~Overwatch: Cole Cassidy X Listener SFW: I Ain't Goin' Anywhere~ {Patreon Exclusive}

What you have might not be perfect, and your anxieties might be getting the best of you, but Cole understands....he always understands.....

Contains: Established Relationship, Reassurance, Comfort, Anxiety Aide

Any month is an opportunity for reassurance, but this month in particular, with the lead up to Holidays that might not be celebrated, to the intense anxiety that might occur because of being on lockdown, I think some good old fashioned Cole Cassidy feelings are what we need.

~Audio Transcript Below~

Cassidy: Part of me wants to ask you why you're being so self sabotaging today in particular......but the bigger, more considerate part of me understands....at least a little bit......

I think I should start off by saying I ain't goin' anywhere--and.... before you reply just......let me say my piece?

Alright......

I ain't goin' anywhere, Sweetheart.

Your anxieties and your insecurities ain't gonna send me packin'. I know that's something that you worry about.....nigh constantly it seems.....but it's not—

*pause*

I know you think that I might want to 'be in a relationship with someone less crazy.....with someone less needy,' or 'with someone who doesn't constantly doubt your love for them' but......

Our relationship ain't perfect.....but the thing is.....no relationship, no matter how much you try, is perfect.....

I wouldn't have it any other way, either......

Not to say that.....I wouldn't want a relationship where these thoughts aren't constantly bothering you or anything like that......but as humans....we all have our problems....we are imperfect.....

Sure as hell don't know why or how you put up with me sometimes......

I wish dearly that you didn't have such high anxiety over it.....which is why I spend every day trying to show you and tell you how much I care for you and how much you mean to me, and that you are the one for me......

*pause*

It's not rotten work.....not if it's you.......

Imagine for a second how I feel......when I see you steeped in doubt or anxiety or any of the other problems that plague our world. Imagine.... being the one that makes you smile, being the one who loves you, who makes your life brighter, who helps make the anxieties.....well maybe not necessarily stop, but make them more bearable......make living your life something worth doing......

I can't describe anything more incredible than being that safety, being that shelter.....being there......for the one that you love, and making their life better.....

I find no greater joy than loving you......

So I'm in it for the long haul......Hell or high water.....

And you do the same for me......maybe not exactly the same....

But having you? You make me laugh, you remind me that I'm a good man, regardless of my own doubts......but you don't put up with any of my shit, neither.....I know that sometimes I get agitated, and I don't aim it at the right place.....and you call me out on it.....you help bring me back to center....bring me back to reality.....

You do just as much for me….as I do for you…….and that’s how relationships should be…..

You don't look upon me with pity or complete adoration......and while.....yeah.....you may adore me......you adore me for me, not just cause I'm a member of Overwatch......not just cause you see me as some bastion of greatness and hero-tude......

*pause*

*chuckles softly* See?

You remind me what I'm doin'.....why I'm here.....and what's important.....but you also remind me that life shouldn't be taken so seriously.....that if we only got one life on this rock, that we should spend it doing things that are important......and that includes being in love.....laughing....having fun......joy…..

Your brain is awful mean to you, we both know that......but it wasn't a deal breaker when we first got together and it ain't a deal breaker now.....that was never in question for me……..

I love you.....In this whole conversation I don't think I've said those actual words yet.....which I should've, I apologize.......

May I kiss you?

*pause*

*kiss* I love you so much, that nothin' short of complete and total evil would make me leave......

And besides loving you......I like you too......that's somethin' some people don't talk about enough....liking your partner....enjoying their company and reveling in the things that they enjoy with you....

After a long day, there's nothin' in this world that relaxes me.....that fills me with joy.....that makes me think, 'this is where I'm meant to be' than your laugh, your smile....getting to hold you....to kiss you.....to be in your presence.....the mere thought of you reminds me how much I love you.....

Rain or Shine.....even when you're havin' a rough time......especially when you're having a rough time.......

I'm not here because of charity.....because I think you'll go off the rails if I leave you......not of pity....

I'm here.....because I love you.....I love you more than I have loved anything in this world......and that's a fact....

No matter how many times you ask.....not matter how much you think you might be irritating me with the questions you ask, like, "you still like me, right?" and no matter the the intrusive thoughts.....I'm here.....

I want to help you see the person I see every day.....the person I wake up next to....the person I fight for......the person I love.

I love you, my Darlin'.......and I ain't goin' anywhere......