++ Update ++ 04.11.2021 ++ I have a device where I have the possibility to generate a desired scenario, and at the push of a button I get into a kind of sleep and actually experience this scenario in my mind. But it doesn't feel like a dream. For the moment, where I am in this scenario, everything feels like it's really happening to me. At this moment, I don't know, that I'm using this device. I have real feelings, real pain, real fear...I guess everybody knows what I mean ;) Well...I know a girl at work who I find insanely pretty. I always have been imagining how it would be to be beaten up by her in a fight. But not only beaten just a little. I want to get violently beaten to death. But somehow I was always afraid to go that far with this device. I used it several times to fullyfill some soft fantasies of mine. But I never dared to to live through such an extreme fantasy. One night (I drank some alcohol and I was very turned on) I had this Beatdown Fantasy with her again. In my excitement I created that scenario on this device. I was like in a trance and had no inhibitions to make the scenario as violent as possible. Then i sat there, staring at the start button, hesitating for a moment. But then i said to myself, screw it, and pressed it. And thats where the story begins :D