Heather, My New Sona Takes Form!
Added 2024-12-03 06:27:12 +0000 UTCOver the last few years my life has changed so much, and I've learned so many new things about myself and even how to love myself. I finally got to start HRT for real, I got a new name, I started dyeing my hair and presenting femininely in public, I've come to terms with my CPTSD and DID and have finally begun a journey of healing and self acceptance that I never knew I needed.
All this to say I'm just not Jordie anymore, figuratively and literally. I go by Heather now and I'm so happy to have a name I picked for myself, one that holds so much weight for me.
All that to say it's been a very long time coming and I am happy to say I have a new sona that isn't a reflection of what I thought others wanted from me, but a reflection of myself. A perhaps generous one in some ways but also an honest one.
Finally after a lot of time and tweaking Heather (the rat) and Heather (the artist) are in synch. I put so much thought, time and vulnerability into this. I'm putting myself out there for the first time without some dissociative caricature of myself to shield me.
Jordie (the character) will still be around, she's a reflection of an older more self conscious me and like the rings on a tree I like that I can see how much I've grown. I kinda like the idea of getting to take care of my younger, dumber, and self destructive self, but she ain't me no more.
Sorry for the rambling, I just... want everyone to know how important this was for me. Life is too short and the world too cruel to live as anyone but yourself, do what makes you happy and do no harm.
I love you
