(Update) Some Personal Words <3

We're all with you 100% of the way, Vivzie. That's why we're here. *big hugs*

David Hintzel

I've suffered depression since I was in my early teens. It always comes in waves and some waves feel just that little bit worse than the others and makes me wonder if there's a limit to just how bad I can feel. The important thing to remember is that it does end. You will feel better. In fact your work has got me through some of the rougher patches of my life. Never give up and just keep pushing forward.

Wings

Even if at times you might feel weak- you shared this. that took strength. And you're doing your best to move forward in a positive way. That takes strength, too. If your work is attracting any negative comments, take heart. Because anything solid, anything substantial, will always cast a shadow. There will always, always be people that want to tear at something visible, to satisfy their internal urges. But focus on what you love, on what you create, on the people who enjoy it. Do what you can to joyfully improve, and just leave the rest of it behind. Your work is spectacular. Nothing perfect is ever done- and sometimes the charm, the personality of a comic or story, can be found in its imperfections. We all have flaws. But there's no shame in that- it just means we can approach life in our own zany, not entirely predictable way. Please take any time you need to care for your health, and know that- flaws and all- you're a good person, who has made some really cool stuff, and that your work does have meaning and value. Just keep being yourself. You're doing great.

David Lillie

We'll stick with you through thick and thin, no need to worry about that. I wish you all the best in your recovery

Shield Generator 7

Thanks for the heartfelt update. Things can be stressful, and most great artists have issues with their work. That's, IMHO, a major part of what makes them great! (Look at so much of the junk out there. "Ehh. It's good enough...") We're here, wanting you to be happy and able to do your thing your way, when you want to do it. I'll keep Patreonizing you, and sending good thoughts your way. Frankly, when I'm feeling overwhelmed at times, I often go to your "Die Young" animation to perk me up. It's just so fun and full of life. (Full screen on the big TV, and the subwoofer cranked a bit.) I see in reading some of the comments on Die Young that you've inspired others to take up drawing again, and strive harder with their animation work. Take that to heart! Your work is amazing, different and inspiring. I hope that you can see some of what we see in you and your work and keep your head up! Stay you! Stu

D. Stuart

You work harder and show more online (in work and talking to people) than I've seen any other person. Worry not, you are loved! So you shouldn't worry that you aren't doing enough for your fans or patrons. I would almost suggest you look at and lessen your workload a little, maybe space things out a bit. The key is not to get burnt out, finding that balance, and always take the haters with a gran of salt. This is only my humble opinion. I come from an art school background and understand the huge amount of work that goes into comics, world building, and especially animation (hand drawn no less!). I love your work and am inspired by it. It pushes me to think about my own comic ideas that I want to eventually get out there. I will stick with you and stay a patron through thick and thin. ^.^

I can only add the same as other people told me in the past. If you really feel bad - going to psychologist might help. It's completely not a shame to go and see one. Sometimes we can't solve problems by ourselves and need a specialist to help put our feelings into the right boxes. In the meantime - focus on the good things you have in your live and maybe let yourself take some rest from time to time. Getting overwhelmed can lead you to depression and I'm telling that from my personal experience. *friendly hugs* :)

Dan

I am deeply sorry to hear about your troubles and am sad that II can only offer you my heartfelt sympathy. I am not good with words but I feel it shows a great strength of will to have persevered and shown the degrees of awareness and sensitivity you do.

Dave

We're all 100% behind you and we all love your work. You have absolutely no reason to be hard on yourself. To me, you are the best artist on the whole internet and you are the only one I have ever even considered supporting on Patreon due to my rather low income, but I really want you to succeed because I love what you create and you're a huge inspiration.

Thomas Rejsenhus Jensen

No need to apologize. Hope things get better. I'm sure everyone here will agree that your art is awesome.

Eric Trombly

I'm happy that you shared this blog update, it helped me understand your situation a lot better - Thank you for being so honest :) I'd like to share some thoughts that hopefully help your situation! I'm happy to take the time to write this: Firstly, I just wanted to say that you shouldn't be too hard on yourself. I know that sounds like generic advice, but I feel it's an important one. Making mistakes is part of the creative process. If you learn to accept everything you do, weather it turned out the way you wanted to or not, you're basically unstoppable because nothing is holding you back! The solution is two part: Accept your work, and ignore the critics. (Write that down somewhere where you can see it daily if you need some focus assistance ◠‿◠ ) Speaking of critics, there will always be people who will try to manipulate you for their gain. It's just a part of the internet and I'm not even sure if they're aware they're doing it. This next paragraph is important: When you release new art, don't tell yourself "Will people hate my work?", there will always be that bunch of people, and that has nothing to do with your skill as an artist, it's THEIR inability to say nice things. Jeolosy, boredom, there's many reasons why they do it. Just know to expect the critics, but stay focused on us fans who realy do want to support you. Try to get into the mindset of accepting your faults, your true fans will be there to support you when things become difficult. Family and friends are also a great help! Speak your mind to people you trust. If you ever need a break from an area of your work, your fans, your real fans, will understand and support you! That's all the essential writing I needed to share, I don't want to ramble (Sorry If i did). To be honest, I became hesitant to share supportive comments, I thought my messages were coming across the wrong way. But if they are indeed helping you, then I'm willing to keep supporting you with them! :) Thanks for taking the time to read this. If you ever need to talk about anything, i'm happy to help! Please continue to do your best! Take care, Vivienne ◠‿◠

I empathize with what you are going through. A little over a month ago, I was in a similar rut; unsatisfied with the direction of my work, criticized on decisions I had made, and losing devotion for a job I once loved. Then I stumbled upon the work you had published on YouTube and was immediately enthralled by your art. Although I, myself, am not really an artist, I found inspiration in the works you created, and that helped to reignite the passion for my own work. Thank you for this message about what you are going through. I hope that things will turn more in your favor and that these comments may brighten your day.

Austin Ladshaw

I love your animations, comics, characters, and art style; Even if you or others find flaws in your work, that's how you grow! But what you already are capable of it wonderful, which to me is clearly evident to anyone who has watched one of your animation, read an arc of your comic, or spent time understanding your characters. I won't tell you you have to push on, but you need to focus less on what people expect and think of you - be it good or bad - and do what ultimately brings your creations alive in you!

fewfre

I am sorry you are going through such a rough time. I wish I could help you in some way. The only thing I can do is let you know I fell in love with Zoophobia and everything you have done since I saw "Timber" It lit a fire inside me that could not put put out for anything. As for ZP, I have not known about it for long, but I love Cameron, Jack, everybody. I just know you are going to go places and I feel privileged to join you on this adventure, even if it is just watching from the sideline. If it is any consolation, you are gorgeously beautiful, amazingly talented, and I believe in you

Jay (aka Kairukurumi)

Vivienne, you really have to stop distrusting yourself and feel bad about yourself. I know that it isn't something that you just do, it takes a lot of time to recover. It's one huge loop. I myself am in the same situation right now, and I know from at least 179 people to what, 180 THOUSAND people who supports you, for the person you are, and what you create. YOU saved me from being isolated in this room I'm in, drinking myself to death. YOU, saved me. I never thought I would get into art 'n' being an artist myself, until I saw your creations. You're inspiring me to do these things and get up in the morning, and inspiring tons of others to do it. Believe in yourself. ~Rasmusmwh

Rasmusmwh

Wow. What a message.. I don't want to sound like a wuss but this actually made me have a tear in my eye. Especially since I am struggling with exact same thing - lack of self confidence. Like today. I feel so tired after this day and yet can't sleep as various thoughts keep on flashing in my head.. And anxiety which drives me crazy and always holds me back from pursuing my goals. And people who also use you for being a genuine nice person. Sometimes it feels like i can't take this anymore.. But then again another day comes up and you try to start everything all over again. I really don't want to go deeper as i might go to deep. I just wish that every person who feels lonely and lost would just get a big hug and support saying - you can do it. :) P. S. Sorry if my English skills aren't very good but i really did my best to express my thoughts

Dan