(WIP) [ANIMATION] MIS "VE Animation"

Oopsie poops! I disappeared again! Teehee, how quirky of me.

Sorry about that, you know I am. I guess I had something of an art block. I might as well talk about it, because no one can stop me from yapping about myself. If you're not interested, read no further. I won't be hurt. Really, I won't be. Just leave, like you always do. But seriously, I'd like to talk about this in case any of you are also artists, and may run into a similar issue. Maybe it could help?

Anyways, this month started off well for me, was getting work done on this one. Which has been a real fresh bitch, if you ask me. That's where the issues started, it's been really difficult and that's been making me feel bad. Another thing was, if you remember, I had mentioned joining a merchandising group, where I will (eventually) be making sinful products to sell. I joined the Discord, and for the first time in my life, I actually talked to other artists, en masse. Now, I've talked to plenty of artists before, but this was the first time I talked with other artists who were as prolific as I was. So it was very much a "First time among my people" feeling, at least initially. But, a lot of those guys are great. And I started getting jealous. Which is such a shitty feeling, I don't draw to be the bestest there ever was, I think that's such a weak motivation. But there I was, seeing all this great art and then thinking such thoughts as "Why can't I do that?! I'll never be that good!" Gross. Plus, I found out. I uh, don't really like other prolific artists. I had this preconception that talking with other people who were as passionate about art would be this amazing experience, that it would be this place of mutual learning and growth. But it was like everyone was competing for the spotlight. And there was a ton of infighting. I think it was just kinda disappointing, definitely a "don't meet your heroes" experience for me, and it was making me overly negative. So I muted it and went back to being a creepy isolated weirdo like usual.

Another thing was... hard to explain, but it all ties together nicely, I think. I don't think I've said so in a post, but I've definitely talked about it with people. Probably too much. It's no secret. Before I started animating, I wanted to do comics. SFW comics, sorry. But yeah, I made a submission to Image Comics and everything. It got rejected. I mean, obviously. That's something I've wanted to do since I was in Middle School, over half my life I've wanted to do comics. I still want to do comics. and, that's where some of the issues are, too. Lately I've gotten back into watching movies, which has gotten me excited about fiction and storytelling, which has gotten me really wanting to make comics again. As you can probably tell, smut animations are not the same thing as SFW comics. Whenever I would try to animate, I would get this feeling of "What are you doing? This isn't comics." It was like I was being repelled away from my tablet. But, I got it mentally worked out. I won't be stopping animation, ever. I want that to be public record. Yes this post will be behind a paywall, but it's public record enough. I'll always be KYDE, I'll be making my comics as KYDE, and continuing to animate while making them. The thing is, I really separated them in my mind. Mentally, they are their own thing. Even if I'll be using the same exact skill set for either. It's hard to explain, and I know this makes me look weird. I dunno, the ship has sailed on that though, I'm definitely one of the dregs of society. Just know, that there isn't mental conflict anymore. I feel great about animation, and I don't feel like it's robbing me of comic stuff. Or something.

That leads me to my final announcement. Thing. I have been asked a lot to make longer animations. A lot. People want to see me really push this as far as it can go. And, at the time, the idea really intimidated me. But, I watched a couple shorts, to see how they're done, and I know I can do it. I feel it in my bones. I'd just have to figure out how to script it. And be bent over the barrel by hiring sound ghouls and voice witches. So, yes. I want to make longer stuff, now. I'm going to start. Not for a little while, I want to go through some art courses, learn some things. I still feel unhappy with my art, so I'd like to iron that out. But yeah, I'll be doing that. I'll still do these loops. of course. But I'll be doing a long one alongside them. Every so often, something like every two months, or maybe once a month if I could manage it. I think I could. Animating all the variant shit takes so much time. I bet doing a shot of a longer animation would take way less time. And no, before you ask. No variants on those. that would be pure fucking insanity.

So yeah, that's been my month. Sorry about not finishing this sooner. A big thing was wanting to do this animation stuff right, though. I don't want to feel like I'm just filling a quota, or going up against a deadline. I'd like this to mean something. I'd like for there to be something to work towards. Which, in animation's case, is longer stuff. Proper shorts. I'm gonna get out of this niche I'm in, already. But yeah, I'll get this finished then come in clutch before the month is up. You know how I am. I'll go through the list of suggestions, find something that could be done in like, 18 hours or so.