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Added 2023-12-04 13:03:00 +0000 UTChave you ever cried so much you thought you might actually die? and then the next moment it has passed and life moves forward. wow… maybe we are students in learning how to hold it all, while simultaneously letting go. the letting go of form. wow. the body feels so good in this decision, so open, and i know it is what needs to be. how to hold immense bottomless grief simultaneously with the relief? how? how? it’s crazy balancing the moments of pleasure and pain. i can’t help thinking in the moments of immense pleasure “what goes up must come down” or guilt/shame regarding having a deeply pleasurable experience when not everyone is experiencing that … maybe it is learning to find spaciousness and bliss in both the ups and downs. learning to play the pain like music. maybe that is a life long lesson… anything i write in this time feels unfinished. that’s ok.
