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Added 2024-10-29 17:12:02 +0000 UTCHey hey!! I am almost finished with the rough draft of my book!! Hooray! But I still need some more stories from you :) I am looking for your experience with feeling stuck in therapy and in life. Like when we want to change we can feel scared to do it, worried about what it will look like, and if it's even worth it. Whatever you have gone through, and however you want to explain it. I am just hoping to capture the various reasons we can feel stuck, what that experience feels like, and how we get out (if you have been able to). Feel free to message them to me or put them below this post!! Thank you so much!!! xoox
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Hi Kati! New here but have been watching/listening to you on YouTube for a bit. I think sometimes I can feel stuck in therapy because I like my therapist so much, that getting better can mean moving on. Frankly, I’m afraid to move on from her. I need her! So I think I intentionally keep myself stuck so that I can continue sessions with her. Hopefully that doesn’t sound too oddball. She is just the only person who validates my feelings and is so completely empathetic. I need that right now.
It’s me
2024-11-18 13:31:59 +0000 UTCOkay. Thank you. I’m on mobile, but I’ll bust open the laptop.
Mama Llama Latte
2024-11-02 23:48:17 +0000 UTCThere should be a "Message" button in the upper right corner of the screen on this page https://www.patreon.com/c/katimorton/posts if you access it from a computer.
Shikisai.Rocket
2024-11-02 23:42:49 +0000 UTCHow do I message you privately with my story, Kati? I’m not sure if it’s the story you’re looking for.
Mama Llama Latte
2024-11-02 20:30:45 +0000 UTCThank you so much for sending this Jessica!! You're the best!! xoxo
Kati Morton
2024-10-31 20:03:28 +0000 UTCYes!!! That would be so helpful too!! xoxo
Kati Morton
2024-10-31 20:03:07 +0000 UTCI have felt stuck in therapy because *I* want to do the work, but my body isn't ready. Like two people holding hands: one person wants to go one direction, and the other pulls a different way. I've learned to be patient with 'all of me' and understand that progress will only be made when I am wholly ready to take another step. As much as it is slower than I anticipated, it is still forward momentum, and I hold onto that.
Jessica Q
2024-10-30 12:24:41 +0000 UTCCan my answer be only about feeling stuck in life? (I'm not currently in therapy, but am on a waiting list.)
Shikisai.Rocket
2024-10-30 05:12:32 +0000 UTCHey Kati! I can say that I have felt stuck in life for the past 21 years! If not more! I started therapy when I was 13 because that's when my high school (I was a freshman) cottoned on to the fact that I was having issues. But I've had them all my life, and at that time my stuffed down and controlled emotions started leaking out of my body in the form of cutting. But I never felt safe to disclose the real reason behind the issues. I knew what mandatory reporting was (I had since 4th grade) and I could not safely open that can of worms. I did not trust the adults to honestly protect me. And it took two decades of therapy to confront what the real problem was. I still don't want to confront it. I feel stuck in life because at this point, I just want to give up. I have read the books, I have tried the skills, I have sought the help, I have tried dozens of meds and different therapies (TMS, Spravato, trying to arrange ECT), but nothing works. Nothing helps. I am tired of the doctors, therapists, psychiatrists saying, "Don't give up! Don't lose hope! We can always try this or that!" I'm tired of trying. They are not living in my head or with my problems. I live with severely chronic suicidal thoughts so bad that they never leave my head. It is to the point that my plan is ready and waiting and the only single thing holding me back is the fact that if I wasn't here to care for my animals, they would be euthanized. They would not be adopted because of their age, their medical needs, and the fact that they are a bonded pair. They do not deserve to live out the rest of their days scared and alone in a shelter. This is what I'm stuck with. Why continue trying when nothing in life has shown me it is worth continuing forward? Why go on with this pain when I see no light at the end of the tunnel? I have no family to depend on, they are the cause of my trauma actually. And I have no friends to reach out to. No one who would understand why this is too much. The couple people I have tried to reach out to have shot me down. Everywhere I look, there is just rejection. Why continue to try if that is all that is waiting? I know my therapist gets extremely frustrated with me and I feel like I'm just wasting her time. I can't bring myself out of this mood. I just feel stuck in therapy and stuck in life. I continue to try to make my therapist happy, but nothing drives me forward. If they had one where I lived, I would honestly consider a residential facility, but there are none in my state (maybe one, I think, but it is not known for being a good one, and the other ones are private and don't take my insurance). I don't feel as if the earth needs me. I feel stuck with nowhere to go. My therapist is amazing and patient with me. I've been in DBT IOP, regular IOP, PHP, and individual therapy. Meds don't react to my body (psych meds, pain meds, and anesthesia have no effect. Yes, I'm a redhead). I'm a walking medical anomaly. And I just don't know where to go from here, except not to exist. I have recently switched therapists. My new therapist ddoes specialize in BPD, Trauma and PTSD, and also is certified in EMDR. I have lost hope that anything will help. To me there is no use in getting hopeful, as it only leads to disappointment, in all of my experiences. But my DBT IOP therapists really want me to give it a try and I do not want them to be disappointed in me. So I will reserve judgement for now. Thank you for reading my story, Kati. I'm so sorry it is so long and that I rambled on and made no sense. I promise I tried my best to be as concise as possible. I do hope this helps you in some way. If not, I'm sorry I wasted your time. I do love your work. I am making my way through your book Traumatized now! Your videos help me to keep my head on straight and I admire the work you do to try and help those around you. As a fellow chronic people pleaser, I can relate to you so very much!! Keep up the awesome work, but definitely prioritize taking care of you!! You are too valuable to lose!! Sincerely, Bri
Brianna Elmore
2024-10-29 19:47:25 +0000 UTC
