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the visage . . . ( early access )

text reads:

"as I edged my way forward across the ice, I could feel it growing thinner with each sliding step—

I do not know how I could notice such a visage so suddenly but abruptly I became aware of Her gazing up vacantly through the black brown waters between us 

 the immense figure's expression filled with the soft fading of a drowned victim just as their final breath has been spent 

her eyes were unfocused and dull but somehow I could feel  Her attention on me, waiting for the moment my foot triggered a weak spot in the ice and 

I would be plunged back down to  Her once again."



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Is this a creepy drawing that's about depression?
Maybe!! :D


I did this drawing earlier today to the point of the left version here and it's not a bad drawing or anything but it was feeling more ethereal than unsettling, so went back now and threw more shadows and refined it to a level of spooky that was to my satisfaction:

Sometimes the process really is "draw a circle, now draw the rest of the creepy giant lady trapped in a frozen lake" 

the visage . . . ( early access )

Comments

I tend to use a lot of various similes to explain my conditions to myself and other people... I was thinking about the ice and falling through the other day, and I think I was able to look at my depressive periods from that pov now because I've even been able to be up on a layer of ice, instead of just in the depths all the time. The more I can recover and be confident in my good days, the thicker the ice gets, but I know that it will never be 100% solid and that's just something that is part of my life

I actually almost tossed that first version because it just wasn't what I'd had in my head... I'm glad I was able to shine it up to a point that I was happy with it!

Damn.....I love the series of pictures as each one grows darker. I want this animated!

Haunting, and very, very apt. Love it.

I'm going to start picturing my depression like this instead of as a Dementor. Thanks ☺️


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