~The Arcana: Julian Devorak X Listener SFW: Heart Tending~ {Patreon Exclusive}

What started off as a lovely walk with Julian turns into something much more unexpected, but not unwelcome.

Contains: Comfort, Confessions, Feelings

Who doesn't love a good old fashioned unexpected love confession? I definitely do, and love to try to make it happen in as many ways as I can lol. I just thought with this month's theme, with deer believed to be animals that represent love unconditional and appear to those who need some heart tending, that it would be a perfect subject! I hope that you all enjoy!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Julian: I think it is a lovely day for a walk, isn’t it? Getting out of the city? Especially the castle I can imagine…..I was never really fond of the place…….

But there should be a clearing just up ahead, if we wish to stop and take a moment, in fact….it should be right through these trees—

*gasp*

It’s……full of….deer……

*pause*

I scarcely want to move…..they usually frighten quite easily……perhaps if we were to—

*hushed and sharp* Wait!

*pause*

They’re not……running……

That is…..incredible…….

These deer must have had some sort of contact with humans……normally they would run as soon as they noticed us……

*pause*

One must admit that they are……beautiful creatures……something about them…..

There are many who believe that deer are spiritual guides ……

Please….be careful …..in case one does spook…..we don’t want an accidental stampede on our hands…..I think it might be best if we—

*soft exhale*

They’re…..letting you pet them?

*whispered*

By the gods……

*to himself*

Very special deer indeed……

*pause*

It is said that those who are visited by deer…..at least by multiples….or….multitudes….are heart sick…..deers are said to be incredibly intuitive….and…..know of matters of the heart……

Tenders of those whose hearts need it……

*huffs a laugh*

Despite the fact that I am a man of science….I am……..or was…..a friend of Asra……and….he spoke of many things like this……

*pause*

*sighs*

I have seen too many things in this world….especially as of late….to discredit anything that he has said to me……or anything else that I have picked up on my travels……

*pause*

They truly are quite friendly, aren’t they?

*sighs*

*softly*

If I am honest…..there are many things in my heart, that could be considered in need of tending……

*pause*

If I had the time I would tell you…..but I fear that it would take far more time than you would either have patience for…..or the day would end before I’d stop speaking…..

And believe it or not I think there are better things to be spending your precious time on……

*pause*

Please…..allow me this….for the time being……

*self deprecating laugh*

I do not wish to scare you off……at least not yet…….

*pause*

I know…..I know that you care for me….which is why you ask in the first place……

*long pause*

There is a sense of…..peace here isn’t there?

Something that is profoundly…..calm……

It allows the mind and the heart to clear……to…..ruminate on the things that truly matter……

*pause*

Asra spoke of another thing….involving deer……

*slow inhale and exhale*

They are a representation of…..a wish to give……….unconditional love……

*pause*

*hushed*

And to receive it…..

*pause*

I suppose…..the cat is out of the bag now…..or…..the deers are in the field….as it were…..

We have spoken and traded confessions of care to one another……but we have not……

*pause*

*hushed, almost broken*

I-I…..love you…..I’m…..in love with you……

*pause*

*almost rushed*

I did not bring you out here with the intent to say that……to confess the feelings that I have had in my heart for so long….

*pause*

I was content for a while to let them sit…..to keep them quiet……to relieve you of the knowledge of them and allow it to fester in my heart until they either leave or……they are no longer relevant…..

Yet….seeing these deer here……

*sighs through nose*

Well…I told you of the things I have seen in this world that I could not explain with science……

I believe this is one of them…..

The deer….I feel…..it was a sign……and if there is anything that I have learned in my life….is that you do not ignore a sign……

So…..there it is…….forgive me if I do not say it again….for it took nearly all of my strength to say it the first time……but know that even though it might not have been said with the power that reflects it’s magnitude……it is the truth…..

*short pause*

And please…..do not feel obligated to say anything back….I do not wish to put you on the spot…….know that whatever time we spend together it is spent in happiness…..even if I do not have a response from you now……

Even....if there never is a response…….

*pause*

There is a weight lifted from my shoulders…..having you know now……and I feel as though I can move forward…..however it is I am meant to do so…..

*pause*

*chuckles* Damn…..if I ever speak to Asra again…..I will have to tell him he was right……

*pause*

Do not worry…..I think....it is worth being wrong over……