duwwey

Hi

Added 2022-11-30 16:44:40 +0000 UTC

Hey, duwwey here.

I don't know what I have to say right now. I am also quite sure that you are tired of reading my long writing which only contains my complaints.

I'm sorry and thank you to all of you, who are still staying with me until now.

I don't know if it is depressing or anything

Maybe I've been procrastinating this whole time.

Am i sad? Yes no

Am i happy? Yes no

But that led me to conclude that... i'm tired, and i hate being depressed.

Because... it doesn't change anything. The thing is, I'm even more depressed.

I mean, i'm sad, and then depressed (maybe), and I blame myself, and i become more sad. And it happened again and again.

And when I got to that point of exhaustion. I realized that, I thought of staying depressed in the hope that a miracle would come and save me, which would never happen.

And what came to me was just the opposite. My condition was getting worse, both mentally and physically. Even the environment is also affected.

And one of them is my laptop is dying. My main device which i use for many activities is now dying.

And maybe this is the karma that I have to accept.

I'm grateful that my laptop can still live even though I have to set the bios and others. And I'm worried.

From now on, I must move forward. I can't guarantee to you that I will be consistent, but I try to suggest myself to always be consistent, no matter what. Or new karma will come to me.

Here are some sketches I made while I was away. I haven't finished Hazumi's CG yet.

I hope you guys like it.