🎨 celebrating my 3 YEAR cake day on Reddit with some succubus cake! 🎂

thank you for being here. thank you for every single listen, every upvote, every comment. thank you for supporting me when I'm struggling and being patient when real life throws me for a loop. thank you, most of all, for allowing me to move out so my kid and I can LIVE ON OUR OWN and be free from a negative family environment ❤️

the past several years have been a lot. I started recording audios just for fun as a new mom stuck at home during the pandemic. you've been with me as I've learned, explored my creativity, and kept trying new things to see where this goes. lots of you are long-term listeners: you've known me when my dad died unexpectedly, almost 4 years ago now. you've known me previously as u/x_lia, before I decided on a more professional brand name after having my account hacked and deleted 3 years ago. I'm so, so glad I didn't lose my motivation then and decided to keep pursing something I love. you've known me throughout the process of being in school part time, making audios part time, and also being a mom (which is a full time job in itself!) and no matter how little or how much you've interacted with me, I care. I do this for the kind comments and messages about how a scenario made you feel safe or comfortable to explore something. I do this for the thrill that it gives me knowing people listen to my voice and enjoy it in that way. I do this for the sheer fun of coming up with absolutely silly porny ideas and being able to actually make them come true! can't believe I've had this account for 3 years now, wtf.

also, this lovely art is by FiF_228 🎨

let me get a bit more sappy and sentimental here. I rarely do this, so I guess I'm just gonna let it all out here on this anniversary!

your support allows me to:

- provide for myself and my kid. that's the biggest thing for me. I'm just trying to survive, and it's been rough for the past year, but I'm working my ass off behind the scenes trying to make things more stable so we can truly enjoy life. this job provides a schedule that works for us; as a single mom with my level of experience and education I would probably be making so little per hour at a "normal" job that I couldn't pay childcare expenses to be able to work! and honestly, after pushing myself a little more and hitting new goals on Patreon, I can't wait to be able to afford some stuff to improve my life beyond the minimum I've been living. decorating my house a bit more, getting lots of new books and toys for the lil one, going on more weekend trips to parks and museums, buying myself a cute dress or something, idk! going to get massages regularly and going to the gym to help my chronic pain?! that would be cool!

- keep making audios, and pushing my creativity to come up with fun ideas, write them, and experiment with editing! I know a lot of people are here (at least on Reddit!) for the free stuff and I totally get it– but with the way things worked out, those who support me financially right now are the reason I CAN continue to create. otherwise, I wouldn't have the time or energy to keep putting out new audios this often + improving my skills. I probably would have stopped a long time ago with the stress of trying to finish college, but I ended up focusing more on this than school lol. it usually takes hours from the first idea to recording, editing, deciding on titles and making teasers, to putting out a final audio! being able to make a living from something I enjoy doing, and (hopefully soon) getting to the point where I can actually live comfortably from it will be huge in terms of taking some stress off!

- figure out where I want to focus my energy as a creator: I branched into visual content at the end of 2023, which has been taxing in its own way– my Fansly is still active but I'm just taking a break and posting audios there. I haven't taken a single picture of my body in weeks and it's a really nice feeling, to be honest. when I first started, it was out of necessity and I worked to get comfortable with showing so much of myself, but as a perfectionist it seemed like nothing was ever the way I wanted it. one thing about me is that I only want to release content I think is good, and I kept pressuring myself to just post as much as I could because I needed to make money to survive. but it wasn't easy and naturally, I was so extremely burnt out with trying and trying, feeling like I was getting nowhere. it wasn't worth working myself so hard for the relatively small amount of money made, especially with how it took away from my time to create audios. once I can figure out my goals as a "content creator" I'll post something more definitive, but this break is a long-awaited one. don't worry, this definitely isn't a goodbye on that note and all of my content is still up!

- find who I am as a person. okay let's backtrack, I KNOW who I am ultimately but there's a lot of growth done from the ages of like 18-mid 20s and I'm right there in it, figuring out what life is AND doing that while being a single parent! I want to go to therapy again, heal from PTSD after my dad's death, learn how to be the best mom I can be, spend more time with my friends, do fun things on a regular basis... and I'm working to get there. I know I can get there!

uhhh maybe I got too deep and yapped too much, anyway thank you so much for being here!! as mentioned above, chronic pain is a Thing I'm dealing with right now so I'm going to snuggle up in bed with my heating pad and pass out 🥰