~The Arcana: Julian Devorak X Listener NSFW: Wanted for You~ {Patreon Exclusive}

Julian called to meet you in the Garden, but you're not so sure as to why......

Contains: Comfort, Advice, Previously Established Relationships, Cuddling/Spooning, Soft Sex, Grinding, Gender Neutral Hand Job, Pet names (My Sunshine, My Love), Probably Butchered Russian 

I went into this with a completely different idea in mind, and then it just turned soft lol. I also was feeling a little bit like this script wasn't really all that good, but when I got out of the recording booth and now that it's edited, I really like it! Since I've gotten my new microphone which is so much more sensitive, I actually have the ability to have a range of my voice and a range of reactions, so I'm starting to try to implement these here and I feel like it's just going to make the quality of my audios better since I can actually have equipment that can capture a full range of human emotions without being too loud or too quiet or having an annoying buzzing noise in the background! Anyways, the audio: I also wanted to convey that there are things Julian knows about the listener's past (there's no game spoilers but it does pertain to things that happened in the game) that he just can't talk about and he agonizes over it, and while he does mention that he doesn't have the answers the listener seeks, that's about as far into detail he feels he can go about it. I really wanted to act out the warring sides of himself, where he loves the listener so much, but he can't fully divulge certain things for their safety, so I hope that comes across! As always I hope you enjoy and I'm sorry for the long author's note lol.



~Audio Transcript Below~

Julian: Thank you for meeting me here, мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}....I know it's not easy for you to take time out of your.......busy schedule.....especially to see me.......

Everything is......overwhelming I'm sure.....with how much....responsibility you've inherited in....well all of Vesuvia's goings on as it were.....

Overwhelmed....to put it mildly......

However I'm proud of you....I don't know how much weight that sentiment holds coming from me.......I simply want to tell you the truth......

*pause*

I.....I didn't ask you here because I.....wanted anything out of you......or......at least in the sense that you seem to think I have.....

I don't need your help or....you don't need to do anything......I know you've gotten used to being ordered to do things......

*pause*

Being 'asked' by someone in a position of power is usually considered an 'order'......

*sighs* I'm sorry.....this isn't.....what I wanted.....

*pause*

I just wanted to have a moment for you to relax......to.......take a break........

Vesuvia will not fall simply because you're human and took some time to rest your body and your mind........

Besides.....Nadia has you looking into and looking for me still correct? So you can either spin it as you technically are doing as she asked......or that nothing more can be done until I am placed in her custody.....which you've already assured me you aren't going to do......so you're at an impasse anyways......

*pause*

Of course I still trust you, мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}.......now come....sit......I imagine you've haven't had much time to even do that less alone relax today......

*shuffling*

There we are.......

*pause*

*chuckles softly* It sounds like you've been holding in that breath for a while......does it feel nice?

I'm glad........

*long pause*

Do you know what these flowers are called, мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}?

They are called Aster flowers.......

*hums* Yes.....they are beautiful.......

Have you ever heard of the story of how they came to be?

*pause*

A goddess saw that there weren't many stars in the sky and became so saddened that she started to weep. Those tears fell down from the heavens and when they hit the world, they became these flowers.......

I think quite a lot.....about how much you remind me of these flowers......

*pause*

Well......the fact that you.......came to Vesuvia right when you were needed.....almost as if the gods knew.....and sent you down......

*pause*

*chuckles softly* I figure there are worse things than being compared to a flower?

The determination with which you navigate the world.....the courage you seem to be able to muster out of nowhere......

The good faith that you inspire in others. When you're around......I feel as though everything is going to turn out alright......

*pause* And you're wanted for more than just.....you usefulness as well......

You are a genuine person.......there are not many of those in this world.....I can confidently say that I'm not one of them.......

I know beyond the....duties you have in the court of Vesuvia......you're feeling......lost....

Perhaps it's not a pervasive thought throughout your day.....however.....when you relax.....or when you lay your head down to sleep at night.......it's there....isn't it?

You've been running yourself ragged not only because you genuinely believe in what you're doing.......but so you don't have to think about the questions with which you have no answers.......

*pause*

I've been in the same boat that you have......chasing answers......overworking myself because I believed it was my duty......and avoiding moments of rest so I couldn't think about what a failure I am.......

That's why I wanted to take some time today to tell you that.......I'm sorry for the answers you don't have.......and I know that I am a....contributing factor to those sometimes.......and that I cannot give you some of the answers you seek.......

But mostly.....I wanted to tell you how.......wonderful you are.......simply as a person.......besides the fact that you seem to be the only person who can get things done in this rotten city......not for Nadia's lack of trying however......*chuckles*

And....while I cannot speak directly for her.......know that even if you weren't in the position that you are in her inner court.....in her inner circle......you, are still wanted........

*pause*

People like you.......not just because you're useful.......

I know that can be hard to believe.....but it's true.....

You are wise in ways that so many can never hope to be.....kind to a fault.......incredibly smart.......you just........

*chuckles* I suppose I might be biased, мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}........doesn't make what I say any less true.......

*pause*

Sometimes people need to hear that they're more than just the things they can accomplish........and that they don't need to be constantly doing things just to prove it........

They can take a moment to just breathe......

Can you do that for me, моя любовь (moya lyubov') {my love}? Take a moment to breathe?

*long pause*

*With a smile* See? I can practically see the world removing itself from your shoulders.......

*huffs softly* You're exhausted, aren't you?

*shuffling*

*breathes softly*

Let me take you home, мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}.......

*grunts softly*

*hushes* I've got you, моя любовь (moya lyubov') {my love}.......please allow me this?

*soft kiss* Thank you.....

*Fade Out*

*Fade In*

*hums* Yes, we're at your house in the village.....I wouldn't be able to take you back to the palace.......

It's alright......I'm sure you're more comfortable here........

Let's get you to bed.......

*shuffling*

There you are........

*chuckles* Oh I'm not going anywhere just yet.....you don't have to worry......just going to take my coat and my shoes off and your shoes off and I'll be right with you......

*shuffling*

Left foot?

*shuffling*

And now.....right foot?

*shuffling*

There we are......

Now scoot over, моя любовь (moya lyubov') {my love}......make room.......

*bed shuffling*

*deep sigh*

There we are.......does my chest make a nice pillow?

*chuckles* I'll take that sleepy response as 'yes'.....

*pause*

*soft kiss*

I missed you too, моя любовь (moya lyubov') {my love}..........

*pause*

I don't really know when we can see each other next.....no........

*hushes* I know....I'm not going anywhere for now......

*pause*

*clears throat* Ah--мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}........I don't think.....you're resting now and---

*hushes* Alright.......just a little......

*pause*

You're not forcing me.....I promise.......

*soft kiss* I promise.......there is not a moment when I'm not with you that I don't yearn for you in every aspect.....at least a little bit.....

*chuckles* You're just that irresistible to me......everything about you.....

*hums happily*

Here.....cuddle back against me.....I'm going to spoon you.....

*shuffles* There......how does that feel?

*hums softly* Good.....

*soft kiss*

Here.....let me?

*clothes shuffling*

*breathes out shakily* That's it моя любовь (moya lyubov') {my love}......that's it......

*moans softly*

It's alright.....you don't have to do a thing.....I'm perfectly content t-to.....to thrust against you.......

*soft moans and pants*

That's it......oh--feels......feels so nice......

*soft panting*

Slow.....gentle.....I want this to be.....a relaxed release......to be with you......to get your mind off of all of the things that plague it.......to help you relax........

I've got you......I'm not letting you go........

*panting and moaning*

You are magnificent......a wonder.......not a day--ah--goes by where I do not wonder over you.......that my being yearns to be in your presence.....but I know how important your duties are to you.......however--oh~--sometimes I want to remind you--like now--that you are more than your duties......and you have worth beyond them........

*panting*

*in a whisper* to me..... you're just like the Aster flowers.....it's almost as though the gods saw that you weren't here.....that the world needed to be graced by your presence....your light......and your love......and so they sent you here....and then they sent you tumbling into my life.......*chuckles through a moan* to meddle......but to also.....make it better.......make it so much better......

Oh~ моя любовь (moya lyubov') {my love}.....close.....I'm close.....

You do that to me.......always--*swallows*--always have.......

*panting and moaning*

*through soft panting* You are loved, you are wanted for you.......

Even though I believe you were sent for a reason......that reason is not why you're loved........

I love you because you're you.....not for any other reason......you are enough......fuck--you are enough!

*harsher moans crescendo*

Oh, come....come with me, мое солнышко (moye solnyshko) {my sunshine}......

*harsh panting moans*

*hitching moan* Ah~

*panting*

*panting subsides*

*soft kiss*

I meant what I said.......everything......and while I am not known to be a wise man......there is still some wisdom in me that I fully believe in........and it is that you are not simply your talents.....you abilities.....your duties......you are a person, full of wants, of loves.....of strengths, of weaknesses.....and none of them make you any less or any more worthy of love and of happiness yourself........

*hushed* I never want you to doubt that........

*pause*

Go to sleep  любовь (lyubov') {love}.....relax......Vesuvia will still be here when you wake up.......

*pause*

*exhales shakily* And I'll still be here........I promise......

Люблю тебя, мое солнышко (Lyublyu tebya, moye solnyshko) {Love you, my sunshine}

*soft kiss*