doppel . . . ( studies )
Added 2020-12-10 21:56:10 +0000 UTCWas just going through some older-ish personal photos and went down a weird, couldn't-really-recognize-myself-for-multiple-years rabbit hole??
Pretty much from 24 going on 25 to like 28, I have this really intense feeling of disconnect from that version of myself, even though I know logically it was "me". More than just different (much more processed) hair or glasses or, to a degree, even weight gain... I know this was around the time that I was really starting to get hit with my chronic condition(s) without any really clear path to treatment and I had totally no control over my personal vs work life. My brain was hurting and my body quickly changed from a version of myself that I knew and was comfortable with to someone that seemed to be an entirely different person, no matter what coats of paint I tried applying with tattoos or hair colour or fashion.
This isn't to say that I regret those aesthetic decisions and I feel very lucky to be able to say that of my current 10 tats, there's only 1 that I ended up growing kinda "meh" on! I think the version of myself from that time had some cool clothes and hair and accomplishments. It just... doesn't feel like the current me or the me that I was before, like she was an intermission Jenn.
I dunno!! Just weird internal dialogue stuff I guess, hope y'all are having a chill Thursday♥
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well clearly *I* couldn't possibly be the evil iteration :3c
2020-12-12 16:47:50 +0000 UTCIt's a work in progress but at least it's progress!
2020-12-12 16:47:22 +0000 UTCThanks for sharing. I'm glad you seem to be in a better place 💙
2020-12-11 20:20:31 +0000 UTCThanks for being so upfront and honest. Which was the evil twin though?
Glenn Matchett
2020-12-11 10:23:11 +0000 UTC
