How I'm actually feeling
Added 2016-12-03 08:59:10 +0000 UTCWell, that's really the worst year in my life.
I think I'll leave McD next year and art will be my main job.
My dad still feels bad I it's awfully to realize the next year is his last one.
Me and my bf are in complicated relationships now. We're together for more than 5 years already.
Well, to explain this situation I should say in Russia it's okay for woman to marry for 20-25 years, so seeing these weddings of friends and uni mates around I felt.... not happy from month to month.
So two days ago I asked him will he ever think to marry me.
And finally I got the large hole in my heart. By brain (man's logic) I understand wedding change actually nothing in relationships, but it's so painful to hear he doesn't want to, and if I want, I just can wear (carry?) the ring and say I have a husband if someone asks.
Mostly it's only because of envy.
We live together, but I really don't want to talk with him anymore. Seems like 5 years collapse with this ring. I don't see the way out for now. He's still close person for me.
