my own where she'd eventually be able to move in too! with this, id be able to take so many measures to improve my mental health greatly! my productivity and overall health while working on animation would increase a lot.. something i feel is very important to say though is that i may not be able to animate for a handful of weeks. currently, my computer is disassembled and likely won't be for a bit while i'm traveling, and my laptop is not capable of reliably running the animation software i use.

even with the struggle i've had to face under my mom, i still very seriously love animation, im so happy and grateful that all of you have been kind enough to make this a sustainable living amidst a time where it seemed original animation on youtube was a real struggle. i am only 18 years old, i still have a lot to learn and a lot to experience both in animation and life. i really can't understate how thankful i am for your support, it's what makes this entire move possible, i want to pay that back by making some really cool stuff this year!!!! so thank you!!!!!!!!!

Comments

cant believe i just saw this, im so unbelievably proud of you and happy for you and your SO. I had to make a similar decision in my life and it was a drastic improvement. I wish you both nothing but the best and I hope this transition in life is as painless and smooth as possible.

Zakumei

You're a hero for making it through that struggle, and your story gives hope to everyone else who is in a similar struggle.

To be able to produce the amazing things that you do even through all of that shows your remarkable strength of character! You are amazing, never forget that. <3

haven't heard back in nearly a week, are you alright? i'm not worried about animations, more worried if you're good or not. seriously, did you make out to your SO's place?

512px

stay safe bro, and make sure to unstatic yourself when u reassemble your computer, static can kill it!

wow, that sucks. sorry about your mother. that's awful. I'll increase my pledge for the sake of balance, as I was never abused. I don't understand what that's like, I just hope you'll be okay, okay?

Tak

Your animation is always worth the wait. Seriously, everything you make is something I love to re-watch over and over again. It always makes the music pleasantly stuck in my head in an addicting kinda way and I love it. It all has a bouncy happiness to it and I'm glad you're moving away to a better environment to have that kinda attitude in your life.

Some guy

good luck with everything!

You're a boss

Fernando Puig

Take your Time, we are here for you friend

Lucky The Corgi

I’m so happy you are out in a safer space now and thank you for letting us know. I’m sure its been said, but please don’t feel rushed or obligated to post any content out, we want you safe and comfortable when you’re all set! I wish the best for you and your SO and I am excited to see what you have for us soon 😊

i hope everything work out for you aimkid!

Vinnie

stay safe

teriyaki drinker

we’ll eagerly await any animations of yours, no matter the wait

Apollo Penman

dude I’m so happy you’re gonna be in a much better place <3

Apollo Penman

stay safe we need you

Boahs Live

I'm glad you are safe and out of there. Don't worry about having to stop animating, your health and wellbeing take obvious precedence and we love you.

Dr Nowak

Congrats on getting out! Focus on your health, absolutely don't feel obligated to animate until you're at a good stable place. Hope it goes well! We'll be here :)

Res the Jackal

A good friend of mine is going through a similar situation. It takes a lot of guts to take the step you did, and you're making the right call. Take all the time you need to sort things out!!

I hope you didn't leave anything important back there before you left. I'm glad to hear you're getting to a better place!

Loop

It's really great that you managed to get out of that abusive situation. I personally know what its like to want to escape that kind of household and knowing someone I admire was able to do it is incredibly inspiring. I wish the best of luck to you and your future works! Take all the time you need to get settled.

I'm really happy to hear you've been able to take such a big step! I went through a similar situation at age 16 and was able to escape thanks to a close friend and her family. Even if there may still be tough times ahead, getting away from toxic people is always the right choice. Stay strong and good luck with everything! Can't wait to see your future art. ❤️

Hamster

Take all the time you need to get situated.

cucuycharles

Congrats on making such a big move! I’m happy I can support you during this time, good luck with everything!

icirrius

Glad to hear you've gotten out of there. Take care of yourself! c:

Melco Driggs

Oh my god. Well, I'm glad you're out of an abusive home, and that you've got a support network, namely your SO and their family. I hope you're still receiving our donations, because it would certainly make this huge transition more manageable.

Dan Big Challenges Silva

That's a lot, I'm wishing you the best with moving your life forward!! It can be intimidating but taking the right steps is all we can do and you're very brave for doing something!!

Cloud Wilk

That's amazing! I'm so glad we were able to help you make this positive changr in your life. Good luck with it all!

Less gooo, super proud of you, good luck❤️

It’s absolutely horrible to hear you have been putting up with this abuse for so long! But it’s so good that you’re finally out of there ! You seem like you’ve got a plan which is always good :) hope your move goes awesome :)

BIG MOOD! living with antagonistic family members is THE worst! I hope your move goes well dude just take your time ^w^

Mecha Kaiju X

Wishing you the absolute best! Don't worry at all about the animation, obviously health and safety come first

I'm so happy for you! 💖💖💖

LostMercury

i hope you well take your time you just had to make a life altering decision we can wait you shouldn’t have to though

V

Good on you, I hope you're new apartment is affordable.

Mitchell Monroe Kleiner

Wishing you all the best!

Epos

YOU'RE AN ABSOLUTE STAR! you've got this!!! :D

spiceman2000

YOOOOOOO! That's spectacular!

I am glad that you are out of that situation, and coming from experience of going through a similar thing No matter what she says if you talk to her again, DO NOT GO ANYWHERE WITH HER unless you go in your own transportation, she can use that to wear you down enough that you will agree to go back, and do not see her alone, go with somebody you know can pull you out if she starts berating you

Heavenly Derp Fowl

That's wonderful news and I'm so happy! Take all the time you need to take care of yourself. Your awesome creations are absolutely worth the wait, especially if it means you being happy in the end!

CalmWeaver27

Good luck!!! Thank you for such amazing entertainment!

Good to see that you've made a important decision in your life. I've been there once and it has been a hard but also one of my best part of my life. Hope your journey be safe and enlighten you! Remember that we are rooting for you <3

I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that, I have a similar situation with my own mom so I know how awful it can be. I sincerely hope everything goes well!! I’m so happy an relieved to know that you’ve gotten to a point where getting to a safer environment is possible! You deserve to live comfortably without the presence of someone negatively impacting your life, take care man and good luck!!<3 sending you and your partner lots of well wishes for the move!!

Good luck and I'm so glad you were able to escape your previous situation! I wish you and your SO the best of luck with your new living situation, I'll be upping my pledge to help out!

Microwbird

Good luck out there fam. :)

I can honestly say that you are one of my favorite independent animators out there, your style and fluid animations have always appealed to me and I'm certain they'll continue to do so. While I can't say that I know what it's like to live in an abusive household, I CAN relate to having it difficult mentally. I just want to say that you are so strong for having pursued your passion despite the difficult circumstances and for taking this huge step towards a better life. I wish you the best of luck and will be looking forward to seeing more of your work once you're able to get back to it.

PassTheSalad

Good luck and hope your new beginnings bring you a lot of joy and inspiration :D

Wing Dancer

Happy to hear about this development and any delays are completely understandable. Focus on yourself for now, but if you do need a more mobile animation rig I have a couple of relatively powerful unused laptops I'd be happy to loan out indefinitely.

Tony Wilkey

Congrats on making it out! Don't push yourself to rush something out, your well-being comes first <3

FestivalGrey

Glad your leaving a toxic family and pursuing what you love 💙

Rosco Chubz

Keep us updated on the progress towards your new life. A better one!

se05239

Good luck dude! Will be supporting ya every step of the way! :D

Scarletmenace

Please understand that while we do pay you, you owe us jack shit. Please take the time to get yourself situated and find a job first before going to any animation ideas.

DancingOni

I hope everything goes well for you, take your time getting steady in your new situation

Raan

I never knew you had that kind of struggle I’m glad that I supported you’re great content and happy to know that we are helping you as well we are proud of you taking a big step of your life the road will be ruff for a while but it will get easier in time so please take care yourself and we are looking forward more of your work.

Done_Damage

We are behind you 100% and hope things get easier with time! More thab happy to support you through good times and bad~

Nividust

We’ll be here for you! I’m glad I can keep on supporting you! 💖

Milachu

just glad you made it out safe! don't worry about not animating, your literal life is way more important than that. hope everything works out.

512px

HECC YEAH, this is good to hear!!! I hope you find happiness!! Take care of yourself, Aimkid!!! <3 <3 <3

TitaniumRaven

Whoa! Glad youre bailing out from there. Take good care of each other and best of wishes!

Please stay safe. You are an inspiration to us all.

That sounds like an awful situation to live in, and I'm so glad you were able to build a plan and get out of there!! You are more important than getting us all an animation quickly. Treat yourself good during this break! Best wishes :)

Good luck to you also

Tim 🦆

Stay safe, I’m really happy that things are looking better for you!!!

gromitismydog

Good luck to you as well

Tim 🦆

Im sure all of your fans are happy you're doing great. Also, I don't think you should worry about venting or sharing anything with your fans also because I mean we kinda pay you money and watch your videos because we like the stuff you do and think you're a cool person. So it's great to know what you are doing and what we should expect from you since, well both sides should enjoy the animations that come out.

Engoneer

stay safe and i hope that your ok

holy shit hopefully you work things out you did something I've been wanting to do for months now I wish you luck in this plus your animations are the best I've seen in a while so never stop!!

So glad youre able to move past that roadblock and onto bigger and better things with people who care about you. Ill be doubling my contribution for the forseeable future - hope that helps.

Holy wow! Great job! That’s incredibly impressive.

Colds

Go show life what your made off, and take the time you need to get yourself a good rest and help for your state. We'll all be here to support,I know I will!

I'm really glad to hear things are looking up! I hope everything goes smoothly!

Absolutely fantastic to hear you’re getting yourself outta there! I send my hope and love to you, your S/O, and her family!

CreatureUnknown

That you've made so much amazing stuff while in an abusive home gives me hope for when I eventually work up the means and courage to step away myself. Best of luck!!!!

Gahblaghle

Hope the move goes smoothly! <3

Bad bad randy

I'm so sorry to hear about your home situation, and I'm glad to hear that you've gotten out. Best of luck to you and your SO <3

Tim 🦆

I know that you will thrive with therapy and psychiatric help. The future is brighter and you will be able to heal from the wounds. It is a long and grueling process, but you are away from the abuse and you can begin to heal and take care of yourself.

you are the fuckin bomb bro stay vibin, so glad you were able to leave that situation!!

Take care of yourself! I'm so happy you're not under that roof anymore! I've had my own dealings with abusive parents and I have multiple close friends who have as well.

Cognitive-Glitch

wishing you the best. take as much time as you need to get yourself back on track!

Ruby

Good on ya! Stay safe and healthy

It gets better. Glad to see you making the healthy choice -hugs-

Hope everything goes well

Anthony Briggs

Stay Safe and Best of luck to you!

Pelendones

You’re a genuine inspiration, best of luck!! You can count on our support all the way!

Mr Meander

we love you, stay safe!!

tim_flower

Best wishes.

ghrimeDyse

I seriously wish the best for you. You have a lot to give to the world and just know that you have a huge amount of support from everyone who has been inspired by your art. This is the first day of the rest of your life and you will be able to express who you truly are without the fears of tyranny of your family and those who put you down with bigotry. Please don’t ever underestimate or downplay the amount of courage and bravery it took to do this. I mean it when I say you are an inspiration for more than just your art.

Best of luck! 💖

Good luck to ya Aim! Hope stuff works out for you!

William Kennard

Stay safe!

maedotmkv

good to hear you've gotten yourself out of that situation, wish the best for you

We are here for you all the way!

love u, stay safe 💖💖


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