~Trevor Belmont X Listener SFW: Unconventional~ {Patreon Exclusive}

Trevor hasn't ever really celebrated Holidays like you, except maybe when he was a young child, but that doesn't mean that you can't try now

Contains: Unconventional Holiday Celebrations, Mild Angst, Comfort, Reflections

I may have completely just ignored canon here, but the idea that Trevor hasn't really genuinely celebrated a Holiday since he was a young child was an idea in my head that I couldn't really let go of, and I thought he was the perfect candidate to kind of play with the idea of unconventional Holidays, kind of like how we're all living through now. I know it's not too much of a lovely dovey or fluffy sweet audio, and more of a character study with Trevor, but hopefully y'all still like it!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Trevor: I know that being stuck here probably wasn't really your idea of celebrating a holiday, but.....unfortunately....that's the life of a hunter sometimes.....always out there, never really taking the time to celebrate things in a conventional way, because there are always more important things to do......things to hunt......people to save......

We can't even really leave here otherwise our cover will be blown....I.....miscalculated how much control this vampire would have over the city and well.....this is a part of it too that a lot of people who may glamorize it don't get.....a lot of it is waiting for the opportune moment......hurry up and wait....that kind of thing....

So again.....I know this isn't what you expected.....but.....it is what it is......so....we might as well buckle down.....get used to the idea of waiting.... at least for a little while.......

*pause*

What were my holidays like as a Belmont? Whew.....I.....Well.......not much different than right now, I suppose.....

*sighs* Mostly going out and hunting......even if it was a holy day ordained by the church......the church has never really liked us all that much.....even though behind closed doors they beg us to help them with their monster and vampire problems, then turn around and with the same breath proclaim that it was God or whatever that saved them....so at least I didn't have to sit through an arduous and pointless church mass......

As a child though....at least before I was old enough to start really training as a hunter......I remember.....a lot of warmth......being handed sweets by anyone who was taller than I.....so many people......at least to a child it was a lot of people.....I'm not entirely sure......

But I remember sitting by a huge fire in the old family home, playing with the few toys I was given, the crackling of the fire and the sounds of everyone there talking....comforting background noise.....drinking warmed cider.......having a big....fantastic meal that I felt so adult at.....because we would all sit together down along this grand dining table.....the smells of pine trees and cinnamon......

There would be music sometimes.....and we would sing carols....or.....everyone else would.....I would listen.....sometimes sing along to the chorus if I knew it......

It was.....comfortable......I suppose......

Then  I got old enough.....and every opportunity was a training opportunity......and....the gatherings stopped happening......and the older I got.....the more I realized it was because the world was getting more dangerous....more monsters.....more vampires......the church damning us more than praising us.........not a whole lot of time or emphasis was put around family.....around getting together other than planning what to do next.....learning new things....trading information......no more of those sounds or smells or the grand dinners.......

*pause*

I apologize again.......it's not what you were expecting, I know......but....I cannot change the past......only can move forward.......

*huffs softly* It's all I've ever really known......I didn't really know any better until it was already too late......

You don't have anything to apologize for.....and......please....spare me the pity.....as I said.....it's in the past.....it's unchangeable.....

*pause*

Together? What do you mean, together?

I.....I don't know......It's....honestly something I haven't given that much thought to.....

I suppose.....if we were ever to have time that.....I don't know.....we could do something to celebrate......that is.....if we ever get any time.....

*pause*

Make time......*chuckles* That might be a hard concept for me....I apologize......

So much of the majority of my life has been inundated with learning how to be a Hunter that........it's hard to separate that with......me.....so making time for things outside this is........difficult......

I don't think I really need the....grand dinners....the sweets....the toys......I miss the....sense of family....the.....community......being with people who were my family.....who cared about me......even though that care was to train me as the next Belmont.....

Forgive me.....that's not helpful I.....

The fire.....the smell of pine....the music.....and as I said....the people......

Spending time with loved ones I suppose is what I miss most......

*pause*

I don't know if there's a way to recreate that........just you and I......

*pause*

Create our own celebration? Do it in our own way......Well.....I suppose.....

What would you have in mind?

*pause*

You.....you had a gift for me? But......I?

I see.....it.....it got lost back at the previous hideout.......*sighs* the one that burned down.......

*huffs a sigh* Shit I'm....I'm sorry......I.....I didn't even think......

It.....I'm embarrassed to say that I never even thought to get you anything......it.....didn't cross my mind.....I apologize.....

*pause*

I...I suppose.....but the idea that you did....I'm.....touched.....thank you......

It really isn't about the grand spectacle, is it?

The small things......the gestures.....that's what matters, isn't it?

*chuckles* I just said, "It's the thought that counts" in a stupid way, didn't I?

*pause*

I....enjoy spending time with you very much....You've helped make this whole.....Hunter business a far more....well I wouldn't exactly say 'pleasant'....and 'bearable' sounds awful......but.....you've made my life brighter......made getting up every day and continuing this fight easier.....and.....honestly.....your different points of view....your different way of life has undoubtedly changed the way I approach things....the way I live my own life......for the better......for the most part *chuckles*

No but.....with all seriousness.....

I think.....when we get out of this....why don't we try to spend a more pleasant evening that doesn't involve all this waiting and fighting for our lives.....I think....after all the time that I've given hunting....I can take at least an evening for myself......I think I've---We've earned that......

It may not be on the exact holiday.....but.....I don't think that entirely matters too much.....we both know what it's meant to symbolize.....and that's what matters.....

I....you don't even need to worry about getting me a replacement gift......on second thought......don't get me a second gift.....unless you give me time to find you one as well....because while I know you said I didn't need to.....I'd still feel like a complete arse....alright?

Besides.....relaxing....and spending time with you that doesn't involve danger beyond maybe drinking too much......I think that's far more meaningful.....unless again....you agree that we exchange gifts......deal?

*pause*

*chuckles* Deal.....

It may not be perfect......but I think....with your help......I think we can perhaps recreate some of that childhood magic the holiday once represented......if anyone can do it.....I know that you can.....

Thank you.....I know I said it before but.....genuinely......thank you......for all the things that I cannot properly put thoughts less alone words to at the current moment.....

Thank you.......