Eek! A Spider!

Today was an uneventful day in all honesty. I really just thought to play Hearts of Iron while the military government runs everything else but once I finished, someone pressed a cloth of chloroform to my mouth. When I woke up, there was a spider! In actuality I’m not scared of spiders but it did surprise me. Unfortunately my struggles knocked the poor critter over. I hope it’s alright. Oh and help me too please.

Where the fuck do I begin? I’ve been home in Australia for two weeks and I’ve only just started getting the motivation to do more content because I’ve been through a huge melancholic depression from the shock of leaving my boyfriend behind which combined with A LOT OF THINGS wasn’t good for my mental health. Among things that happened include issues with getting my medication for my ADHD, my car breaking down, Meta censoring what I have to say about the Republican Party and Israel while allowing anti-LGBTQ+ and anti-Palestinian content to remain rampant, pretty much getting pushed out of a community I was once involved in…again, sexual harassment, a toxic workspace and several episodes of gender dysphoria. I actually was quite suicidal and just shut down sometimes even saying things I wish I didn’t. However things are starting to get back to normal but I don’t like living in Australia TBH. I’m telling you, rest of the world, this country is overrated. Don’t live here.

On a lighter note, that spider plushie was what I got from a museum in the Netherlands where I also had an actual spider in my bare hands. I’m pretty sure most people on the planet are scared of spiders but not me (although they can make me jump occasionally). I actually like spiders so much, I don’t even kill them in the house or put them outside (WHICH ACTUALLY KILLS THEM BTW!). Just a live and let live mentality as an animal lover.

Eeeee-MMMMMPH!!!!